Yah, that's what I am talking about... feels.

Wonderful job!

Oh, man ... this was just so amazing, a heart-wrenching, heartfelt narration.

It starts out so rough, Lucifer's cruel taunts to Castiel while torturing him to death ... and that was only the beginning of the emotional deluge. The feelings poor Cas is reeling from hurt, hurt me viscerally, that he's that hopeless, that convinced of his uselessness, that tired. He just wants it over, still isn't convinced the resurrections aren't punishment because punishment for his screw-ups seem to be the only thing he thinks he does deserve (and that right there is just so horribly sad). But Dean, Sam, and Chuck work to help him put the pieces together. I love how at the end Cas knows it's going to be hard, but he thinks he's ready to face it, that he wants to, wants to live again. Finally.

I love Bobby here, how he shrewdly sees "between the lines" as he talks with Cas, subtly engages his mind in chess and especially how he rushes to defend Cas before Chuck sends him back to his personal heaven and how he tells Cas to take care of himself, to stop sacrificing himself for the Winchesters.

Dean figuring out he's partially responsible for Cas being in this state (and this works for Sam too, through Dean's POV) and how he's going to change it. I especially loved him telling Cas that he's wanted, that when he died, Dean lost a brother-something I dearly wish the damn series would show!

Cas's thought was spot-on when he realized he would do whatever Dean asked of him, even come back, though he just didn't want to ... but Dean had asked it, his brother had asked, so he did. Thankfully, by the end, this was finally something he wanted as well.

I really love how you had Chuck actually interact with Castiel, instead of only being concerned with Lucifer as the series depicted; actually taking the time to talk to this broken angel, to care enough to send him away so he would be safe for the battle against Amara while all along intending to bring him back again, because Dean and Sam needed him-not to do anything, but because he's family, he's loved. For a series where the tagline is practically "family don't end in blood", they sure are woefully lacking in it when it comes to the Winchesters and their angel, who is supposed to be their brother for crying out loud. Okay ... sorry, ranting again!

Once again you have delivered a brilliantly rendered coda for an episode that desperately needed it and tendered it with such grace and skill. Kudos! Thank you so much for sharing it!

Another amazing story! I really wish this would've been how it happened. I feel like everyone forgot that Cas still existed in the last couple of episodes. Cant wait to read more of your stories!
(P.S. I love how you write Chuck)

Oh, and Bobby was left behind again... every time he would talk with Sam and Dean after he died, and would make mention of coming back, it broke my heart. Because he always expected the boys to find a way to bring him back, and then to see them and find out they had no intention of bringing him back... its horrible. So, when God comes to say that CAS will be sent back, but BOBBY goes back to his personal Heaven was gut wrenching. But, well done!

Aini NuFire! It's me! Guest again from Hellhound games. I'm 16 pages deep in the angst tag and I stumbled upon this and read it. I really enjoyed it very much so I looked at who wrote it and, alas! It was my good friend Aini NuFire! Really great job. You really do have a talent for writing-especially for writing our lively spn. Keep it up! I'll keep a weathered eye out for your name ;)

This is so perfect I'm in tears (of happiness)

Managed to make me cry... Didn't need that, really, but if it's not a beautiful story, you don't cry, right? Very beautiful story, well done!

Beautiful story

Yeah I had similar feelings for 11x21. I really miss Cas in the show :( and now that Lucifer seems to be on the team, I'm not sure what to expect for Cas in the next two episodes. Whatever happens, there's no way there will be enough time for a proper emotional wrap up for Cas...

I loved this one shot though :) ! First off, SO great to see Bobby again, and to see him being protective of our wayward angel. Then Chuck going all 'okay, if you're sure... *drops Cas in front of the boys* ha ha ha! That was such a parental thing to do, and I just loved it so much. And oh, the boys... I'm glad they talked Cas into coming back.

I really hope the show leaves S11 in a neutral enough state (probably not) so that you do get the chance to explore a longer fic on this topic (and if not... retcon it! ;) ). I could see something along the lines of Cas not getting to really choose to come back, and the boys having to deal with the aftermath of his depression, self deprecation, and self destructive state of mind.

In the meantime though, these one shots are keeping me going while we wait for the show to give us our angel back. It's funny, but as of early S11, I'm in this state now where I enjoy your fics much more than the show, and the new episodes feel more like the supplimental content between chapter posts than visa versa. So I guess what I'm saying is, keep feeding that fire, because it's what I'm in this fandom for :) and I'm greatly enjoying it, even when the show gets frustrating.

I agree. If we don't get some Cas here soon I'll be highly upset. Especially with only two episodes left! Awesome fic, as usual. How dare you make me shed tears!

The custom made vessel line killed me. As did the rest of the fic, it was sooo good. And please, DO write the other one shot you said you would if the next episode's gonna suck, just write it regardless of the episode. More of this and worse? BRING IT ON, I have prepared my blanket.

Last episode was so disatisfying because of how much they ignored cas.
In complete contrast, I love this fic so much and in particular I love the way you write bobby :) thank you. This is everything I could possibly want from the conclusion of this story line.
...Can you please just write the show?

So... emotional... I'm glad I wasn't the only one to wonder why NO ONE but Amara even mentioned Cas. I know Sam was in a hurry because Dean couldn't distract her forever, but he didn't even TRY to tell Cas that they were there, and to hold on. :( Next week had better make up for that in a big way.

But this... This. THIS. Oh my gosh, just when I thought you couldn't make it hurt any deeper... and yet somehow you ALWAYS manage to fix everything, in full, and so succinctly and sweetly. I think my favorite parts were Chuck saying that Cas's vessel was custom made (Don't know why, there's just something so beautiful about that), and when he tells them this was always meant to be the story... seriously, gave me chills, I had to keep re-reading it because I loved it so much.

I've said it before, but you have the best (and possibly scariest!) knack for not only crafting a story, but using it to spin our emotions every which way! I really thought once Chuck had said he'll bring Cas back that the H part of the H/C was over... and then you just H it all the more! :( When Cas asked to NOT be brought back, I thought my heart would break! Pretty sure I heard something snap.

But anyway, you DID fix everything, you skillful writer, you, and it was marvelous. I don't think the show can match such a satisfying resolution. Thank you for sharing this!

It was heartbreaking! Rivers of tears throughout the reading. Thank you very much! Thank you for Bobby! I really think that Cas needs him very much. With that bus he hit the jackpot. He always needs only a few details and look at the man to know where the problem is. And good job with the white punishment heaven.
On the stories you can rely on.
I didn't see a few episodes, because I want them watch later at same time, but I'm still in the picture with gifs, spoilers and videos. And for the last episode I had sooooo hope! When I see the promo picture and video i was thinking great they find way to bring Cas back! But how much I was wrong!
It makes me ill how they treat Cas. Just one sentence, or not even that. How glad I was that Chuck finally shows in his role as God. Since the s5 I can not imagine anything other than God and Castiel in the same room without any lies. Finally confrontation between father and son. And maybe a nice slap in the face for Daddy. But no, there must be Lucifer and steal this moment.
I like him but it's been a long time and I miss Castiel. And nobody refuted to me that this scene was for Castiel's!
What I thought would happen. Castiel might get back in the last episode or the next episode or in last 5 minutes in finale! But what is certain is that I probably will not like it. I better had any hope.