Oh man, I really apologize for this late review but I finally found some time to type it! And also, I must admit that the morning this was updated, I had just woken up from bed and checked my email for school work and I have to admit I screeched myself awake with excitement and then cried because I learned that this was the last chapter lmao and then was like, ah, so that’s why this chapter was also so long xD. But anyways, oh man I feel like this comment is going to be all over the place - but this chapter, I admit that at first I was like this is the end? But I still have so many questions, but after reading this chapter (multiple times lmaoo) it really did answer all my questions and oh gosh, I also apologize if this review ends up becoming short but -

This chapter, in all seriousness, was seriously a wild ride from start to finish. Especially with Masaomi wanting revenge, because witnessing the scene between Izaya and Saki just really crossed the line for him, it really traveled further than I could have imagined. And I have to admit that with the whole thing - Masaomi wanting to initiate sex with Shizuo on top of Izaya’s bed, and the way Shizuo just feels about it all, because Masaomi is his crush and god, it’s just so sad. Because Shizuo doesn’t deserve that, but it’s so easy to see why Shizuo would jump on that idea because it’s, well, to have sex with his crush even though it’s under all of the wrong reasons why and then it just hurt even worse for Masaomi to pull away “looking torn between turned on and disgusted” and I just, my heart weeps for Shizuo because Shizuo doesn’t deserve that; then Masaomi just ups and leaves to see if the coast is clear which leads to Izaya coming into the room. And i have to tell you, I fucking screamed because I just, just like Shizuo I also believed that Masaomi just abandoned Shizuo there (I mean, even though technically we should know better but I mean, after all of what just happened I mean sdfjnsdf.) But I must also say, i really liked the parts where Shizuo realizes he’s actually taller than Izaya - and god, I just felt so happy reading that part because sometimes, especially with Izaya, all of the things going against you aren’t as big as they actually seem. Since Izaya always plays mind games as well and such more, it’s something easy to defeat when you come to understand it; oh man, I feel like I’m not making any sense, but it felt like character growth here, where Shizuo realizes that he’s going to keep growing and it was something so nice to read. Or maybe I’m looking into it too much but, you know me lmaoo I talk and ramble too much sojdfnsdf.

Another thing I also want to mention was that, you know, I loved how Celty saved Shizuo both times and that there’s also more background on Celty. I admit i thought that she was a dullahan in this fic, so maybe that’s my fault lmaoo, but it was really interesting to know that Celty wasn’t blind to anything that Izaya had done at all and decided to play ignorant of it all because she loved and wanted to be with Shinra. Though also learning this was also just learning more about Izaya, and how far he would go - and of course, I guess this isn’t really news since Izaya did go as far as to silence Shizuo as well as threaten Shizuo earlier in cutting his achilles tendon which could result in Shizuo not being able to walk. And just, oh gosh, for a moment I really thought that Shizuo wouldn’t make it out of there since Izaya had managed to manipulate Shizuo’s parents into leaving Shizuo as well, and being forced to be class pet and getting beat up as a result in giving them false hope. And of course, it was also interesting to see how Mikado had managed to live with Izaya as well - and with what we learned about Mikado, a part of me felt bad for thinking that Masaomi had actually abandoned Shizuo when he didn’t. But, I must also say...uggghhhh Mikaddooooooo. Why does your only redeeming point for me have to be the fact that after all that’s happened, you’re the reason why Shizuo was able to escape free along with the class and such more, just to have Izaya to yourself….ah man, gosh darn it Mikado why didn’t you just do this form the beginning, and why couldn’t sdfoinsdf *cue me screaming into the fucking void*.

But I mean, before I talk more about Masaomi and Saki and Izaya, I’m going to ramble about Shizuo: oh man, the ending for Shizuo was just so wonderfully done, but it’s also just, it’s also just really emotional if you think about it. Because everything comes to the light, every single thing that Shizuo never told his parents even though he should have from the very beginning - and it’s because Kasuka had recorded their conversations. And kudos to kasuka for doing that, but I feel like it must also be heart breaking for the parents to have learned about this after everything’s kind of ended, to know that your child that you love and cherish and want to protect has been repeatedly assaulted by both teacher and even classmates to a point, on a daily basis. In the aftermath, I feel like everyone must have dealt with some sort of emotional trauma or just feeling like shit in some sort of way. Even though the story doesn’t really bring in much about the parents pov much, and it makes sense since this story revolves around mostly Shizuo and his group of friends as they go against the ruler of class c, I feel like the ending really ties everything in nicely (although bittersweet, regarding Masaomi, though I think I’ll ramble about this too lmao) and it was just so nice to read the ending for Shizuo.

Because the ending just has so much hope and healthy room for growth unlike what Izaya was constantly giving out - his lessons about friends and sex and obsession (though, it is quite funny how that point of obsession and such more that Izaya was talking about he should have learned as well since that’s how Mikado ended up turning out like; ended up being something that Izaya treated as small and annoying and left it to the side until it got too big and ended up possibly ruining what Izaya wanted to do - since Celty did point out that Shizuo was Izaya’s latest obsession and knew that nothing good could have waited for him if left in Izaya’s hands). But adding on more to that, I just really loved the ending so much though since it’s an open ended that ends on a good note: “He was still a child and had room to grow, to understand betrayal and learn forgiveness.” And I feel like this, among all the other things said in the last paragraph carried on quite strongly, because it feels like it leaves the ending with knowing that Shizuo’s still a child, and that his future can be better because he’s got time to grow in such a better environment and it’s just, I’m emotional over it lmaoo. Because it’s just so nice, just so good to know that Shizuo - no matter what he went through, will be able to become strong and overcome all of this in the future, but that for now, he was far away from Izaya and that’s such a good step forward into healing. But yeah, I can honestly like, continue rambling on, but I really do like this ending for Shizuo, even though I do feel like it’s sad that Shizuo’s friendship with masaomi ends on a note of thinking he was abandoned when he wasn’t….but I feel like this is something Shizuo will think about eventually, and maybe even on his end forgive - because on his side he’s left to think that he was abandoned - but at the same time, who knows! Lol but as much as I think it’s a pity and bittersweet to leave Shizuo with that feeling of abandonment, I think this is something Shizuo will also embrace with better thoughts in comparison to what izaya would try to do with his negative manipulation.

And well, with that, I also really wanted to talk about Masaomi and Saki as well. When reading this chapter and finishing it the first time, I was upset a little bit with Masaomi. Oh gosh, I can’t even describe how I was just like, god masaomi you could have left with Shizuo - Shizuo loved you and everything could have been better, but over re-reading it again and again, it’s just so Masaomi to not leave with Shizuo. To know that Shizuo liked him but having to understand that Masaomi also most probably only saw Shizuo as a friend but did feel lust but only in how Shizuo would look in wearing certain types of clothings and how Masaomi wanted - knew that Shizuo deserved something so much better than that. And in all, it’s also because in the very beginning, Masaomi has always been dedicated to Saki and will always go to Saki because he loves her, even though she is how she is, with liking Izaya and all. It is sad, because Masaomi also deserves so much more than this, being stuck with Izaya who’s controlling and raping him and Saki who just lets it happen because she views Izaya differently and doesn’t see that as a problem and such more - it’s so sad. And I can only wish that maybe, eventually, Masaomi will be able to escape Izaya’s clutches as well and run away with Saki but ah, who knows, ne? But then again, in the end of the paragraph about them it also does say: Izaya smirked moving their bodies like the puppets they were and would always be. So I guess I can’t hope for too much but I can always dream lmaooo. Edit: but also….talking about Saki also makes me wonder about her, because we know the gist of why Mikado doesn’t leave Izaya, but it does make me curious on why Saki is like this since we didn’t get to know her very well, and it does clash a bit with what we learned in the beginning, or at least before Shizuo and Masaomi witnessing the scene between Saki and Izaya - it makes me so sad for Saki as well. Because I feel like there’s probably something more in between Saki and Izaya that would make Saki react this way - even though before hand Masaomi has told Shizuo that Saki is willing to help other people escape Izaya’s clutches, or just help others who have suffered from Izaya’s hand (or….something like that….I have a horrible memory I’m so sorry beloved author OTL) so it really does make me wonder. And also, in the end, as horrible as it is to say it I feel like Masaomi had also dug his own hole because I feel like if he really tried for it, Masaomi could have easily left and ran away with Saki - could have asked for Shizuo’s help since at the time Shizuo was making a lot of money from being a model, and ah, it just makes me a little melancholic. But at the same time...I also feel like it’s very… Masaomi in a way ahaha~ loyal to the bitter end to the people he loves, even though it’s not good for him since the reason why Masaomi continued going to school was to get Mikado out even though I think subconsciously he already knew he couldn’t get Mikado to leave because Mikado wanted to stay, but only actually embraced it when the things went down with Shizuo opened his eyes to that, but then he also stayed for Shizuo as well lol. Damn it Masaomi, in the end….the precious child was hurting himself as well like everyone else.

But yeah, all in all, even though I thought this story would go on for a bit longer, having the ending being written like this (despite all the endings you had planned out for this, just as you said, the ending had written itself out and I really felt like the ending did this story justice in a way ahaha~) was just so nice for a story that was heavily into issues/topics regarding rape and sexual assault both inside and outside of school from a horrible teacher who has the power to do so and used it for the worse - despite having the ability to be such a much better, maybe even the best, teacher regarding that I think at some point Shizuo mentions how Shizuo was able to do math easier through Izaya’s teachings - and continuously manipulated the students to do what he wanted - in reality, this story was very dark with the topics, but this ending, for all of the students and Shizuo, I feel like they all got a good ending. Except for that one student….rip that one student who was able to leave but left with horrible consequences and I’ve forgotten their name also, so double rip lmao). In the end, thank you so much for writing this and I hope to continue on seeing you write more amazing stories!

I liked this normally when you have a highly sexualized story in this fandom everyone is out of character but here you seemed to keep a lot of the orginal personality and i bought the characterization/reactions under the circumstances. Even Izaya actually not likeing sex but loveing the power/control and enjoying that and still doing twisted social experiments. Him hateing wanting to distroy Shizou to protect his precious humans. Also i'm glad you kept Mikado as his deranged, selfish, self. There's a lot of turning him into a harmless wobbie, victim of Izaya but in reality yeah Izaya would be in more danger from him. I really liked the Shizuo Kida freindship and i've never been big on the dynamic but here you really sold me on it. I have so many mixed feelings about this ending. On one hand i'm kinda glad Shizuo got away and i'm so glad you never went the romantisized abuse route like i've seen a lot of authors go with this kind of story. But Kida keeps getting raped becuse the two people he cares about suck which is cannon and it fits with Kida's personality to stick around and be abused by Izaya for their sake. So it does fit his character so i don't hate it but i want to slap Saki senseless here. i hate her and im not naturally a Saki hater i find her interesting in the light novels and i don't mind her and Kida as a couple. but here she just sucks! and kinda wish Kida actually went off with Shizuo becuse damaged or not there's a point where enough is enough and when the phycopath who controls you starts to go after your boyfreind you get the frick out of town if possible. He's getting raped in front of her and she doesn't give a dam. i swear Saki is really in love with Izaya in this fanfic since she didn't go aginst him for Kida like she did in the series. Although i still think Shizou is going to come back for him, i can see Mikado telling him about Kida so he can use him in his plans to get Izaya. Also Shizou thinks Kida betrayed him but he didn't Kida was loyal to the end even didn't have sex ith him becuse Kida knew he deserved better. It just kinda bums me out the best freindship in this fic ended on a sour note. But i do think you managed to find a good ending for this fic since the ending was kind of a downer but also hopeful it seemed to fit with this story a truely happy ending would of been weird. Than you for shareing this!

OH My Fucking God I can't right now I feel so bad for the rest of the class, I was hoping either Mikado, the class or both would kill Izaya but I'm glad Shizuos safe(?)

Well shit im sad its over but im so happy he got away

Haa, seems like Izaya’s mad xD

Yayyy a happy ending ish XD Well I'm glad how things turned out, and I really like that you connected how Celty became a mute to this chapter. Plz do a sequel of Shizuo in the future being happy!

Yessss I love it !

Here Izaya go.. xD

I’m really late in commenting, and I deeply apologize (especially if this comment ends up being a little short too OTL I do apologize for that, but maybe it might also be a breath of fresh air like “Yes, finally, I don’t have to drag my eyes over this fucker’s comment” LMAOOO I kid, but seriously if this comment does end up being short I do really apologize from the bottom of my heart) but ah, I finally found time to read this and just, oh gosh I have a lot of feelings and….all you really need to know is that I might possibly just be sitting in the corner of my room now and weep as I read because this fic just tugs a lot of emotions but….the unrequited love is going to fucking be the end of me, I swear. But anyways, other than me rambling on about my death lmao I was, ah well, not really surprised but the atmosphere was so different when this chapter opened up! It felt refreshing, because it was just such a different environment that Shizuo was in - with his modeling career and all, it was like exploring new boundaries and such more, and especially knowing that it’s new years and everyone is celebrating….it was most definitely had bells ringing in my head because at first I was like, oh my god, what if somehow Izaya pops in during this kind of commotion and somehow drugs Shizuo’s drink and!

But thankfully that didn’t happen, but I must tell you I did end up lulling myself into a false sense of security that by the time Izaya did appear I was like “ASDFGHJKL!” LMAO. But before I talk about that: why must you hurt me like this. With Shizuo kind of having a good time in the beginning of this chapter and then here comes Masaomi and just….I weep deep inside my sould because as much as I am a masochist….I just love the Shizuo that you write so much that I feel so much pain for him because, Oh my god. Masaomi and Saki are getting married and then here’s Shizuo who’s in love with Masaomi and it just...it hurts so much because I just want them to be happy but they can’t be happy like this, and sdjnsdoffd. God, I really do love Masaomi so much, especially his humor and the way he looks out for Shizuo and the way he jokes by saying things like: “I see they pay you to be tortured now” and “I can’t believe you wore some of this crap.” LMAO Masaomi omg it’s fashion, but just, this line too I’m going to die because of this fic: Masaomi patted his back. He’d forgotten how much the blond touched and just how much he’d liked it. And then there’s this line too because I’m...I’m really going to weep in the corner and cry an ocean because, please: Shizuo glanced at the ring again. He couldn’t stop looking at it.

Like, please. You’re hurting me and Shizuo like this TTATT be gentle with my M heart, beloved author. Though as always I do like the additional info being brought up about how Shizuo never returns the pyjamas - throwing it in the bin lmao Shizuo, you should’ve burnt it to a crisp. I would’ve rooted for ya buddy - and how he never met up with Celty again as well as telling how Shizuo kept away from the school and how it affects him when he sees student uniforms as well as how somewhat paranoid Shizuo has become. And I don’t blame him, Izaya’s got….sticky hands, so who knows what Izaya's been doing behind the scenes since he’s let Shizuo and Masaomi go for now. But oh gosh, going back to the topic of where Shizuo and Masaomi have their conversation about how Masaomi’s getting hitched at the end of April and asking for Shizuo to be his best man….Shizuo, my poor child I just, I weep for you since I relate to this on a personal level somewhat LOL. But there’s also the fact that Masaomi brings up the “I know the whole liking boys thing is a part of your image” but I’m lowkey screaming like MASAOMI, Shizuo is so gay, and he’s also gay for you omg don’t do him like this sdijunsdf. And the fact that Shizuo’s even gotten offers as well and how he says that the only one he’s ever felt like kissing is the one sitting opposite of him. And I’m just, I’m dying okay. Please send help; SOS; I know - especially because I’m typing this after reading lmaoo so I guess it’s a little cheating that you won’t be able to see my reaction being somewhat like “Izaya no, how could you do this!?” But then again, it is Izaya sdjfnsdf - but ahhhh, I just knew that there was no way Izaya owuldn’t have noticed Shizuo crushing on Masaomi, especially from the information that Izaya had on Shizuo and Shizuo remarking that Izaya knew things about himself that he never noticed...or something like that? Ah, I should definitely re-read that again lmao, but in a bit perhaps!

Though….it is interesting on what we learn from the taps and everything, it really makes me curious on what Izaya must have done. I mean, to have to watch his classmates not only give their virginity up willingly, but also to be the one that initiated and enjoyed it thoroughly….something is fishy. Then again, it is Izaya’s specialty with mind games so I’m sure Izaya must have done /something/ to have gotten everyone to do it willingly, as well as initiating it. Though...it does worry me because it feels like Izaya’s going to get Shizuo as well some point and just, Ahhh! What is happening! And also….I just, I love how at the end of that paragraph, Shizuo mentions about Mikado and I’m just like omg, this fucking sweetheart. It sounds like he’s worried about Mikado, and I mean, I’m always rooting for redemption for Mikado but….let me tell you. I fucking screamed at Mikado later when reading this chapter and all my thoughts on Mikado being redeemed was hurled right outta the fucking window bECAUSE MIKADO WHY? Lmaooo. I I really felt like hurling my phone on the bed, I was just, I wanted Mikado to be redeemed so much somehow but! Fucking Mikado I’ll always love you but not this story fucking, mikado pls dojsdfnsf I’m fucking weeping over it. I hate him but I love him and I’m just...so conflicted because I love how Mikado is just...somehow who’s not with Shizuo but rather against and supporting Izaya and I can’t wait to see on how Mikado will, you know, also impact things along the way but I’m also like, crying on the side because I wanted the trio to be together so much and I don’t think they’ll ever be okay with each other after this TTATT

And also, you know, I really also like the fact in how when Shizuo keeps refusing to have more time with Masaomi by using Kasuka as the reason only to go home and realize that Masaomi knew he was lying and just - I love Shizuo’s mom. Fucking, ratted Shizuo’s ass out lmao and how Shizuo has to tell his mom that he doesn’t like like Masaomi in that way and, I’m forever going to shed tears about this. Though another thing I want to add, oh man, Shizuo and his manager have it rough with all the gross things they have to get in the mail, especially the pubic hair and his manager’s response to it ahaha~ It was kind of comical, and just, his response to it! “Pubic hair. That’s...nice.” LMAO I fucking cracked up while reading it because it was just….such a short and simple reaction but then again, I mean….I’m sure Shizuo’s gotten even more weirder things - like that used condom. Poor manager got his suit ruined from it, much kudos to Shizuo’s manager though in doing this kind of work.

And god, okay, I was just so jumpy in the beginning that Shizuo was going to get jumped immediately by Izaya by the time I got to when Izaya actually showed up I was lowkey screaming at myself for lulling myself into a false sense of security and then at Shizuo to keep running and just - oh gosh, I really felt my heart pumping the whole time and then! The fucking comment with Izaya saying that AVs use the same camera set up and how Izaya tells Shizuo he can see his silhouette - I got the goosebumps, and then Izaya telling Shizuo how if he came out then he wouldn’t get in trouble for breaking his car door and then just, Shizuo running and! Listen, I felt like I was running a marathon because I was just rooting so hard for Shizuo to get the hell out but OF COURSE. FUCKING MIKADO. I fucking choked when I read that Mikado slammed a fucking fire extinguisher against Shizuo’s head and just, being the ultimate obstacle that got in Shizuo’s escape from Izaya and just, agghhhhhh!

And gosh, I just, I have so many feelings and things I want to say about the whole scene over with Shizuo and Mikado and Izaya but it’s all just jumbles of words in my head and I’m just constantly like “asdlkjhgffgchvb” in my head over about it. But at the same time, I love Izaya’s taunting and mockery, and the way he’s forcing Shizuo to come back to School and the filming of the assault being sent to Masaomie via Mikado using Shizuo’s phone (I’m still upset over Mikado. I’m going to be an absolute child because I wanted a happy ending for trio, no matter how far fetched it was, but I’m also equally enjoying how Mikado is also somewhat an antagonist in this and I enjoy it very much that way as well even though it leaves me feeling so conflicted lmao.)

And just….god, Masaomi come back for Shizuo and I cry inside because god, Masaomi I love you for coming back but just! Masaomi could have gotten away unlike Shizuo, Masaomi could have actually made it out - or at least that’s how I feel like and just….Masaomi TTATT but then again, I’d probably also be upset with Masaomi if he left Shizuo to get fisted or fucked by Izaya and with Mikado filming the whole thing. And well, I guess Masaomi is also right in the fact that they’ve escaped once - though it was….probably because Izaya let them, planned for it in a way for them to find a way out and be free for a while - and that they can escape again or just make it through graduation. And then….ah, fucking masaomi saying how there’s a silver lining to it all: being the fact that Masaomi would be able to see Shizuo in a skirt again. Lmao Masaomi you can’t do this to me and shizuo omg. And of course, and important factor being that Izaya did tell Shizuo how the rules have changed and just….ah, I’m so fucking horribly intrigued in wanting to know how much the rules have changed. And not only that….but I’m also wondering on what’s happened to all the classmates ever since Shizuo’s escaped, leaving them with hope and such more. Though another thing I want you to know what I’m weeping about: Shizuo left the room in a hurry. It was going to be a troublesome night. Right now he was hurting more than when he’d been in Izaya’s hands. And just, god I’m in pain this unrequited love, as much as I love it I equally hate it and it’s going to kill me because I just have this feeling that….Izaya might skillfully use this unrequited love to manipulate Shizuo in a lot of ways and I’m just, I’m gonna weep for Shizuo because oh my god, this is possibly one of the worst information on Shizuo’s personal feelings that Izaya’s gotten a clear hold on and just...the power of knowing this crush….sdiufbsdf I’m horrible, but as much as I hate it because this leaves Shizuo in pain, I’m actually wondering if Izaya will actually use this information in Shizuo as well as in how and why and for what and just, ah, I’m just super curious.

Then in the end...beloved author, you might as well just launch me up into space now because what does this mean?! Fucking, you can’t do this to me: The blond scoffed turning away. “I should have known. That bastard never lets anyone go.” And I’m just so interested to learn why Saki has such a reaction to Izaya, despite what we know and just, ah, I feel so bad for Shizuo, but I also feel bad for Masaomi in having to witness such a scene. I mean, oh boy. I just can’t even explain because I feel like everything I say is going to turn into word vomit but! I mean, this ending scene is just really something and just….oh gosh, I’m in too much turmoil over this that I’m truly going to be walking blind forever onwards in the upcoming chapters you have next for us. Especially with leaving us with a note that it’s still the same game but with new rules and just….hmm, ahaha~ I can’t wait to see what the new rules are though, and I’m too thoroughly invested to see what’s going to happen between Masaomi and Shizuo after witnessing that scene with Saki as well as so much more things that will be awaiting the two escapees when they come back into the classroom. And like always, thank you for writing such a thrilling chapter, and I can’t wait to see what you have coming up next!

You are...just soooo...hm...im basically in tears right now liiiiiiike whyyyyyyyy?he was almost their!

I really hope that Shizuo doesn't lose his virginity to Izaya, I just want him and his friend to fall in love and be happy :(

Well shit, this escalated quickly. And Shizuo was doing so well as a free man :( Izaya is just too clingy for his own good, he's probably miffed that Shizuo didn't try to approach him for so long so he's acting like a jealous boyfriend XD

Happy new year...soooo heavy...T_T

Please update the next one

I’m not sure if this comment will be as long as my usual comments so many apologies about if this does turn into a short comment, but oh man, I have to admit I’ve really been held in suspense over this chapter especially ever since what has happened in the last chapter and with finally meeting Celty for the first time, even though….She ran Shizuo over lmao. But I really like how you go to create the scene, with Shizuo waking up to drinking water and seeing his reflection in the visor of Celty’s helmet to how much Celty’s trying to take care of Shizuo to the best of her ability even though Shizuo describes it as having a child looking after him play house, which is honestly a little bit adorable ahaha~ I couldn’t but help but find it endearing on how much Celty wants to help Shizuo even to the point of where she tries to take care of him by cooking for him and such more. And also, I just love the small part where Celty grabs his hands and Shizuo just has that sinking gut feeling lmaooo Shizuo’s strong almost six sense in a way is something amazing but also something to pity since, ah, well, leading onto the the cooking scene was something I had to pity Shizuo for lmao. Like, oh man Shizuo, having eat Celty’s cooking sounds like a wild ride, especially with his it’s described: It was soft and chewy but hard and crunchy. Bitter but sweet, creamy but spicy. There were too many flavours to identify, there was one thing he knew for sure. It was the foulest thing he had ever tasted. God, I feel so bad for Shizuo in having to endure Celty’s cooking, and gosh she’s so precious in how she asks Shizuo if it was spicy and remarks that her roommate likes it that way (though, I’m sure we all know by now who her room mate is and I’m just….silently cracking up in the things Shinra does lmao.)

And god, I fucking love Shizuo so much because he’s so hilarious and his lines are fucking gold. The way how he comments that he only wants to drink water because if Celty’s food is this bad, then her drinks must be toxic and then later Celty asks Shizuo if he wants her to make some milkshakes and I’m fucking dying. Oh man Shizuo, you really have no luck today in particular isdjnsdf. Then there’s the way that Shinra and Izaya come into the scene and you know, /you know Shizuo’s fucked/ because Shizuo’s horribly stuck there in such a horrible situation that there’s just...no way of getting out of and god, I have to admit, I might’ve laughed a little at the way of how Shizuo’s fucking sitting between two horrible people with a terrible plate of food in front of him lmaoo. Like, Shizuo I’m so sorry my precious cinnamon roll, you’re literally and figuratively fucked in every way possible right now for getting stuck in such a shitty situation. Though there’s also this part where I laughed in how Izaya squeezes Shizuo’s thigh hard and Shizuo just pipes up and tells Celty that her food is good. Like, I can cry tears because a part of me feels like Shizuo might’ve been honest in telling Celty that her food kinda sucks but because of Izaya’s rough handling Shizuo just ends up spitting out that her foods good even though it isn’t ahaha~ Then, man, Shizuo being forced in having a check up even though Celty had good intentions and the fact that Izaya tells Shizuo how Shinra won’t do anything to him when Celty’s around. And gosh, it really is a bit sad though that for Shizuo there’s a catch in meeting such a nice person like celty but of course having the catch being Shinra sdofijnsdf fucking, rip Shizuo.

I also love how when Shizuo finally goes home, of course a bit disheveled looking after being manhandled by Izaya in the car, Shizuo just blurts out the truth to his mom of everything that happened as well as the fact that even the lady was nice her food was horrible lmaoo. I swear I could’ve cracked a rib at that because omg shizuo, you’re so fucking endearing in a way with his blunt honesty and I fucking adore him for it yet at the same time I’m laughing because, oh man, a part of me is like Shizuo omg be nice, Celty tried to cook….even though it was horrible, but she tried! Ahaha~

And of course, I love how meeting Celty and just, witnessing the horror that Celty didn’t eat like everyone else and had to be fed through an IV drip. And as horrifying as it must have been for Shizuo to witness that, especially since it’s related to both Izaya and Shinra, I also find it really interesting in how you put your own twist to Celty, with how she can feel hunger since I’m not sure if it’s ever talked about in canon and how she’s fed through an IV and how this kinda just perhaps lead Shizuo to realizing that eating is a luxury. Which, well, is most definitely true and even more so in Celty’s case! But also, a part of me just melted a little bit because besides what happened between Mikado and Shizuo, Shizuo still decided to bring at least one last meal for Mikado. Though there’s also the fact that Masaomi talks to Saki about everything, mostly if it’s related to Izaya, and how they were both researching to help Shizuo and a part of me felt the warm fuzzies because it was just, awww these two are just really fucking nice and I sincerely hope for the best for them sodnsdf.

But of course, today is the day Kuni-kun finally comes to class, and no surprise that Izaya’s most definitely been giving lessons to Kuni-kun as well because I just can’t imagine Izaya not touching and ruining someone for such a long while. Especially since a part of me thinks, it wouldn’t be fair if your classmates had to suffer while this could almost be a freedom away from Izaya with no suffering, ne? But of course, being away from class is terrible and just sodnsdf ah man, I love how everything went down with a bang - Shizuo going into a rage from having Kuni-kun threaten his family to where Shizuo smashes him out the window, leading to both Mikado and Masaomi at different times trying to stop Shizuo - which, I gotta admit, I was kind of surprised that Mikado did that, even though Shizuo pushed him away and only stopped when Masaomi stepped in. Then...the big moment where Shizuo’s getting Izaya to sign his contract was….oh man, this did not go where I thought it was going to go, though I did think that perhaps Izaya would willingly sign the contract but /not like this/.

I remember questioning the about the usb before and just, oh man, this is not, oh man this is not- Izaya, you’re so fucking horrible, I hate you even though I still love you as a character because Izaya is Izaya but also because the way he is in the story is just...something I want to understand so much but it’s like being a thirsty man who’s only allowed to drink water dripping from a still-frozen icicle on a ceiling or something lmaoo. But honestly though, it felt like my whole mind was blown because Shizuo was ready to give everything to Izaya, everything being his virginity, and I fucking love the cold feeling of how Izaya just tosses it aside like it’s nothing and just comments that it’s no fun and then gives Shizuo a set of rules to follow. And god, the slow cold, feeling in my gut when Izaya just tells Shizuo the reason why for what he’s doing, and the horribleness of knowing that Shizuo’s actually done exactly what Izaya wanted him to do and “more actually” as well that one part, that one little thing that I literally wouldn’t have recognized if I didn’t re-read this again was the fact that Izaya also says he’s letting Shizuo go “for now”. Just for now, Izaya’s going to let Shizuo run and I just, oh my god, you know….I kind of just realized while typing this, this is possibly just as bad as what Shizuo realizes what he’s leaving his classmates with: hope. Because I feel like perhaps Shizuo might not have recognized as well or maybe had more hope that Izaya wouldn’t be able to touch him but….Izaya said he’s letting Shizuo go for now. For now. It’s like allowing a captured animal you’ve tortured for a long while their sweet freedom only to chase after it good ten or twenty minutes later and drag it back to hell. Oh my god, Just like how Shizuo making out of Izaya’s class gives his classmates hope and with Izaya feeding them little by little about Shizuo escaping to lit the fire again in their eyes….Izaya’s going to kill the hope and short-lived freedom in Shizuo when Izaya decides to drag Shizuo back here again, and god. Oh my god, I am having too much feelings so I’m going to continue this comment lmaoo.

But anyways, the usb and the knowledge that everyone gave their virginity freely (though I doubt that since Izaya’s plays a lot of mind games, so I’m sure it must have been some sort of moral choice for each student of picking the lesser evil out of two evil choices or something like that. Edit: I also realized Izaya also told Shizuo that Shizuo's going to end up begging Izaya as well and I feel like I'm going to take this as foreshadowing so...ah man...I wonder what kind of even worse situation Shizuo would have to be in to be forced to beg Izaya willingly for it, tho of course, the "picking of lesser of two evil's" thing is still in my mind about this while thing sdfojnsd) and there’s also the horror Shizuo has a feeling it’s wrong to escape, Especially since this is going to give his classmates hope and just - Masaomi….ah man, I love Masaomi, I really do, but his answer of how everyone has a choice and such more just makes me so conflicted because, yes, that’s true, but a part of me really wants Shizuo to play hero - even though Izaya’s commented on this before saying it’s greedy in a way or so, and how this can lead to also saving no one sdjonsdf. And just, I love and hate it so much of how Shizuo has thoughts of how he’s going to earn money for his family and such more as well as how Masaomi and Saki are going to live together and perhaps far away from here and have better lives….yet, when Shizuo and Masaomi are running out of the school and Shizuo catches sight of Izaya staring down at them and Shizuo has a feeling of tightening around his neck - makes me think of a dog leash for some reason, but then again, Izaya has put a leash on Shizuo once so I mean sdjnasd - but it’s so heartbreaking. Like, I’m always here for the torture, as terrible as it is I love myself some good torture mixed in with good and interesting plot, but the last sentence saying “Masaomi tugged him again and they were out of the school gate and free.” And especially with that note you’ve left us with, Shizuo and Masaomi are most definitely not free….or well, I feel like at least Masaomi would be able to run far but I think perhaps his loyalty to Shizuo or maybe even Saki will force him to come back as well would lead to such a horrible downfall. But as horrible as it….I am interested to see how Izaya’s going to rope them back in again since he’s only letting Shizuo (and maybe masaomi) go for now.

And you know, I was thinking about this thought after Izaya had told Shizuo how he played right into Izaya’s hands….I was wondering if maybe this could also be a reason why Mikado hasn’t left as well, continuing to keep scoring low on his test, but yet at the same time there’s also...evidence that Mikado was jealous of Shizuo for keeping Izaya’s attention and also telling Kasuka that it was his fault in why Shizuo was in detention, leading to the break of their friendship as well as how Izaya's also hinted along with Masaomi about how Mikado is how he is. But ah, I’m not even sure if this is just wishful thinking on my part to have Mikado be redeemed in a such a way, or maybe I’m just thinking too much lmaoo. But also….oh man, I really can’t wait to see what happens in the next chapter, especially with leaving us with “You thought it was over?” and I just, I swear you can bet that, well, I always do this unless it was those weeks were I hadn’t been able to read for a while, but you can bet that I’ll be sitting in suspense and hitting the refresh button like a maniac to see what you have in store for us in the next chapter, But anyways, I gotta stop rambling so much lmao so, yeah, thank you so much for giving us yet again and damn thrilling chapter and I can’t wait for the next update, so until then, see you later!