natsu's pov
she watched as I played my fingers dancing on the keys as lucy used to say. my eyes watered while I played. The years i was away on some tangent of my life, being a f****** idiot when i had the world in front of me.I watched as my daughter looked memorized at the keys her face, freckled with my childhood freckles and pink hair. no dna test could tell me i wasn't her father. She was filled with so much wonder and curiosity. it plagued me that I pushed away her mother years ago wanting fame, when i could have had a family. i heard gajeel's shoes tap on the floor behind me as he walked into the room checking on me. i felt lunas head lean onto my shoulder yawning. i continued playing but slowly changing into a lullaby singing softly.
Fate has been cruel and order unkind
How can I have sent you away?
The blame was my own; the punishment, yours
The harmony's silent today
But into the stillness I'll bring you a song
And I will your company keep
Till your tired eyes and my lullabies
Have carried you softly to sleep
I thought back to when i was with my lovely lucy, her hair flowing across my and her pillow. her fingers intertwined with mine. the day i received news i could go into music. my dream…..
Once did a dragon who shone like the sun
Look out on his kingdom and sigh
he smiled and said, "Surely, there is no dragon
So handsome and so well beloved as I"
So great was his reign and so brilliant his glory
That long was the shadow he cast
Which fell dark upon the young wife he loved
And grew only darker as days and nights passed
i was so foolish, lucy was my dream…. a family, her kisses made me more drunk then ten shots of vodka could.
Lullay moon princess, goodnight daughter mine
And rest now in moonlight's embrace
Bear up my lullaby, winds of the earth
Through cloud, and through sky, and through space
Carry the peace and the coolness of night
And carry my sorrow in kind
Luna, you're loved so much more than you know
Forgive me for being so blind
Soon did that dragon take notice that others
Did not give his love her due
And neither had he loved her as she deserved
he watched as his wife's unhappiness grew
But such is the way of the limelight, it sweetly
Takes hold of the mind of its host
And that foolish dragon did nothing to stop
The destruction of one who had needed him most
"goodbye lucy.." i remember saying as she slammed the door in my face, my feet drug as i walked down the stairs of her small house into the street many bystanders watching me walk.
Lullay moon princess, goodnight daughter mine
And rest now in moonlight's embrace
Bear up my lullaby, winds of the earth
Through cloud, and through sky, and through space
Carry the peace and the coolness of night
And carry my sorrow in kind
Luna, you're loved so much more than you know
May troubles be far from your mind
And forgive me for being so blind
the signs of her being pregnant was so there. her puking, her emotions, her asking about families….
The years now before us
Fearful and unknown
I never imagined
I'd face them on my own
May these very many winters
Swiftly pass, I pray
I love you; I miss you
All these miles away
May all your dreams be sweet tonight
Safe upon your bed of moonlight
And know not of sadness, pain, or care
And when I dream, I'll fly away and meet you there
Sleep...
"mama misses him," she says softly to me as she falls asleep, little luna her eyes already closed her head laying on my lap.
"papa misses mama to," I say as quiet as i can.
hours later
relaxing on the couch, happy, my cat laying across my lap gray accidentally put white hair dye shaped as wings onto his back making him look blue with white wings.
"you want lucy back?" i hear jumping looking behind me seeing levi.
"yes… i was so stupid. i" a sigh escapes my lips. "i would die just to be able to see her smile again."
"i believe you." she says. "it explains alot. and i saw you with luna. only a caring father would play for that long. and took care of her that fragile. "
"she's a beautiful porcelain doll, i don't want any boys to break her heart like i did to lucy. i would regret everything still if they weren't mine. she could have cheated and created them, and i wouldn't have cared. i'd still want her back. shes the best of me." my hands fumbled as i shook a sigh escaping my lips. "I miss her.."