THIS WAS THE MOST PERFECT AND BEAUTIFUL THING EVER AND JUSTT OMG I CANT EVEN ILYSM

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You captured the characters beautifully here! John has always been an enigma to me, because on one hand I understand why he does what he does, and I sympathise with the many burdens he has, but on the other hand he is very unreasonable, self righteous, small minded and obsessive. Not to mention the way he treats his children.
Although I don't hate him, I by absolutely no means think he was a good father. This comes from someone who, like yourself, has self proclaimed daddy issues haha.
But seriously, I loved this, and I loved bobby, and I loved the whole teenangst!sam and dean relationship dynamic. Imma go check out your other stories now

wow! i really loved this! loved teen Sam with all his angst and grief! really awesome!

Damn i love.
But really had Sam known when he was a kid about the demon blood wouldn't things have been different?

WONDERFUL story! Found it on the Suicidal!Sam list, and SO glad I did. You captured his teenage pain and angst just so perfectly and I could just SEE the events unfolding the way they did. You captured all the characters so well...even John being a total ass without being a monster. (Of course, now I'm going to have to go read that one you mention "My Boys," and see just how much of dick he is in that one, LOL)

This was an outstanding story! However, it felt unfinished which was a little disappointing. The ending was too abrupt and didn't fit with the rest of it. It was like you were trying to wrap the ending up in a pretty bow and the story was too dark for a convenient ending. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely loved the story! It was well written and extremely well paced but the last chapter let it down. This isn't meant in any way to flame you, it's meant as constructive criticism and I hope you take it that way, you write really well. You said yourself you weren't completely happy with it so I'm guessing you had problems with how to deal with the story resolution, it really needed another chapter. Sorry, I'm not a member so I don't have any way of posting this so it can be replied to.

I just read this for the millionth time (And I still cry when Sam's thinking about suicide)

The last scene of "In my time of dying." IS poignant and beautiful and makes me have so many deep feels for poor Dean in that moment but also Sam who YES had tried to pick a fight with John at the last.. BUT it seemed like John was doing nothing but sitting by and watching Dean die (And after John did not show up in "Faith." that had to have seriously p'd Sam off I know it would me) and Sam was going through that tension cause he'd been fighting so hard to try and keep his dad from giving up on Dean and then suddenly Dean's awake right after John had asked for a summoning spell (I think Sam had already put 2 and 2 together instantly and knew that his dad had made a deal, so the anger and tension of having just almost seen Dean die and his dad seemingly doing nothing about it shifts into anger that his dad didn't try for any other options and he knows now that he's going to lose his dad which is going to bury Dean in guilt once he also realizes what their dad did and he didn't have time to process between fuse lit and "KABOOM!") and Dean should have understood where Sam was coming from (Of course he didn't remember that Sam seemed to be the only one not giving up on him.. (Stupid unresolved issues... Grrr..) and there John is telling Dean that if he can't save Sam he'll have to kill him which is one VAGUE (THANKS A LOT DAD! Now what the HELL do you mean? Do you mean if Sam goes darkside and there's no saving him?.. Do you mean if Sam ends up in a vegetative state like I was almost in I should pull the plug? Do you mean that when that stupid CROATOAN bitch infects Sam with the CROATOAN virus later this year that if he goes rabid I'll have to put him down? WHAT?!.. Give some specifics a man's life (YOUR SON'S LIFE) hangs in the balance!) and Sam's not even there to defend himself for an act he hasn't even committed yet.. He's out of the room innocently getting his dad some coffee (WHICH.. NICE TIMING JOHN.. Way to drop dead right as the kid you'd just dissed to your oldest is coming back from trying to bring you a freaking peace offering and HE'S gonna be the one to find you dead.. Great way to scar your son for the rest of his life!)

Sorry for the rant.. LOVE the story!

Really, really great story! Excellent characterizations and storyline. Definitely adding this to my favorites.

This is a scary picture of what life musthave been like for Sam in high school.

Great story! looking forward to reading more of your writing.

Great story to cheer up this dreary, rainy day. Nicely done. I really enjoyed it.

Wow! I just happened to stumble upon this story and so far it's amazing! I can picture the scenes as if I'm watching it on t.v. I can't wait to read more!

Dude... I haven't cry this hard since- well, I don't remember a fic where I cried this hard.

Hope you'll win!

I adore this fic! The only thing I love more than Sam angst is Dean angst, and this is Nirvana for me :)

Sam, Dean and Bobby are all totally in-character - and, if we knew more about John in canon, I'm sure he'd be quite similar to your John. I always picture him being unreasonably hard on Sam, and always dragging him out of one school and into another... you captured it beautifully. The whole time I was reading this, I just wanted to hug Sam - poor kid!

That said, I think I understand why you want a few more thousand words. I wanted more of the trek out of the woods after the Wendigo incident, and also some more one-on-one dialogue for Sam and Dean, for example. I don't know if that's what you meant when you said there was more you could have included, but if/when you rewrite this, I think it'll be one of my favourite non-Wincest angst fics ever. It's so rich already - I'd love to see what else is lurking in your mind! :)

John really can be the whole son of a bitch but landlady with all his life to dean and specially to sammy, is so much his desire to protect the kid that always ended for hurting and to remove every day more sam