I have been out of the this fandom forever but I'm so glad I came back to this story! I can't believe how much I missed your fics. I really hope you update soon, and I really hope that when you do someone stomped a maggot hole in Orton! And miz, but mostly Randy. Poor punky, poor poor adam. Awesome story, awesome writer and I hope things are going well for you ;-)

Hey just wanted to let you i love this story the last chaper had me in tears. Thought i encourage you to write my chapters,maybe jeff will vist adam and apologize maybe even a threesome lol thought i throw my two cents in lol

Wow! This was definitely an intense chapter!

Wow I haven't ever read a story like this and I am enjoying it!

Yay Updates! :D Glad Addy is okay. Poor Philly... and Poor Addy :(

Randy and Miz are freaking assholes and i hope Matt or Phil's gets them for what they did!

Yay Jeffy you tell him! Stand up for Addy!

Poor Jeffy get's no love now :(

Loving this fic, update soon! And ignore the haters! I personally see Adam either way. Top/ or bottom. Depends on whom he's with and his character in the fic/ mood. Same with Morrison.

Well now they have 7 or 8 people looking for them let's see how far they get. So why was Jeff with Randy to bein with if he didn't want to be? I'm confussed. HELP!

Ah, exactly my Lady. I don't get why it is so difficult for people to understand that Edge IS a bottom & there is nothing wrong or strange bout that. Like you said, the said trends & biased behaviour of certain writers around generated this idea which wasn't given personal thought before developing an opinion regarding it. It is unfair to Edge fans. He's the power bottom...The most natural bottom you could find among all these wrestlers. He's got the look, character, support from his real self...all elements r there. He was considered a bottom before some people decided to write their favs with him & he ended up being casted in a totally out of character role due to writer's support for the other half. People should really get out of that group's influnce. & I appreciate you speaking out on it. Sometimes a rant is well needed.

Now onto this amazingness that is this story. God baby. I don't know where to start. But since I'm determined to get my lazy ass start processing on reviewing instead of getting frustrated over unnecassary shit all the time, I am gonna start from somehwere. Although, I have to say. No words I say, no compliments I give you will do justice to what I feel for this fic & the impact it has made on me. This is really one of the best & well written angst ever. The way you cover everything really gives so much power to your content. Your characters are all spot on. Whether they r the bad guys or good guys. & its okay. This chapter was all worth the wait. Just don't torture me for the next chapter this much...I am kinda more needy than before ;P Eh, what can I say? If u didn't already know it, I am kindly obsessed with this story. Its my main addiction beside WTF nowadays when it comes to your work.

Oh God...That first part...It was so fucking hard to read..So painful. How do you so good with potraying a picture? That really is your best talent. You play a film through your writing. I only feel that way with Rhi. You guys make it too close to reality. My heart was clenching throughout the read of Phil finding Adam & what his thought process must have been at that time. And Adam...My poor poor Adam...He's fucked up so bad...& you have no idea how much I am thankful to you for writing this story. Writing Phil/Adam characterized like this. They are absolutely sweetness...Just like I love them. The angst was so freaky here. Adam's physical condition & Phil's paranoia over that was written beautifully.

Fuck...Jeff supsects. How sweet & sickening is it at the same time? Adam's smell on Randy...& Jeff remembering it. His reaction is gonna be scary.

I LOVE Matt being homicidal over Adam. Its so rare to see Matt & Adam written in a friendly way...Where Matt is protective of Adam rather than worst enemy of his. I like this side WAY better. There is so much unnecessary hatred among these two by slashers out there. People BADLY need to be creative. Beating the bushes is really annoying.

Seriously...Randy baffles me..What does he expect Jeff to do? Or say? & how could he do this out without feeling any remorse? He's really gone deep hasn't he? & now there it is. He wanted Adam. I knew it. That actually make sense. Lossing Adam basically turned him into this spiteful heartless monster. He honestly no longer know what is right or what is not. I don't know whether to feel bad for him or hate him. When you come to think of it, its really not his fault entirely. We don't know the depth of his feelings towards Adam at that time when Jeff came around.

The way Randy tried to humor such a serious issue & then turn shit around on Jeff..It really made me think. He doesn't love anyone..He doesn't hate anyone..He's just become heartless. I don't think he ever loved Adam...He just felt abandoned. Or maybe he did in his own way & didn't take too well of Adam ignoring him completely for Jeff. His mental condition here makes me feel sorry for the guy to be honest. Feeling on abandonment can make you go crazy.

:( Poor poor Phily...He must be feeling horrible. & I feel so bad for him in this story. Just one fuck up after another. One heart break after another blow. First he lost Mor, now his Adam is damaged beyong repairs. Just hopefully he'll be able to heal Adam. It'll take alot, but we have to hope. He have to be strong for Adam's well being. You gotta make up for this angst by some sweet Phil/Adam scenes you know ;)

Anyways love, this was yet again, beyond amazing. I am so enthralled by this story. Just hopefully there's more soon...Love you so much.

Randy's gonna get it *looks at Matt* sic him boy

Great chapter!

Really like this story!

I just started reading this. Man, it's good. I'm hooked. I love it. I want to read more.

Is that "Hallelujah" by Rammstein or someone else? I only know the one by Rammstein.

I wish you could see me when I first read it. I don't have good enough words that could express the affect this chapter had on me. As much as I complain about decline in quality writing, I think ur work goes way beyond just quality writing. You can start a career in writing at this point, & u know why? Cuz you get across ur point via ur words. You take me to places you present, you take my emotions on a ride...you tear me up, and then you mend me afterward. I have been reading for so long, & I dont think I found myself in a total astonished state that often. For the first time ever I was literally shaking while reading something. I have my moments when I find myself getting teary, but nothing ever made me tremble or my heart-beat wild. This did. The way you build this story, the connection between characters, & now the element of 'My fucking God...numbness' ...its all just so wonderful.

There are few points I would like to mention first. I am usually very critical when it comes to the bad guys in usual fiction. People don't put enough effort in some characters they use. They don't give reasons to the characters to be a certain way. It makes everything seem rushed & not well-thought or well-worked. Also biased. What I find amazing about your writing is how you put enough effort in each and every character you use. The bad guys have a reason to be bad guys. People bash, which piss me off. I am a fan of Randy as much as Edge, & I find it wonderful how he's used as a villain in this story, yet I find myself feeling sympathetic towards him. I can actually give his character a chance & some thinking as u have given enough hints to what lead him to what he has become. Jeff did wrong, Randy did wrong, but I am getting the vibes they both had their own reasons which lead to this mess.

Secondly, I wanna praise how you can literally take a reader on a flight, then drop them all of a sudden, then yet again make them fly. This is a true talent. For 1st 9 chapters we waited through thick angst for someone to take a step in the right direction & start the mending process. In the 10th chapter we got our first taste of curing. When everything seemed to be on the right path & we finally released a sigh of relief, this chapter blew our mind away and tear our heart up. Just when everything seemed to be fine, horrid possibility happens. Now we don't know what's gonna happen...the recovery from here just seem so...God..I don't know...impossible? I don't know how Phil would heal from this. He'll feel he failed again. I don't know how Adam will ever get over this...this was just too much. This chapter left me with so many questions & this story right now is definitely the one for which I am hoping for an update more than any other story currently on this site.

Thirdly, the insertion of Miz was a BRILLIANT move on your part. Your writing skills and such thoughtful development of the story amazes me beyond belief. It added so much to the scene, so much cruelty, & it also make the whole thing alot serious now. Randy raping Adam would be one thing, Randy using Adam as a slut & fucking him along his friend, like totally abusing him will give a different mindset to Adam now. He'll feel like shit, & a used whore forever...I am so dumbfounded as how he's gonna recover from this...you have managed to make reading entertaining to me in all aspects after so long. This story right now is one of the BEST. & this chapter was the highlight so far. Its not mainly the content of this chapter that has got me so worked up, its the consequences that'll follow, its the torture of what Adam would be feeling now... what Phil would be feeling now...all the healing has gone to waist..& it also raises the question as what lead Randy to go to this extreme. This chapter had the vibes of Randy being jealous of Jeff more than Adam. He seem to be jealous that Adam choose Jeff over him. Jeff replaced him in Adam's heart. As for Jeff, I am starting to feel bad for bashing him too. I am suspicious now...I am almost nearly sure he was trying to protect Adam in his own way & that's why he left Adam heart-broken. Now I go back to the bathroom confrontation between Adam & Randy, Randy told Adam he would never understand...its all starting to make sense now...I didn't expect this story to have so many twists, & it all shows how brilliant you are.

& yes, the title fooled me. Specially when it contradict the warning. But this added so much to my involvement in this. & the starting was written brilliantly...I was there in the apartment seeing all that with open eyes. Your gave such authentic picture, & my heart jolted when Miz appeared. I was confirmed it wasn't Adam's imagination or something like that..I just didn't expect this to happen since I thought Adam was damaged enough, but you have astonished me yet again. I love how you keep testing new limits in your writing. You never fail, & that's the best part.

Ok, I am apologizing in advance, but I can't help if a part of me found it extremely hot too..I know I am suppose to be horrified & trust me I am, but the part that absolutely goes wild when Adam gets cornered & called a slut by studs like Miz & Randy was drooling over the dirty sickeningly sentences coming out of Randy's mouth & his actions...Oh damn, Adam all helpless is like my guilty pleasure...damn me...I am so damn sick...Oh & Mike questioning Adam's tightness..it just adds so much harshness to the overall thing.

Randy's constant taunts to Adam about being a slut raises so many questions. He sound so bitter...like he snapped. He changed. What lead to it? Was it dejection? Rejection? Or the feeling of abandonment...this chapter has blown my mind away.

Randy's dirty rambling & their combined harshness just makes the whole thing so disturbing. They like, really treated Adam like a piece of dirt here, & although image of Adam ass exposed bend over the couch is drool worthy, its yet so sad how he's been handled here. He'll heal physically, but I wonder if he'll ever heal from the emotional trauma that'll follow. Randy's words are gonna haunt him forever. He'll always be questioning what he did to deserve this...& Jeff...Why do I feel like Jeff/Randy will end up in a bigger mess? With maybe Jeff killing Randy & going to jail..Dunno if I am looking way deeper into the things, but if Jeff did all of that to protect Adam, he's gonna snap after he finds out what Randy has done to his ex-lover.

Why does Randy keep bringing Jeff up? & their sexual life more so? It makes me so nervous & scared...He sound so obsessed with Adam. What..he wanted Adam's ass for himself & was mad Adam let Jeff have it? It all just...God..you have wrecked me up good Terrah. How much I surrender to your extreme talents.

Ok, the images Randy's dirty mouth is giving are although hot in their own way, but fuck me...How can he turn into such a monster? They were friends at one point...I am just dumbfounded by Randy here. Ehm..Randy in Adam's ass & Mike in Adam's mouth...fuck...no..I am not drooling..I have some sense of decency left...Damn me...I am drooling *pouts*

Oh...Go..God...Randy taking him into the bedroom & raping Adam on his & Jeff's bed...that is the extreme of cruelty. He's like damaging Adam for good. Making sure he never recover from the horrors of this. There is something so deep behind all this...I can sense it. This is beyond sick, & Adam..God, my poor doll :( He's gonna be broken beyond repairs now...It makes me depress yet amazed at your skills.

Phil...Oh my lord..He's gonna be killed all over again. He didn't deserve it. Just when he thought he was ready to move on & made up for his mistake by bringing Adam back to life...this happens. His baby is being abused & violated in cruelest way.

Now Mike is having his fun & Randy is fucking loving it. Enjoying it. & yes, I got hot again thanks to the image of Randy holding Adam's hands above his hand while Mike had his way with his ass...but this is so torturing. This is the rape scene where I have felt baddest for the victim no matter how hot his rapists are. Adam was already broken..this is gonna kill him :( Just when I feel u have reached your best...

God...my heart was thumping madly by this point...Phil finding him in that condition...fuck...for sake of my sanity Terrah, UPDATE PLEASE! I am dying here. This is the most affective thing I have ever read. You are plain amazing 3

Oh no poor Addy :( I hope Randy and Mike pay for this and that Jeff wakes the hell up and gets away from them. I'll be watching for the next update :)

Oh lawd, here we go... *cracks neck* This chap is killer.

"This was it. What he needed. He was sure of it." Randy is scary. What the hell happened to Randy to turn him like this? How did he get so obsessed with Adam? They keep saying how they used to be friends, and yeah, i have plenty of friends who are dicks, but this is above and beyond dickhood.

Oh shit, there's Miz. Jerks are coming out of the woodwork.

Oh man, taunting him with Jeff. I know they're done and all, and Adam's pretty much accepted that, but still. The thought of someone you loved deeply not too long ago getting off on your torture... that's just harsh, man.

Oh no, that poor baby. This is not the best way to come off a dry spell, that's for sure.

Miz, you dick. Of course, i can't really blame him for wanting a piece, can i? I mean, here i am, drooling over the image of Adam being forced over the arm of the couch, bare-assed and wiggling... mmm...

And again with the Jeff! What, did Randy get pissed that Adam fell for Jeff and not him? Gawd, Randy, where is all this coming from? Such anger and hate...

Oh no. All their hard work on his self esteem, and it's all being destroyed. Now Adam doesn't want to care if he's killed. You can watch him breaking. And now Mike's getting in on the action. Fortunately, he seems content to stay on the couch. For now...

Go, Punk. Go faster. Oh hell, it's too late, anyway.

Okay, Randy was harsh, but Mike... he's just twisted. The caressing, the extra fingers, wiping the blood... Poor Adam. Is it wrong to say i loved it? The way you showed two different styles of cruelty so effectively. It's so interesting and engaging. It all goes back to character and you do that so well.

Oh, Phil. You poor dear. Getting there faster won't help now. Gawd, this is going to be just as hard on him... why does he have to be the one to find the ones he loves in such trouble? Thank goodness they didn't leave him in the bathtub, Phil might have had a heart attack.

You ain't jokin about cliffhanger city, man. You've got a few cliffies that are leaving me on the edge of my seat. And i think this called for brutality. I like that Mike was involved, it added another level to the whole scene. Yet the small mercies kept it from being too over the top... like Adam being allowed to spit, no DP. Holding back on some of those things was needed, i think, and very well done. You make such good decisions with your writing. You never cease to impress me with your instincts and execution. Much loves, and can't wait for the next!

Oh boy looks like someone is going to get killed. When Phil finds out who did this it's gonna hit the fan. I wonder what Jeff will do when he finds out? Update soon please!

Bleh Miz! Sorry I really dislike the Miz.. *Clears throat* It was a great Chapter! And Philly! Poor Philly i hope Adam's okay, and Phil isn't hurt again. Ugh i haope Orton and Miz gets what's coming to them!