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oh my god that was famazing!

This story was amazing.

My heart goes out to James.

I only wished James would have told logan sooner maybe

he wouldn't have hurt himself;

I feel sorry for Kendall being in love with James when

James loved logan this was heart filled and amazing.

AMAZING. amazing, I say.

I cried. I cried; a lot.

I CRIED.

That was some turn at the end. Somehow, I don't think James is all that observant... (LoganLoganLoganLogan)

I like the idea that James was fat and ugly (well, to himself he was; I bet he was never really that bad) and he changed because of Logan. God, Jagan is cute. It really is.

This, I must say, is one of the best angsts I've ever read, aside from all the fanfiction over at the Phantom of the opera archives... That stuffs dark. But this is too... And I LOVED IT (: Bravo.

Owww I feel sooo bad for the poor James, the only thing I want is to hug him and that he be happy at the end (of course with Logan)

This really is anguish, pure.

Excelelente job! Many thanks for writing! D

I wanna write a really, really special, really, really nice review that'll make your heart flutter for, like, a week, but I just... I can't even begin to figuring out how to get there.

I read this story at LEAST a half hour ago, and I'm still crying just so hard, and I can't...

You did a really great job with this. To just love someone so hard...

It was phenomenal.

That was really incredible. You probably get that a lot, but I mean it with the same amount of earnesty and conviction as someone who said it for the first time. Seriously. That was incomprehendable, it was that good.

This is impressive. It's big and grand and so, so emotional. I really like the twist at the end, that this whole time Kendall has been in love with James, too; it gives a glimpse into Logan's head in a way as well, because James never noticed how Kendall felt, despite the fact that he almost certainly was just as smitten as James ever was. The role-reversal adds another layer of depth, I think, and certainly adds to the tragedy of the piece.

I agree; this is absolutely HARDCORE angst. And heartbreaking. And well-written. Tragic. Tear-jerker. Excellent.

It sounds bad, but I enjoyed this; you did a great job on it.

-Voices

I loved this! It was amazing! I could feel the emotions...and...and GAH! i just cant help but say- WHY NO HAPPY ENDING? i mean i loved the ksmes at the end put myself loves happy endings :) happy ending or not, this was amazing and im so super glad i took the time to read it :3

That was pretty intense. Like, super intense. But super awesome. Like, not that everyone is heartbroken and alone. But the writing. Anyways, that was amazing and I loved it.

Oh my god...i died.

The kames? Amazingly well thought out. It made me hatw logan with a passion.

Well done

First of all, I just wanted to say that I'm so, so sorry I didn't read all of it. I read your author's note and the warning in the summary, and I guess I was just SO scared. Seriously...

I love JamesxLogan. Really. It's my OTP. But then you said the end was really sad and everything, so I skipped to the bottom of the page and read the very last part about the one-sided Kames and LoganxCamille. And I think I died! If Jagan is my OTP (which it is :D), then I love LoganxCamille second-best. And then you kept emphasizing that James was in love with Logan...:( And that was so sad for me because then you wrote that Kendall was in love with James right before! :(

So I really am sorry for not reading it all the way through...it's just that I can only take angst in small doses. :/ I know that I'll read it someday, though. And I don't know why, but I just had to tell you this. You're an amazing author, and I know this story won't show anything less. :)

I just freaking got home and sorry I didn't call you because I didn't expect my mom to drag me around by the balls all day at museums and crap. And I realised I had to read this and

GOD. THIS WAS. JUST. EFFING. INCREDIBLE.

I think it was honestly the best story I've read on this site. I tried to read a different story after this and I only made it through a paragraph because it seemed like it was written by a fourth grader in comparison. This...made me cry, kind of, and I think I would be on the floor bawling my eyes out if I wasn't, you know, a soulless bastard. Just. Everything flowed so well and was so realistic and raw and I loved the contrast between funny and sad and holy crap and I couldn't find one thing wrong with it.

It's making me horribly depressed but in the best possible way. I don't know, man, just every word was perfect and I don't know how you write beautiful masterpiece after beautiful masterpiece but it amazes me and I am sososososo glad I read this because GAH. I'm beyond the point of words right now. But it made me super sad and super happy at the same time and I don't work anymore. YOU INSPIRE ME. THAT'S ALL.

holy crap, ow my heart. geeze.

this is amazing. that's pretty much all i can say.

Omigosh I think I'm in luv with this fanfiction :D poor kendall.. And James... :D

APPROPRIATELY I WAS LISTENING TO YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL BY THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARTUS AFTER READING AND I THOUGHT OF THE LAST SCENE AND JAMES WHY DON’T YOU LOVE KENDALL WHYYYY RIELEY WRITE A SEQUEL IN WHICH THEY LOVE EACH OTHER.

Okay no let’s actually go from beginning to end right. Right.

So James is a little bundle of love and rainbows and beautiful and fat because based on the first half of the story, I assume he was a chubber. While I was reading the first few scenes I had to go to the bathroom so I brought my laptop in there with me but then I found out that I didn’t really have to go to the bathroom and I had to throw up but I haven’t thrown up yet because the stabbing pains have yet to return so I get to choose when I vomit. Oh so fun. Okay I’m sorry this review is going to be so horrible.

Okay lacrosse is stupid but I’m biased due to softball but anyway James is a cutie because laala stuff happened AND THEN HE SAVED LOGAN AND GOT THE SHIT BEAT OUF OF HIM AND THAT’S THE ABSOLUTE BEST FFFFFF JAMESANGST JAMESANGST JAMESANGST SHUT UP MICROSOFT WORD JAMESANGST IS DEFINITELY A WORD

NO BACKSTREET BOYS I WANT TO LISTEN TO RJA.

Okay I’m telling you right now that this review is going to be quick and it’s going to fucking suck and I’m sorry soul matest soul mate because I love you but I suck at giving decent reviews aksljda. So I apologize in advance but maybe right now I should let you know that I LOVE THIS WITH ALL MY PART. LOL I MEAN HEART. I honestly didn’t even think about that I swear that was unintentional.

Okay anyway. So James got beat up for Logan and then Logan was talking to him and it was in italics which obviously means James was trippy when listening to Logan. But then Logan and James were BFFs and then they were all BFFs but James just wanted to be BFFs with Logan because I don’t think he realized it yet but he definitely wanted to get in his pants and caress Logan’s…nineteen dicks. It was nineteen right? Nineteen.

Oh and then James and Logan were studying because James needed to get at LEAST a B- on his math test. I’m glad I don’t have math anymore. Anyway, I loved the fact that James kept trying to escape the evil clutches of Doctor Logan. Please cross out evil and Doctor in that sentence. Okay maybe just doctor. But I really thought it was funny when James was all trippy (I’ve said that word twice now I should probably stop) and he and Logan were arguing. I also loved how you threw Kames in there because James wanted to run to KENDALL’S house so he could sleep with Kendall (HAHAHA WINK WINK) and not meanie Logan who was making him stay up.

Then Logan was a dick and freaked the fuck out of James by making him think he was claustrophobic when it was a bunch of lies. And then James cried himself to sleep. And then my heart started crying and I think that’s a personal problem that I should get checked out by a doctor but I don’t really care because I like it when my heart cries and I would like to thank you for making my heart cry.

Where was I. Oh, Crazy Stunts with Carlos. THAT SHOULD BE AN OLYMPIC SPORT. I APPLAUD YOU FOR YOUR GENIUS. Okay, so what happened to James sounded totally disgusting and nasty and gross and blehhhh it almost made me barf because seriously. That can happen? I could literally feel the pain and then I was flinching and twitching and this is a good thing because it means that once again you have proven to be a fantastically wonderfully whimsical writer who makes me feel things and my heart sort of cried more because James must have been in a lot of fucking pain man. Wince.

AND THE CHEESE. YOU REMEMBERED. –SOULMATESHIP HEART- -SOULMATESHIP FISTPUMP- -SOULMATESHIP HUG- YEAH!

No that was like fantastic and beautiful and I’m probably messed up for saying that. But they were playing baseball, darling, and you know that I love softball and you probably didn’t even think of that and if you did you’re awesome but if you didn’t you’re still awesome by default but anyway they were playing baseball and James’ tum tum was churning and he was feeling pukey and then he DID pukey. Chunks of bloody cheese. And this was my face:

O,u,O AND THAT IS SURPRISED/CRYING/HAPPY BEYOND BELIEF IF YOU DIDN’T KNOW BECAUSE THAT WAS GREAT AND FANTASTIC AND ANGSTY AND MY HEART STOPPED CRYING AND STARTED LAUGHING AND THAT’S A GOOD THING TOO BECAUSE YEAH, IT’S JUST A GOOD THING OKAY.

I’m still listening to your guardian angel tell me to stop please and thank you.

And then, if I’m not mistaken, James got all pretty and everything. NO WAIT THAT WAS BEFORE WASN’T. Okay I’m sorry I don’t remember and my internet isn’t working so I CAN’T REFER BACK TO THIS BEAUTIFUL /MASTERPIECE/ YOU CALL A STORY. But anyway James was pretty and Kendall called him beautiful and I totally saw the one-sided Kendall/James at that point (and I squealed and I STILL WANT JAMES TO LOVE KENDALLLLLLLLL LOGAN ONLY HURTS HIM) but James was so cute when he cried that my heart cried with him. Awwwww we’re twins. My heart and James. Are twins. FUCK YEAH MY HEART IS DEAD SEXY.

Uhm anyway. Then it was Big Time Audition and who was it that said that thing to James cause I can’t remember if you said or not I hope it was Kendall I am a Kames whore cough cough Microsoft Word says Kames is a word but probably cause I added it to my dictionary. C:

Oh and then comes my favorite part. So my chest was like, aching painfully from all the angst in the entire story but when James realized that his love for Logan was probably always gonna be unrequited and he cut his face…you like, ripped my heart out and then the chest pains hurt even more and I was like alkdjsakldjsakldjklajl exactly like that that’s how I sounded I hope you liked it but seriously Rieley you made him hurt his face and that’s fantastic and horrible at the same time so it’s fantorrible or hantastic and ummm this is a really long sentence and the word count just passed 1995 just thought I should say that very significant year. –breathes deeply- What if I said all of that that would be a lot of talking and not a lot of breathing. BUT THEN KENDALL WAS THERE AND HE LET JAMES CRY ON HIM AND HE LOVED JAMES AND RIELEY MAKE THEM MAKE OUT OR SOMETHING I NEED KAMES IN MY LIFE KALDJAL BUT SERIOUSLY I ACTUALLY LIKED HOW IT ENDED IT WAS BEUAITFUL AND SAD AND I MISPELLED BEUAITULF BEAUTIFUL BUT I DON’T CARRREEE

Okay so I’m pretty sure I didn’t really take a serious tone at all during this and I’m trying to wrap this up because I just got my internet to work and I don’t know how long it will last but I hope it lasts cause it’s 8:12 and I want to talk to you because I’m pretty sure you’ll be online at this point. I hope you know that you like, totally blew my expectations with this fucking masterpiece because I fucking loved it and it was fucking great and fuckity fuck fuck yes I need to fucking swear. But seriously, I don’t even know how you did this because it’s amazing and fantastic and I love you with alllllllll of my heart and I want to be soul mates forever and I’m going to walk to California now to give you the biggest hug ever because THIS WAS FANTASTIC AND MY FAVORITE THING EVER WHICH MEANS I’LL BE ADDING IT TO MY FAVORITES AND YEAH. RIELEY I LOVE YOU SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOS MUCH YOU’RE THE BEST SOUL MATE EVER HEART HEART HEART HEART HEART HEART HEART HEART HEART HEART HEART HEART

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE, BEARTATO/ALEX/SOULMATESTSOULMATE

Fuck I have 2535 characters left and the box isn't jumping yet. Are we, the writers of Fanfiction, freed from this horrible plague of jumping boxes?

Fuck I jinxed us it;ll be back.

Fuck what if I started every sentence with fuck.

Okay Rieley I'm sorry for the short review and spelling errors even though most of this was written in Word and shouldn't have any but I STILL LOVE YOU IF YOU HAVEN;T FIGURED THAT OUT ALREADY. OKAY BYE I'M GOING FOR REAAAALL -HEART-