This is a beautiful story. I'm sorry to hear some felt they needed to give you grief over it. Your writing is among the best I've read in the YOI fandom. Thank you for putting so much of yourself into it. I put off reading this title for a while because I thought that Viktor having HIV would just make for depressing content for characters I inherently associate with love and happy endings. I've learned a lot through your story, and now have a new insight into what it actually means to be HIV in the world today, and how there can be happy endings in those instances as well.

Okay, so I am probably an incredibly late commenter here, but you are an amazing author, I love how you wrote this, I love how you portrayed this whole story, and most of all, I love how you see what I wish everyone would see. I hate that HIV/AIDS makes people so uncomfortable, and I hate that LGBT people are hated too, and even though I don't know anyone who does have HIV, I love this story for having such a realistic view on... Everything, really. So, thank you Rsa.

So I️ just finished reading this at 12am and I️ totally have a 7:00 class in the morning... but I️ have not been able to put down my phone all day. This story has completely captivated me in a way that few stories are able to. You’re a phenomenal writer and have an extraordinary grasp of how to capture true emotion. I’ve never know anyone who has had HIV/AIDS (and my high school only briefly passed over the subject of STD’s) but my heart completely broke into little pieces reading this. I️ literally cried reading about the agony and emotional pain. The self disgust and references to suicide were heart wrenching and made me feel for so many people out in the world who are going through this right now.

And for the people who try to shame you, don’t listen to them! Spread your gospel and educate the world! I’ve learned so much and you’ve removed so many of the judgements that I️ had subconsciously made. Thank you for this chance to grow, your story (both the fanfiction and the glimpses into your own life) have provided me with a learning experience that schooling failed to offer.

I’m so happy I️ decided to give this story a chance, and I️ wish you happiness and good fortune. Have a happy holidays and god bless!

Hello, I just finished this story and I have to say is one of the best fanfictions I've readand summing all of my fanden I've read plenty) it has the seriousness of an actual novel and the way you write is amazing. it had a difficult topic, and honestly I almost didn't read it because I feared for a sad endingI deal well with those) but the the tension of the first chapter swallowed me in. it really did change my perspective of HIV, I knew a bit of the disease but I've never imagined how would people deal withboth the person with the illness and those who suround them) . I imagine it isn't easy but If I may,I would like to say that is a great opportunity for you to make it a original fiction work, not only for you as a writer but for the people out there who throughly need a change of perspective on the subject... I belive that is one of the best things about books it let's you live on the shoes of somebody else. whatever you decide I still want to thank you for writing this amazing story .

I dont even have words for how amazing this story is, it is truly a masterpiece and you are just amazing (well amazing is a major understatement).

I loved this story! It was great to see a side of HIV that isn't usually shown. You did a wonderful job with this. It makes me sad that there is such a stigma against it, when honestly it is usually something that can't be blamed on anyone. I'm glad that you are showing for what it is, and showing that someone with this can live just as full and happy a life as anyone else. Great job! I wish there was more! :)

-Yvonne

Beautiful! I love it! It is a story that shows the point of view of the person who has this disease and you can see how they have to fight with a cruel world (by ignorance, fear, discrimination, personal interest, anger etc) and in the case of this ff how they fall and raise and fall in love. (English not my first language, sorry if you can not understand well my comment)

I don't know what else to say about this magnificent piece of writing, except: thank you! I thoroughly enjoyed reading this wonderful story and the amount of growth and hope that emerge from it. I truly hope that this has helped you and I am wishing for nothing but the best for you and your friends and family. Once again, thank you for this story! :)

I was going to wait until I had finished reading this entire fic to write a review, but after the ending of Chapter 3 and the way this current chapter ended, I had to write something.

First off let me start by complimenting the content and your passion that you have for putting out this story. As a nursing student and future nurse, I can't tell you enough how happy I am and proud of you for creating and publishing your story. Anyone who is or has been writing negative comments to you just doesn't understand or are not open enough to wanting to learn/read about this sensitive subject matter. (In fact, I was about 3 or 4 years old when Magic Johnson made his announcement in the early '90s. Not only that, but elementary, middle, and high school was very adamant about educating myself and my classmates on the matter, something that still sticks with me to this very day...)

Second, I was so upset when I read that last part about the anonymous sender and that reporter. (I have a very good guesstimate about who did it.) There really should be laws and repercussions for this happening. All I keep thinking about is HIPAA (then again, those laws are for the U.S.) It isn't fair to Viktor at all and the media are all shameless vultures. If this had happened to any reporters, I'm sure they would be heavily upset and looking for retribution towards the situation. I empathize with Viktor so much; on the one hand, he already feels so miserable and tainted, yet he is trying to do better, be normal and find a reason to live. Then you have Yuri. Yuri is definitely a God-send, a saving grace for Viktor. Yuri is the best, most wonderful human being for the Russian legend. He has done so much already to save Viktor and he will not let him go. Reading about how he handled the situation at the airport shows his growth and the love that he has for Viktor. Yuri took charge at a time when Viktor truly needed that love, strength and guidance. Their relationship is so beautiful and pure and just puts an overall smile on my face. Simply put, Yuri is Viktor's hope in physical form.

Once again, thank you for this!

Well, I am a Chinese, you will find that my English is very poor... But I have to say that your work is very EXCELLENT! It deeply impressed me and made me to come to you with my poor English involuntarily to discuss how I felt. This is the best I have ever read and the most touching story! You are so great and amazing! I can't imagine how you construct the story. Thanks to the translation of yidu reach let me know to such an excellent work in a foreign country. Thank you for giving us so different and wonderful YuuliVictor!

As you might have already felt that my English is not very well. The first time I saw the summary of this article which was translated into Chinese by Yidu, I was shocked and moved a lot as well.I hadn't finished reading this yet, but I must say that you influence me in a different way. Hope the world will be better,which bases on everyone loves and respects everyone.

thank you for this lovely story. good luck with any future publications of it!

- priscilla

ps - screw ALL those ignorant, salty haters. we don't need them.

Having a family member with AIDS, the wooden chopsticks scene hit home profoundly. This story is beautifully written, it is extremely well documented, and makes a great service of portraying both facts about living while HIV and also about the internal turmoil that patience feel and how other people react out of fear and ignorance.
Thank you for writing this.

Omg I didn't know there was this additional epilogue to look forward to. The ending is still so beautiful!

Glad to hear you gain something from writing this story. Of course whether you decide to rewrite this or anything, you've got my support. But I'll never forget how this fic is in the first place already beautiful.

Thank you again for putting me through this rollercoaster ride. It was enlightening and novel. This fic is amazingly written. Thank you!

I can't even at this point.

It was such a beautiful story and the pain was so visceral, my heart aches. Thank you. Thank you for taking the time to share your story. To help us understand and to feel. People often lash out and shy away from things they don't understand, from things that they feel are too uncomfortable to put into words; to put into reality. It is only through authors like yourself, sharing these moments, these glimpses, that we can truly start to whittle down the barriers and stereotype walls that we have raised up around ourselves. To open ourselves up to be compassionate human beings who care and love one another.

The world is hardly fair, that is true, but your story shows that it is what you fight for that brings the most meaning. It is one's drive to better themselves, and to have the support of friends and family that can make all the difference.

I am still so moved and a feel that I am rambling a bit, so I hope this review makes sense.

Your story just speaks so true to me that it hurts and I am moved to tears. I am studying nursing at the moment and I know that this story will help me immensely in my interactions with my future patients. It will be the hard days that I will look back on this story and remember that it isn't about the medicine, the pills, or the results, it is the human interactions and support that I can give to them to help them through. To try and make their day a little bit better when it feels the world is against them. To be kind, compassionate, and to give a fucking care. To know that underneath all this medical jargon, these words to make ourselves feel like we know what we are talking about, there are people who want to live. People who deserve love, strength, compassion and kindness. People who are just trying to make sense of the world just as I am.

I read your note about the publishing offer. I feel that you should go for it. The reality that is typed out here, in fanfction, can be applied to world wide. I can see how it can help out others in similar situations that you had gone through. However, I respect that it is your choice and your story.

So thank you again for sharing your experiences and I look forward to more works from you.

-Kristin
Canadian Nursing Student
p.s. I wanted to use my actual name to show my personal support and feelings for your story. I did no wish to hid behind my online identity, as you deserve more than that.