This was so raw and emotional! It was such a good read and I’d love to read more! Amazing job!

I do not know if you're still on this site, but after the intensity of this story, I had to leave a comment.
This was one of the saddest stories about the Winchester I've ever read. I can not help thinking that if Sammy had been brought up in a normal family he might not have developed this disease or maybe he had, but later, when he was more mature and could deal better with the disease.
What I liked the most was Dean's unconditional support, he was always there for Sammy, even when he himself needed help.
What I did not like was that he had no argument about John having forced Sam to hunt so early and started with a Wendigo, he should have started with a ghost, a simple salting and burning, I think John was the culprit for the first episode. Even Dean, who thought his brother was not ready, did not say anything later.
I liked the ending because it was realistic, there is no cure, all one can do is try to control the crises. And, it depends on Sammy, Dean can not solve it for him, he can support, but a life with less stress might help. But how to achieve this being a Winchester?
Congratulations on the story! It was a great idea, very well done and written.

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This is good. I don't like Many situations where a certain behavioral trait is narrowly labeled as a "personality disorder" simply because apperently they think slightly different than the other people around them, but you definately made up for it by successfully showing his thinking process - it starts out completely normal, and then a patturn needs to be established in order to do a basic task, and this will gradually turn into an obsession until the patturn is able to be accomplished. I have a "personality disorder" myself, so I may not be the ideal judge (or maybe I am?), but Sam's actions and idle decisions are entirely natural human thinking, especially after something like this has happened to him. Rape victims often have the same reaction - they'll feel filthy, tainted, dirty, because they had all control ripped from them and were forced to partake in somehing entirely against their will. So naturally, they do what they can to feel clean again. It seems very strange to me, the idea of Dean helping Sam "get throught this", because that's like trying to amputate a perfectly good arm and it bothers me. I'm very happy with the way that you have portrayed Sam and his thought process, and I can only hope that by the end of it, Dean and John come to understand that there is nothing wrong with him.

Well. This was an especially long rant, but nevertheless this is a good first chapter to what sounds like a very good story.

that was awesome :p i found myself rocking back and forth while sammy clicking. wow, i really got into this story, great job!

Not sure if you have OCD, but this was a great depiction! I'd bet you'd write a lovely PTSD Post-Hell Sammy.

Such a sad story. It was painful reading Sam and Dean go through this, my heart ached for them. But it was lovely how no matter what Dean was always there, would always be there and was able to help Sam :)

Can I make a suggestion. Perhaps proof read your story, to check for spelling and grammar mistakes. Because the flow was broken while I was reading. Also, I was a bit confused at certain parts of the story, because there was no break line to indicate a different scene or time of day. Like the scene with Bobby standing in the door way of the hospital room. Those little things make a really good story, hard to read and follow.

Other than that, great job!

I am really sorry about the fact that you lost your dad. my deepest symphaty. I can only imagine how you feel, how it is to lost a parent. but I have lost two of my brothers 3 and 6 years ago and I can say I know how terrible and sad and horrible it is to lose a beloved one.

Thank you for this story. I am glad you end it like that. The reality is so - there is not always a happy end and sam must live with his ocd, with his shattered mind, but he has dean and his brother could help him - not heal him but they could go through this together.

I loved the scene in the bathrom, where dean holds his fragile, delicate brother with his shattered broken mind.

This story was amazing.

Really Thank you.

Cain-chan

wow this was a really emotional chapter. I could really feel how desperate how broken and shattered sam was because of jess's death and dean could do nothing to help his frail brother. it must be terrible to see someone who you love so broken, broken in many pieces like glass. I loved it when dean said, sam is not sick, he is delicate. I always throught that sam was the more fragile, more sensitive, and delicate brother like he was in season 1 and 2 (this is why I loved the first seasons more) and dean was his protector, who will protect sam's innocent character no matter what.

really good writen.

thank you.

Poor Sam his first hunt must be really traumatic for him that his ocd has gone so bad in such a short time. I think Sam has always shown signs of ocd tendencies, like dean said also in the tv show. I think it is for sam the only way to cope with his life as a hunter, to take control, so that he can feel save. I think sam is a very strong person, but on the other side sam is also very insecure and frightened and needs to be in control. I always thought that sam would be also prone to ocd or also for a illness like anorexia, where he is in control. I am glad you write such a story. I would love also to read a story about sam and eating disorders from you, when you have time, because there are only a few good out there with this sensitive topic.

Looking foward to see what comes next.

hi rosebud i read your storiesw over at sntv all the time but i was over here and found this bye you. WOW what a gut wrenching story rosebud as always your write the emotinal stuff so well i lost many people i love to so i understan yours and sams feelings. I hope you post tis over at sntv i leave a review there as well. I hope your comping with your dads lost ok all we can do is go forward and take each day as it comes all the best to you rosebud

I loved this story. It kinda makes you humble yourself. Yeah I have problems of my own, but if you can't realise that how can you help people with the same. Great job I enjoyed it, it was a truely lovely story

I hereby solemnly swear never to call my friends OCD in jest ever, ever again. I don't know why, but I get the feeling that in any other venue the whole Sam-click thing woulda been funny. But here, it just makes me feel like crying. Poor, poor Sammy! *hugs Sammy Plushie*

You definitely shouldn't be worried about the ending, though. It was heart-rendingly perfect. In fact, this whole story was the same way. Every single time Sam broke down you made me feel his pain, and it takes talent to do that to a reader. I loved this whole story-every painful, depressing, gut-wrenching, wonderful moment of it.

That aside, I'm so sorry about your father. I know most people hate hearing this more than just about anything, but I've been there with my own daddy, so if you ever need to talk...*shakes head* Saying that to people always sounds so damn awkward, but...well, it's the truth. *shrug*

And now I take my leave-to go to your profile and see if you have any more Supernatural stories up.

-Adara-chan