I am only one chapter in to this and your writing style has me feeling unworthy. It is so amazingly wonderful to read a story like yours, hidden gems in the dumpster fire of a site we call .
Thank you for writing! Honestly, if you published a book, I would read it.

Oh my gosh! This is such a beautiful and heartfelt story! I really hope you continue writing it. Keep up the great work.

it look nice story

oh man can't wait to read about them finally meeting in person. update soon

My dear PBG, it has been a break indeed (perhaps I should capitalise that!), but I am so glad to see this posted at long last. And you're welcome, as always.

This chapter is… *gestures uselessly at screen* I have no words to adequately describe your talent. I think I've said this before, but it bears repeating – you don't so much type words as you paint pictures with them. It's like this little movie screen opens up in my mind's eye and I see everything you describe from the very first word to the last.

Which will be mighty handy once we've gotten over oily villains, cute kittens ad bleeding damse – uh, I mean beleaguered tycoons *coughs to cover up faux pas* and come to much more delicious horizontal or vertical action on a soft surface. Like a bed. *hint that is as subtle as a blaring foghorn*

But rightnow, you have us wade through the beatifully eerie landscape of that ever growing pool of blood *shudders* It sounds so entracing, droplets and rivulets, all dripping and flowing and oh God, Kaname is bleeding his life out! *feels the need to peer under the table and bring her legs up to sit cross legged on her chair* Such is the power of your writing. The suffering and the angst and the hopelessness… it is almost too much to think of what Kaname has suffered to arrive at this state!

Only I think the poor, poor dear has gone past all that and it is us helpless readers that have our hearts ripped from our heaving chests, dumped (while still pumping) into a blender that is then whisked on at full speed.

Thank heavens for that little kitty – she must have been so alone here until Kaname came. They might not yet be best friends, but you made my throat hurt with this line – 'he alone with his thoughts and she with hers with the occasional interaction to reassure a fellow creature they weren't alone in an unkind world.' And I'm not surprised she favoured him – Kaname is a gentle, generous soul with a soft voice and a gentle hand.

The kitty sure took her sweet time to ascertain what was wrong and all the while I am wringing my hands and beseeching her with tears in my eyes to quickly go find help, bleating all the sayings I can think of, like Time is of the essence! Time waits for no man! A stitch in time saves nine!

And then you whisk us to a more peaceful scene. Zero… in the midst of my panic, I have to smile at how he's trying to integrate himself in human life – nothing says that quite like newpapers and coffee *smiles and whips out a straw to taste said beverage* I don't care for waxy coffee either *wrinkles her nose*

He has the strongest of will power – to have found his beloved, to be so near him and yet to ration out the minutes that he can stare in adoration at him.

He has the most noble of hearts – to want nothing but a perfect love, to want Kaname's complete and most importantly, conscious surrender.

He has the most benevolent Mother, from whom he inherited his noble spirit and boundless love. That parting… my dear, you have again wrung my heart, but very, very sweetly. The farewell of a mother to a child is so poignant… and poor dear little Yuuki had to be soothed in that manner. I loved the image of Zero breathing in her sweet peach scent… and then locking eyes with his Mother… all those things unsaid yet felt… and then walking away. Just beautiful. *sniffles*

And I know I have also told you this before, but I am so, so, so glad Zero still has his wings! Hallelujah! Of course he's still gorgeous and wonderful and sexy without them *clears throat* but like the Goddess herself said, I can't wait for that happy day when those wondrous silver wings that will burst forth just as he's crouched over Kaname (and in him) and smiling into his happy adoring eyes with that lovely violet scent surrounding them… gah! *shakes head to dislodge M rated images*What I meant to say is that Zero is now even more gorgeous, more wonderful and dead sexy with those wings!

Bless the Goddess!

And oh. Ugh. Ew. And all manner of similar words to decribe the disgusting being (inside and out, top to bottom, front to back) that is Rido. *shudders in disgust*

If I may, it's almost funny, dear, because I know of a character in a different fandom, a man who is tall and wiry with longish, dark and yes, greasy hair, thin lips, a sallow complexion crooked yellow teeth, and snarky besides, who in my universe, can and does win the brave and loyal heart of a young lion… and yet, the Rido you have painted here is a gazillion miles away from that noble spirit so I'm glad to say I can very easily separate the two.

Rido is… *shakes her head* Cruel and deluded. You have made me fear for darling Kaname who I suppose all things considered, has opted out of his miserable life. I am not surprised that Zero tried to instill some decent behaviour in him wish he was less generous so that he could hire a kindly matron instead and give evil Rido the figurative and literal boot. With all the powers he still has left so that His Nastiness sails halfway across the world and plops right into a grumbling volcano *sports evil grin at the thought*

Zero's thoughts on Rido *shudders again* is unsurprising and it just goes to show how evil that man is that he can't be be enthralled by all the yummi – er, delish – er, I mean goodliness that is Zero. And I can't help but smile because it seems that Zero doesn't know he will keep those wings… although that sensataion of neither itch nor ache does sound very distracting indeed *feels the urge to rub her back against something hard*

Oh, the little kitty again – messenger of the hour! How apt that she would like both Kaname and Zero – so of course they have to adopt her when they leave this horrible, depressing place… after placing a kindly and no nonsense Matron in place of course.

Oh dear Lord, can that evil, base creature that is Rido sink any lower? If he does, his greasy, dandruff sprinkled head would surely pop out of the ground on the other side of the earth, the ugliest thing to ever show itself! How can he ignore the fact that he is standing in Kaname's blood, that he might very well be touching a corpse? Vile, evil creature! Stay away from Kaname and his draw string pants!

Poor Kaname… and that loyal, loyal feather… *weeps*

And here is Zero at long, long last and not a moment too soon! *stops wringing her hands to stare wide eyed at wondrous sight of avenging angel* My dear writer, sorry if I could not wax lyrical when you described Rido in his loathesomeness, but now that you are describing Zero, your talent is as bright as those fireworks you mentioned!

Zero's rage was beautiful yet terrifying to imagine. I love the sheer poetry of your chosen words, like 'the intensity of magnesium-bright fireworks' and 'the searchlight of Zero's burning gaze' – simply beautiful! It hurt to see how vengeful he was then, how driven he - a previous celestial being - was to kill that miserable excuse for a human being.

I so wanted Zero to kill Rido, but I didn't want him to suffer the guilt and remorse that would surely follow. Thank the Goddess and the heavens and most especially that little kitten for stopping Zero and directing his attention to poor Kaname. She deserves to be adopted and loved by the two of them *tearful smile*

That picture of Zero enclosing himself, Kaname and the little cat within dome of his spread wings... that was nothing short of beautiful, PBG. Truly, visually stunning. I do hope that that vile Rido creature only saw the bright light that seared his retinas and not the wings... we won't want anymore trouble for Zero or for Kaname. Or the little kitty.

That image of Zero pressing his lips to Kaname's wound to try to stop the flow... my dear, with one fell swoop, you have created an indisputable link to the one of the fundamental facts of VK - blood. Kaname is an alcoholic tycoon, Zero an ex-angel and yet, that scene of Zero's mouth at Kaname's wrist... it is as dearly familiar as it is wonderfully original! Only you could have pulled this off and left such a tender, moving image in my mind :)

Oh dear Lord, you made my heart trip with the knowledge that Kaname's life had truly hung in the balance there - he was so, so close to death. I feel like hugging that kitten again and again for her timely intervention. She is as much a heroine in this chapter as Zero is the hero and Kaname the halples dams - er, patient. *coughs* I need not even mention who the villain is - he stands out on his own in all his murky, muddy glory. Ugh.

But Kaname is still with us and the kitty was the first to know! *bursts into happy tears and waves off the boatman* Go and look for that evil creature named Rido... and mind you tell the Devil to use him as lab rat for whatever new and horrendous tortures he has designed *evil smile*

By the way, the metaphor of the ice melting and spreading when Kaname felt Zero's lips on his skin was nothing short of stunning!

Oh, of course the Goddess would not be so cruel as to save Kaname's life and take Zero's in return even though she would have him with her forever. The moment Zero heard that faint heartbeat was... sublime, you made me smile and cry and blubber like a child. This is after all, a masterpiece written by PBG and happy endings are an absolute must! (or you can find yourself another beta! LOL - just kidding, dear, I know that like me and all your readers, you want a happy and loving life for dear Kaname and dear Zero)

That soft meeting of eyes, those faint, faint words... will sustain me until I get the next chapter from you. Hopefully in a shorter time frame than this one :D

Welcome back, my dear. Your kind presence and talented words were sorely missed :)

Youre welcome, dear!*hugs*

I was so happy when I saw that you had updated that story, that I smiled whenever I took a look at my favorite list and saw it at the top of it.*smiles* And Im glad that I was able to read it, today.

You know, that you can write very disturbing scenes?!
The beginning of this chapter had a cold magic to it.*shivers*
The scenery was beautiful, but distant and cold at the same time and it sends shivers down my spine, while I wanted to speed up reading to get to know what was going on, but had to savor every word at the same time, because your descriptions were so enthralling.*cant take her eyes of the picture*

I love that cat.*pets her*
She has a better understanding of human nature than most humans have. Probably, because she isnt fooled by lies and sweet assurances, but she feels if someone has good intentions or bad ones.*smiles as she imagines her with Kaname*
I shudder when I imagine what would have happened, if the cat hadnt run to Zero, to alert him, so that he made it to Kaname in time.*shudders* Rido would have probably been able to rape Kaname and that would have been the last thing that had registered in Kanames mind.*glares at Rido*

By the way, you described Rido perfectly. It could be canon, if he wasnt a human in that story.*wants to keep him away from Kaname*
He is really disgusting and he obviously doesnt have any feelings. If he was only feeling superior and treated his patients badly, that was one thing, but only a beast is able to think about abusing someone, who lies dying in his own blood.*shakes her head in disgust and disbelief*
And somehow, Zero is right about Rido killing Kaname, although Rido hasnt sliced Kanames wrist. He has made Kaname fear him and played a very cruel game with him, while knowing that Kaname had no one to turn to and I assume that was one reason why Kaname wanted to die. He didnt want to be raped by Rido and he feared that it wouldnt take much longer until exactly that happened and so he chose to end his life, before he had to endure that, too.*hugs Kaname and pushes him into Zeros arms*

I cant blame Zero for not reacting to his feelings, when he thought that something was wrong. He tries to adapt to the earthly world and he has to get used to seeing things differently from the way he did before he came down to earth.*smiles at him*
Nonetheless, I understand why he feels like he has failed Kaname and doesnt know how to continue living, when he thinks that the love of his life has died.*sniffs*
After all, there is no way back to his former life and since his only purpose was to be able to be together with his loved one, his future seemed rather dark in that moment.*hugs Zero*

Wow, I had never thought that Zero was able to be so angry and almost kill Rido.*wide eyes*
I wish Rido nothing less than a very, very painful death, but Im relieved at the same time that Zero didnt kill him.*sighs in relief*
Zero is such a kind man that he might have regretted killing another human being, later… especially, if he hadnt been able to safe Kaname, because he was busy killing Rido.*glances at Kaname on the bed*
Maybe, Rido will be charged with attempted murder and sent to prison or he will be sent to a psychiatry, because he tries to make other people believe that Zero is an angel and tried killing him.

Thank the Goddess!*smiles*
She obviously saved Kaname, because she couldnt watch the pain and grief of her son.*sighs happily* I doubt that she will want anything in return from Zero… only that he becomes happy and lives the life he dreams of.*blinks happy tears away*

So, Kaname has seen Zero for the first time, although he probably wont be able to remember that moment.*smiles at them*
I would love to say that everything will be better from now on, but I assume that it will still be a long way for Kaname and Zero until they find their happiness, but at least, they now have the chance to work together.*hugs them both*

A wonderful chapter, my dear and Im looking forward to your next chapter, no matter how long it will take you to write it.*hugs*

My best wishes for you and take care!

So long!)

Schattengestalt

Wonderfully melancholy! You paint such a sad, dark picture, and you paint it so well. I love how you describe every part of the hotel room in such isolated, exquisitely lonely detail.

Can't wait to read the rest of it.

AHHHHHHHHH so cute! update soon!

*squeals of joy* I'm so happy that you finally updated! This is truly my most favorite angst-y stories about Kaname and Zero and I was really sad that you hadn't updated in a while and now you did and I'm just... YAY! Gosh, I should have known that Rido would be the one harrassing Kaname! I can't wait until the next chapter and please please please post it soon! Thank you so very much for this absolutely wonderful story. *hugs* :)

it's been awhile i'm so happy you updated

"He was a rare being who knew the way to treat a cat such as herself..." Such a catch, Zero better hurry up lest someone else snatch up this cat-lover!

"You've killed him! You miserable, God-forsaken creature…you've killed him!" Hehe, you've done it now, Rido.

And such a clever kitty! Mine is cuter though XD

Another wonderful chapter, with brilliant writing as always! Especially the lovely alliteration that lets the descriptions flow so well.

We demand more!

It pains me that you haven't updated in over a year.
pleassssssssssssssssse. Im begging you.

I love how described the hotel room and how everything was for "solo use" only. To Chapter Two! :D

Goodness I should have reviewed wayyyy sooner... Anyhow please please please update this.. I've been checking up on this and waiting for an update for months . This story is too good not to continue. Pwease! Lol

update or I will shoot you! D: