loved this and I plan to check out your novel!

Pleaseeeeee update I love this story soo much

This was absolutely amazing. I've read a lot of other fics about Sam being suicidal, but this one just, ugh... I have no words. It was pretty much perfect. I liked how Sam found himself saying things he didn't really mean, as if on autopilot, and I LOVE the way you also told us his real thoughts. It was just beautifully written :)

I did enjoy this story and how Sam spoke was scary but true.

Aww, I loved the scene between John and Sam. Overall really loved this chapter. Good Job :)

oh, no. What will happen next? I liked this entire chapter with Sam drunk off his mind and hurting and being all angsty.
Finally a breakdown! I missed your breakdown scenes! :D
Maybe you could write Dean's or John's POV of this story and how they dealt with this chapter! Just an idea.

Poor Sam and Dean. I'm so mad at clueless John. He's just...ugh. And I can relate to some of Sam's thoughts. Like, he wants his family to find out...he doesn't want them to find out. He doesn't want to die...he doesn't want to live either.

Sam's backstory in how he started self-harming is something that is one of my headcanons. That Sam and John are arguing too much and it causes Dean to get hurt and then the Winchesters are in an angsty mood :)
Also, I hope this will have a good Sam breakdown, I'm craving one good breakdown suddenly :D

Oops, the shit hit the fan. I really liked how you portrayed John in here. It's so in character and how Dean's the ever peace-maker is so true. You wouldn't be interested to write something centered around him, would you? Pretty please?

This is a really nice story and you have improved so much since writing this :) But, it's still a good read and I'm interested to know what will happen to Sam :)

I just found out that you wrote some spn fics too. Though I'm more of a Dean fan but this is a heartbreaking start :) I wonder what would happen next.

This type of situation couldn't have been dealt with any better. So many people treat this kind of situation like a joke in their stories, but this was just so beautifully bittersweet. I loved it :)

it is good

I absolutely loved it. This is one of the best sam self harm stories I have read. So many of them involve Wincest and I can't even read them. Yours is absolutely awesome.

Wow. I'm weeping. I have to tell you, I've been to that dark place Sam goes to in this story, to those emotions and that hopelessness, to cutting as a means to cope, and you nailed it. All of it. Unbelievably well. It is so rare that I read anything about this kind of situation that rings true, but I connected to your story completely. Very powerful writing.

Then there's the fact that it was our beloved Sammy going through it - - it tore my heart out to see him go through this, and to see Dean and John go through it, too! One opinion to consider or disregard as you wish: I don't think Sam would thank them at the end, I think he's still more or less suicidal, and it feels too quick for him to get to the point where he would feel, much less express, gratitude for what they've done. He's so emotionally overwrought at this point I don't think he would do it just to make them feel better, either.

I loved this story. PLEASE please please write a sequel! I'm very interested to see where you would go with this.

Thanks for writing and sharing this.