It's so beautiful and I can't help but cry a bit in the end. Thanks to the author for that feelings, that emotions which your story brought to me. It's awesome.

The grieving period would be long but everyone has to move along eventually. Sadness and reality paint the scene well. Cody wil always be careful.

Okay the fourth wall joke was funny. Although you must admit somebody or something has a particular or cruel sense of timing or humor at least every once in a while. The frozen pumpkins sounds cool.

Motivation can push to do the hardest things. Especially family trauma. The pain is impossible to erase. It forces us to embrace life and live. I love the angel figurine. I' m glad you had Cody move across the country. Being in Boston would feel an anchor to the past.

I think that lyrics should posted somewhere and remembered. So true. Probably one of my favorite of their early stuff.

Part two is hard work, frustration and triumph. Time: most of the time your enemy. The career path is not always how you wanted it.

Sometimes we need a luck or a break to succeed. Any type of research can be existing but medical is the worst between the different factors and variables involved. But here it could the difference for the world. A ripple becomes a wave.

An excellent of the love and torture of a writer. (although I have no room to talk.)

I will look at the new story.

A very heartfelt ending to a story I greatly loved. Amazing job, tiger, I always come back to re-read this one when I'm finding myself having free time. I'm glad you enjoyed working on it for us as much as we enjoyed reading it over the years.

Enjoyed the story. Looking forward to your next story.

Yay, you're back to torture us some more (yet I am looking forward to it).
'like some sadistic author tore us apart for his own twisted amusement.' HAH
But you've written some pretty heartbreaking chapters in this story. This one, I think, is the most brutal. We have to watch Cody grow up without the most important in his life by his side. I could really feel his anguish. At least it made a positive impact 30 years later.

As usual the lyrics always add another dimension to the story. I am getting the image of a body in ER as someone is trying to be revived with that first set of lyrics.

It cant hurt to pray even for a science backing person. You can see why Cody was questioning his sanity.

The clips section was cool. The two show clips perfectly show the range of their relationship.

Repeating the last 2 set of lyrics does not dampen their power. It proves how difficulty it is to say goodbye.

I feel bad for Kurt. Talk about steamrolled.

The description of Zack falling matched up with the idea of his body falling away leaving his spirit behind to face judgment. Not being to answer or get answers is common for anyone.

The alternate world Cody is brought is not supposed to make sense and that's fine with me. Zack's one word answer was perfect. A lot of people dont go through life by it.

Kulmanari's intermission adds another weight to the end.

I'm equally surprised and unsurprised you decided to have Zack die. On one hand, not too many people do main character deaths within this fandom (though I believe I'd done one, once before) especially when it comes to Zack and Cody. On the other hand, it was the only thing that would make sense for what this story is about and the emotions were written very well to go along with it.

Amazing job!

So I just sat here for the past two minutes staring in shock. You...killed...Zach...whyyyyy. Don't get me wrong, it was a very poignant and well-written chapter but...you killed him! I don't know how to feeeel!

Glad to see you're still updating this. I love Breaking Benjamin so anything with them and I'll be a fan, lol. But the lyrics for it were very poignant here, specially combined with Cody's strong desire of wanting Zack to be okay and come back to be his brother once more.

Okay, seriously, why am I not getting email alerts? I'm so happy you updated! This is angst gold. I love how you write Cody's worry and despair, and his inner battle between his logical mind and desperate heart. I feel like we are all suffering with Cody. As always, I love your work and await patiently for more!

The first set of lyrics reveal a negative future for the boys while Cody's thoughts whirl through the unfairness of it all.

The weather outside is its own character, gleefully adding its own opinion of the future.

The second set of lyrics reinforces Cody's determination to stand witness to everything to the end.

Zack's eye opening at that moment would be hard to believe for anyone. The set of lyrics would kill most people. It acknowledges and accepts the end for Zack. Cody is being torn apart a second at a time. Dark clouds surrounding him.

You amped up Cody's fear with adding Zack's normal difficulty in waking up. I mean Cody's delay and denial is all too human, not wanting to admit the obvious.

The psychology of Cody's desperation in trying to will Zack alive is very telling. And all the more painful.

The frenzied pace is matched by Cody's mental surrealness.

This chapter may have been short but it was packed with an emotional punch. Poor Cody! My heart just dropped for him when he couldn't shake his brother awake, and I could feel his anxiety and desperation for wanting Zach to stay alive.
Is Zach losing his memory? Does he need to undergo surgery to remove the tumour?
So many questions, so little patience!

aghdhfzgfdjhvjhv there was an update? AND I DIDN'T KNOW? Damn it, ff, you have to tell me these things! I was literally squealing with excitement when I saw your fic on the top of the page. I ended up rereading the whole thing to make sure the story was fresh on my mind when I read the new chapter.
I feel really bad for Zach. He tries to keep it together for his brother, but there are just some things that fall through the cracks. You write his pain so well I could feel it myself. You truly can't function with a massive headache.
I'm glad you found inspiration to write again, and thanks for the shout-out!
Sorry that you had to go through more loss in your life. But in spite of everything you seem to pick yourself up and continue, and that's really inspiring.
Anyway, I can't wait for more!

Well I was shocked but happy to see this so early(east coast time) in the morning. But I had to read the 2 chapters first.

I am connected back to certain elements from the movie The book of Henry. Just saw it so that's probably why.

Once again the lyrics you use inspire and focus the reader's attention. Well who says its smart to know first aid?

Kind of sad to have Zack's headache put a damper on the whole thing, but we knew it was probably going to happen eventually but his headache does make it seem inevitable.

The love the imagery used with the falling stars since I know we used to think the stars were deceased family members looking down on us when we were little kids with the gray ground being a mini purgatory or holding ground.

Okay maddie would always be seen in this imagery. The idea of the moon being the border is new to me. But It makes sense in some ways. The moon is connected to the movements of the earth and is the last we see before the stars and the rest of the cosmos. Plain white wings just seem boring. I mean God has the whole color palette.

The whole thing could his fear and his mind trying to cope with the situation. Maddie: Dreams and reality clashing. the idea of Zack not realizing how much of an impact he made in life is something I think is very common for all of us. Especially when you realized how self-absorbed we can.

Having his Grandpa is different. You mentioned the future..Whose future? Zack? Or his grandpa's? That line could be intrepreted so many ways for the future of the story Not I expected a complete answer.

The black terrible expense where none of us want to be. But thankfully his other half is there to fight against the darkness.

Your little terible habit is me as well, so dont feel bad. I have creative impulses in other things its not fair. Cooking( the act and recipe organization and discovery), writing, a love of photography and there's just life. Never enough time.

I back up from my notes or print out my notes every couple months or so. Writing is a curse, so I'm fine if its perfect. (Anything ever perfect? ;)

I feel sorry for you about your loss. I might be losing a grandmother with cancer/alzheimers over the next year, so I feel you. That's true, we need to make the most of life.

Good luck with everything.