I loved it all thank you

Ok, I got this from the base of the story.

I'm confused. So Edward was put on medication for his...anxiety and it was doing a number on him? So he got over zealous in his love making and she didn't appreciate it because she felt he wasn't in his right mind? Hey he wasn't taking advantage of her, at that moment he needed this with her. But hey no means no...Does Edward have some other major mental health issue that needed serious meds that would mess him up like this? After the lovely last chapter this one is making me have whiplash.

I love seeing them in this future epi. He proposed on his birthday. Nice.

I wish I could see that painting Edward did of Bella and himself. So Bella wrote the word Bare on his painting? Her words on his art, perfect.

Oh the ring painting scene was perfection. Made me tear up. I think you are like these two characters, your artistic value is in your words. Like Edward paints beautiful pictures, you paint them with your deep words. Lovely.

Wow, even after mad passionate love making and Bella finally had her first orgasm during intercourse she still managed to be silly about the whole thing. I mean why get up so quickly after such an intense love making? Her first thoughts after all that passion is to go straight to telling him...ick...I've got to clean this shit off asap. Ah, but they are teens, I forget. Great family meeting to flesh out the miscommunication between them all.

It must have been uncomfortable for Bella to realize Edward had easily found a friend to confide in and for that brief time she thought maybe he was moving on from her. But of course she had the same thing with Mike at work when he filled that same kind of roll, maybe not as colorful as Jane was. But in the end the trip to meet her did fuel this, hopefully finally round of learning to trust again...Bravo that Edward went to a psychiatrist.

Who knew Mike would be so insightful?! And he thinks he's not smart, he got Bella to think about her motives and her actions in a realistic way. Got her to make the first move back to Edward and sadly it seems Edward is even more fragile than she realized. Alice was right to give her the low down about her brother's issues and the hope they had when Bella entered his life. But this is to complicated for two 18 year olds can fix on their own. I hope they get some help.

I really admire Alice in this situation. Sure she's Bella's bestie but family comes first is right, especially given this situation. Alice explained her point of view very logically, Edward has problems, they were hoping that Bella would have eased what has broken him and eventually he would seek out help professionally if this all continued to interfere with his every day living, that's would the ultimatum should have been if anything. Either you go get help or...Even that would be harsh. How about talking it over with the adults in his life and seeking out help together. And Esme giving the job back to the other worker, seems coincidental but maybe it's true it was only a temporary job after all.

It's hard to fathom someone like this Rosalie, one so loving and warm and maternal that isn't comfortable with hugging. I really liked this Rosalie so when Bella was giving her her heartfelt goodbye and even tearing up, it's odd that Rose wouldn't feel comfortable hugging Bella whom she seems to have really cared about.
And then there's Edward who thinks he has more power than, well God I guess. Very arogant of him to think just because he does something he can cause a death or in this case an accident playing football for Bella. Was Bella right to give him an ultimatum, not in my opinion but then we wouldn't have the New Moon part of leaving because I know what's best for you more than you know yourself...oh teen angst.

I appreciated Bella's question to Esme and Esme's honest answer about love and first love lasting forever and what the reality of love really was. Edward coming to pick Bella up when stranded by a dead battery and telling her honestly why he won't paint her, well I appreciate the honest communication without too much slow burn, it felt honest and real.

I know some girls have pain their first times but Bella made it sound like she was just letting him at her and not into it at all for the pain and then when it was over she thinks to herself...he apologized because it wasn't good and she couldn't think of it being better...Maybe she should have used the words she so loves to tell him that so the poor guy wouldn't feel like such a loser for making her first time so icky, or so he thinks.

The kids coming to Settle and surprise Bella was great as was Edward returning later to her room after Carlisle went to sleep...He pleasured her well...I guess he's trying to teach her what it is like to receive pleasure even though she was freaked out. You'd think she would have at least tried to reciprocate, poor boy probably went home with blue balls. So just when did Edward have this Tanya relationship I wonder. I'm guessing he painted her and she died too and that's why he's rather reluctant or was to have another love in his life.

I've been meaning to question Bella describing Edward's hibs like those of a woman, meaning curved because in general a woman's hips are curved. It's odd that these two teens are on one hand like old souls, people with a lot of maturity and then they are described like silly teens. For example Edward rushing out with a sheet around him in order to quickly paint and in runs Bella (she's always invading his private space) and she sees a man's nude body the first time and her reaction is so silly for someone who loves this Edward and seems to get mature love I guess she really doesn't. I don't blame Edward for starting to feel emasculated by her at time.