OHMIGOSH, seriously? You end it here? After all Sam's been there (and we've been through with Sam)? :) It's great drama and timing but, man, it's stopping right before the good stuff!

Okay, yes, I did skim a lot of the first bunch of chapters because all the torture is not my thing. And, wow, you have so many great ideas in here-using the demon cure instead of a step-down withdrawal, Sam's hallucinations, Cas as buffer, having the BMoL torture Sam with the blood in the first place in the name of science.

Most of all, your voices are so perfect. Dean does all that caring without ever veering OOC, and Sam's so strong and so vulnerable at the same time. Cas is perfect, too, and what little I read of Toni (although you find good in her I did not :)). And I like how you sort of had Mary in the story but not really.

I just really wanted that reunion, the real one that Sam knows about! I guess I'll have to imagine it. You sure gave us one heckuva set-up.

You beautiful, beautiful person. Thank you.

Okay, this was such a roller-coaster, but I'm so, so pleased with how it turned out! I can't thank you enough for sharing this wonderful work with us!

"Dean, I am an angel, not a coffeepot." That had me genuinely burst out laughing, thank you for that gem of a line xD

Agghhh, this is so cruel! I hate not knowing what's real! And I know you're totally doing it on purpose, so it's a fantastic technique as a writer, but that doesn't mean I'm not still angry about it! Nonetheless, I'm also still in love with this story. I can't wait to see where it goes!

Oh, that was cruel! I finally thought Sam was gonna break free, but then again, I'm enjoying this story far too much for it to be that easy ;) I'm in love with this so far, and I want to say more about how amazing I think this story is, but I'm too eager to read the rest of the story to do that right now! Onto the next chapter!

This was the first time in a long, long time that I've sat down and read through a fic all in one sitting (one this long I mean). It took hours, but I couldn't put it down.

Your pacing and characterization were spot on, and you really got me into Sam's head. I swear, this story broke my heart so many times, I am tears right now as I finish it. My only complaint is not getting to see Sam accept that Dean is alive, but I suppose your intention was to maybe leave it open for speculation. DID Sam hallucinate him that whole time? I personally don't think so, but I really felt Sam's pain and longing. Again, my heart was hurting the whole time, through Sam's torture and later when he suffered through the cure. The scene that really got to me was Sam admitting he didn't want the cure if that meant he couldn't see Dean anymore.

Anyways I'll stop rambling, I just have a lot of emotions right now Well done!

Thank you so much. For a Dean girl you write Sam very very well. And as a Sam girl, I truly love this. I do wish you had finished it a little more and let Sam accept both Dean and his Mother as real, but that's just a nitpick. And I actually applaud Toni Bevell's progression here, after we came to understand how these poor BMOL agents were "trained". Hard to be an empathetic human being in that organization of sociopaths.
Sam has always been the most self aware of the brothers, and his introspection thru this ordeal was painful to witness even as it made him more heroic in my eyes. He chooses to remain true to himself thruout, a humane, reasoning man. When pushed to the edge he made the choice to surrender his soul to save a child, when he never would have given in to save himself. Yet after his rescue he fought to keep his soul and refuse the blood even if it killed him. With the life he has lived he doesn't even take physical suffering into account in his choices anymore, but it doesn't lessen his pain. And in the end, he accepts the possibility of the cure only because he wants to save his brother. God, I love this man. Thank you again for this heartbreaking and life affirming story. By the way, I love every choice you made with regard to the science of the demon blood and all the little details of the bunker and the BMOL HQ. The lore was spot on. Perfect story.

you beautifull wonderfull person you! learning and KNOWING what your doing and WORKING WITH IT AND props for USING Amara and her charterization on everything.
to your CREDIT.
and SAM YES KNWOING intimately how small you are and how any things can mess with you so to trust in anything to trust in your ability to NTO be subverted by something even your own wishes... sheesh.

and honest conversations when assuming not talking to you!

loving it really.

Poor Sam - still thinking his brother is gone.

"The bunkers too big anyway. But some rooms will be emptier than others" - so poignant.

"What mattered was who believed in him" - that's awesome.

"Pretending emptiness was happiness" - yeah.

Love it! Thanks for the new chapters! This is so great. Poor Sam! Excited for the rest of it :)

Sammy (so many emotions)

Plz write more

Awesome story!

love the stuff! and them working after the fact to heal him up with the goodies... wonderfull stuff really.
the demon CURE that's a wonderfull idea/ I always do appreciate that when Supernatural works stuff in with previous stuff work with the rules they have made BY themselves...
good stuff really.

Please update soon! :)