This story has made me feel so many emotions I wish to not experience again. This was one evil rollercoaster which is yet to continue. It'll be unlikely but if you do continue, it'll be appreciated. Nice job.

Hello, I love your story! Even though it has been three years since you wrote it, it’a just so beautifully written and I can say that it’s one of the best fan-fictions I’ve read in my life :) i love how you elaborated on Ivan’s tragic backstory, making him a sad and sympathetic villain that I feel love and hate towards.. your story is such a psychological thriller and it always keeps me on the edge

beautiful history

Not much a fan of the ending but it rapped shit up quite nicely!
I love rusame but I was mainly here for the suspense/plot/ and eventually ameripan since the rusame in this isn’t appealing/uncomfortable to me.
Anyways really good work!

“Why didn't Alfred attack Ivan with the pipe or the bottle when he had the chance?”

MORE LIKE WHY THE FUCK DO PEOPLE IN THIS STORY NOT HAVE ANY COMMONSENSE WHEN THEY HAD THE CHANCE?!

It’s fucking nearly 3am holy fuck the intense!

It’s been years, I never got around to reading the end of this story so that’s what I’m finally gonna do

okay it’s two forty in the morning and i kinda want to go to bed but i really don’t want to abandon kiku and matthew because i love them both so much so i’m forced to lay here awake with eighty projects due tomorrow texting my friend continuously about how i’m dying, more specifically how kiku is dying.

Hi, I just now read this story and I wasn't a long time follower. I just wanted to let you know that part of me is glad you didn't write the last part in the end, the curiosity is strong but we can all imagine what happened and it wasn't pretty. Six years, hell.
I just wanted to thank you for writing an interesting story.
The way Ivan died felt fitting (if it was even really him... I hope it was).

Ps: when "anything was 2 good for him sick fuck killed again and again and again and what about those families and lives he ruined. it makes me sick young people romanticize this sick shit, its truley disgusting", it was pretty funny in a morbid way.

I had these bloody lockers at my middle und high-schools. I could never get them open. Middle school left the thing unlocked. High-school carried mein shit around. So I smpathise.

I know this is late, but god damn it. I started reading this at like 2 in the morning and finished it at 3:20 and God damn is it good! I do hope that this story isn't abandoned and or the author won't do it in the future.

Oh my god. Oh my fucking god. This is so... I can't describe in word. Your writing is amazing! This gives me chill. I'm not lying but this literally took me 10 months to read. And holy shit, six years? I can imagined what Al had been through. Yeah,I came here and I expected sexytime. And the sequel is Phantom,right? K

I read your last Author's note and I must say, you took my breath away. I didn't realize that people seemed to only want 'sexytimes' as you put it, or just want more Ivan and Alfred angst. To be honest, I think your story was perfect just the way it was. Every part of it had a meaning, and they helped build a base and construct it, and as you went along it held up because of its strong foundation. Those parts with Basch and Kiku that did not involve the sort of characters that were mainly focused on did not require them. They were special and unique on their own, but also elegantly intertwined to show you what was going on in the other lives of the characters. They were just as important because they were apart of the story, no matter what people say they are significant to the development of all the words that you have so gracefully weaved together. It's almost like a loom. Each thread is needed to make the tapestry. Take out the so called 'filler chapters' (example being Basch), holes start to appear in the tapestry and suddenly it seems to be lacking. Every thread is as important as the rest and every detail matters. To much time focused on Ivan and Alfred would overwhelm the tapestry with certain threads. Too much red. So you even it out. Add more vibrant colors until it is perfectly balanced. But nonetheless it is /your/ tapestry. /Your/ story. It could be that everything I say sounds like total crap but I wanted to tell you that I throughly enjoyed every bit of your tapestry. Even if it had been a year, even if it still will remain unfinished, I wanted you to know that your tapestry might be hanging loose at the ends but that's what makes it all the more to treasure. I admit, I drifted off in my words and probably strayed from the point but even as you point that accusing finger and say 'I told you so' all I can do is smile.

Okay, this is hands down one of the best things I've read, including published books. You write it just like a horror/suspense book. I mean seriously, if this was a book I would buy it and display it proudly. There were parts that made me go "did that just happen? I think it did *makes a slightly grossed out face*" but that's okay because it's exactly what makes your writing so amazing. Reading this reminded me of reading my first Stephen King book, and being disgusted and captivated at the same time.

The way you wrote Ivan is one of my favorite versions of him, crazy with the need for love to the point that he genuinely thinks he is doing the right thing. I got about halfway through this story before absolutely needing to share it with someone, so I told my friend about it, and she's excited to start reading it too.

I hope you update just to give a bit more info about what happened during Alfred's captivity and the aftermath, but if you choose not to I'll live. This chapter gives enough hints of the ending that I'll be thinking about it for a long time, imagining what happened in my head. I assume Alfred will never be the same, so I am curious just how he's handling everything.

Anyways this review is really long and rambling so I'll end it by saying again that you're an amazing writer and I haven't been able to get this story out of my head for the past few days I've been reading it. I'm almost sad I'm done reading now because it was so great, but I know I'll be back to reread it again and again.

Amazing just amazing! I love your work.