Frozen does not belong to me

*Trigger Warning!* some parts of the story may trigger, please read at your own
risk.

Chapter 1

Not Elsanna BTW


She was shamefully a cutter since she was 12; Elsa had been fighting it, her parents helped her with it, she had tried keeping it a secret from them but her mother noticed the thin cuts when Elsa reached for something.

She and her parents had a long talk about it, but all Elsa really told them was she felt guilty for hurting Anna and she had no idea why she hurt herself. Her parents tried their very best to be supportive and helpful in the situation. Having people know seemed scary but she realized after her parents found out, she realized it helped.

She was self-injury free for nearly a year, she thought that she could handle them leaving for two weeks, that she could do it on her own while they were gone. It was only a short period of time. But the moment she and Anna were inform of their parents' death it was enough to throw her over she cut like mad and it was actually fairly deep. Deeper than she had ever gone before.

She wasn't even sure what she wanted anymore, she felt like there was no one else in the world that cared about her. Her thoughts trialed to suicide, but then there was the faintest knock.

"Elsa?" The older sister breathed in deeply as she waited for her sister to continue. She prayed she would just go away so Elsa wouldn't hurt her again.

Again.

There was a sob noise, sort of throwing Elsa off, but then she remembered what had happened a few days ago.

"Elsa, please, I know it must be hard but I can't do this on my own and I know you can't either. The funeral is in two days and you haven't left your room and barely eaten since they delivered the news." Elsa remained quiet, Anna waited and when Elsa didn't reply she continued.

"I scared myself Elsa, earlier I was going to just—" Anna cut herself off with muffled sob, "I was going to kill myself Elsa, and then I remembered about you and how you wouldn't do something like that. How much I need you and you need me. Elsa we can't live like this anymore anything that happened in the past we can just set aside and start over." Elsa wore a surprise and sorrowful expression.

Anna continued crying, "Please Elsa, I can't afford to lose another person, and neither can you." Her words struck Elsa's heart. She kept Elsa from killing herself, she kept herself mostly clean from cutting. Life was getting slightly better until, Anna took off her glove and Elsa accidently revealed her powers.

The fear and shame all came crumbling down on her and she ran off to the mountains and built herself an ice palace. She hurt herself there a couple of times but then Anna came and asked her to return home, then Elsa ended up getting upset and hurting Anna.

She then hurt herself even more. When Hans told Elsa Anna had died because of her Elsa was done, with herself, with life. She had lost everything, and she was just done.

But then Anna saved her and froze and that killed Elsa to see, Elsa hated remembering her sister like that. After Anna melted and the kingdom melted, everyone seemed to except Elsa's powers and forgot about her hurting Anna.

But she didn't.

Elsa cut herself after the melting of the Arendelle, she cut herself worse than ever before, she was surprise she hadn't bled to death. She hid the evidence though and decided she needed to get better.

For Anna, her baby sister. The girl who had sacrificed her own life for the sister who shut her out.

She hadn't cut in nearly a week and things were going smoothly Anna and Kristoff's relationship was working out and Elsa couldn't be more happy for her; though it was hard to see her little sister grow up.

Elsa's thoughts were snapped back into reality when Anna walked in, quickly Elsa pulled down her half rolled up sleeve. "Elsa we should do something together."

Elsa sighed heavily and did not look at her sister; who probably wore her puppy dog eyes, "Anna I have work to do, go spend time with Kristoff or something." Elsa said, looking at all the papers she had worked on before her mind wandered off.

Anna huffed, "Yeah but he isn't my sister, and I want to spend time with you, because you're the best bigger sister any could ask for and you have ice powers which is beyond cool." Anna said.

Elsa bit her lip, "You're wrong I'm not that great." She said aloud accidently, she regretted it because she knew the lecture Anna was about to give.

Anna furrowed her eyebrows, "Elsa what have I told you about beating up on yourself?"

Elsa sighed holding her head still not looking at her sister. "Anna please, I have work to do."

Anna faked a sniffle, "…Elsa."

Not thinking Elsa looked over at her and saw her pleading eyes, the 21-year-old grunted and stood up. "Fine Anna, but not for long."

Anna perked up and beamed "Really!?" She jumped up and grabbed her sister.

Anna had taken everywhere around town and in the castle and every place Anna could possibly think of and told her stuff about it, a couple of the things she just made up though.

They finally settled down and Anna was just blabbering about random stuff, Elsa was worn out and was barely listening and didn't notice her sleeve slip down until Anna stopped suddenly, horror danced across the younger girl's face.

Anna's heart stopped, as she reached for Elsa's arms. "What's this?" Elsa glanced up at her.

"What do you mean, is there something wrong?" Elsa said noticing her sister's expression.

Anna took her arm and pulled down the sleeve further examining it, Elsa's eyes widened and she tried to pull away.

"Oh my…Elsa did you do this?" Anna asked almost in tears; could her big sister really be a cutter?

Elsa shook her head wildly, "Don't worry about it Anna, I-I'm….fine."

"No, Elsa, if you were fine then you wouldn't have done this." Anna said still holding Elsa's arm, but she pushed her away and ran into her room Anna went with her but before she reached her room Elsa slammed the door shut and locked it.

Anna began pounding on the door, "Please, Elsa, please. Let me in, I-I want to help you. I'm not angry, or disgusted I want to get you through this. Please." Elsa listened to her sister beg at the door and pour her little heart out; but she couldn't find the strength to even tell her to leave. All she could do was cry.


Anna left Elsa alone and went to sit down and work everything out. She knew Elsa was defiantly the one who did it and it probably (most defiantly) was intentional. That would mean something must be really bothering Elsa, but what? Her powers? Anna was just so confused, but she wanted to help her, she wanted Elsa to know she was there for her.

No matter what.

She thought of her options, she couldn't just go and tell Kristoff that would make matters worse, it looked like it was just going to be up to her to help Elsa. But she was determined to do it.

Elsa stopped crying, she drew a long deep breathe, she knew she had to face her sister sometime and Elsa was an adult now, she could do it, even though she dreaded it. She shakily reached for the door knob and turned it.

She had to admit; she was a little surprised Anna wasn't sitting there anymore. She probably was asleep, it was nighttime after all, but wouldn't have one of the staff inform her of dinner. Unless Anna told them not to bother her.

Elsa made her way through the halls, looking for any sign of Anna, just when Elsa started regretting even coming out Anna spotted her.

"Oh hi Elsa." Elsa turned around to face her but their eyes didn't meet; Elsa was afraid of what she's see.

"Hi Anna." Elsa said nervously.

Anna bit the bottom of her lip trying to think of what to say, "I'm sorry about earlier, that was very immature of me." Elsa apologized.

"O-oh it's okay, I probably would have done the same really," Anna said shakily, she was trying to make sure not to say something that would upset Elsa.

"So…" Anna said but didn't add on to it.

"So?" Elsa repeated.

Anna took a deep breath, trying to find a way to her thoughts into words. "What are we going to do, I want to help you Elsa, I do, please let me. I'll do anything." Anna said truthfully, Elsa sighed.

"Anna there really isn't a way to help me." Elsa said.

Anna shook her head "No Elsa, you're wrong of course there is and I'm not giving up on you. I'm not going to stand back and what my sister hurt herself and act as if nothing is going on. Elsa you need help." Anna said, Elsa looked down she felt really ashamed of herself. She knew Anna wanted to help, but Elsa didn't want Anna to get involved; Anna would only end up getting hurt.

"I'm sorry Anna, I don't think you should get involved, this can't go away, and this whole situation will only make things worse for both of us. This is my fight and my fight alone." That said she turned to leave but Anna grabbed her arm gently.

"Please, Elsa you need to stop doing everything on your own, I know we're still repairing our relationship, I know it's going to be hard, I know it isn't just going to go away and I'm okay with that because I know we can get through this Elsa, together. You're my sister and I love you and I want you to know I'm there whenever you need me, I won't tell anyone else, not even Kristoff but please let me help you." Anna plead, tears formed in Elsa's eyes but she refused to let them fall. They continued to stand in the same position for awhile. Elsa took a shaky breath.

"Anna you don't know what you're getting into. I-I'm not worth the trouble." Elsa stuttered. Anna shook her head; even though Elsa wasn't looking at her.

"Elsa, you are worth it and I'm going to prove it to you," Anna said reassuringly. Finally some tears escaped her eyes, but since she wasn't looking at Anna she didn't notice.

"Anna, I have to go…" Elsa said, but she realized if said anymore she would cry. Anna heard the sadness in Elsa's voice, and thoughtlessly pulled Elsa into a hug.

"I'm here for you Elsa, you'll pull through I'm sure of it." Elsa hugged her back. Anna let go and pulled away smiling sweetly at her older sister.

"So whenever you need to talk I'll be here for you okay? Promise me you'll at least tell me when you hurt yourself, okay?" Anna said seriously, Elsa gave in and agreed which made Anna smile even bigger.

"Great! Okay, so uh…if you want I could give you some space. Do you need any dinner?" She asked, Elsa shook her hair.

"I'm fine Anna, I need to get back to my work though," Elsa explained. Anna nodded.

"Of course." She said still smiling slightly. Elsa smiled at her weakly before going back to her work. Anna took a deep breath before deciding she probably should go to bed, she hoped Elsa would really come to her and tell her when she hurt herself.

Elsa sighed as she got back to work, her thoughts kept wandering back to the events of the day, which then lead back to her memories she was having earlier and that's when she realized that she was getting the urges again. She tried to ignore it but they were getting worse and worse.

Elsa could only hope that she wouldn't slip out and relapse.


This is my first fanfiction so please bear with me! This story will probably not be very long unless I get enough people saying for me to continue it...

I'm familiar with self-injury, very, very familiar *nervous laugh*in fact I'm currently in "recovery" for it. Anna had a much better reaction to finding out Elsa was a cutter than my sister (who totally flipped out) but she was supportive after she thought about things, it wasn't her freak out that upset me as much as it was her running off and telling our other sister and they both forced me to tell my mother.

However this isn't about me, this is about Elsa! Oh and let's not forget wonderful Anna! I'm not planning on making Anna all perfect nor Elsa and I'm gonna try and keep everyone as best in character as possible.

Welp movin' right along how about y'all review and tell me what you think. Updates will be slow because I actually have a very hectic life *groan* I barely get to sleep.

Just one more time I need to clear this, this is not a Elsanna story, this is focused on sister relationship.