I hope Terrel makes it out to make sigils again. Did I spell that right?

I could have sworn there were demons on him too? Is that a different story? Maybe later in this story. Well, I still love it!

First of all your story is very good. Written well (maybe too well). And I'm glad some people gain motivation and confort thanks to the message you convey in this story. But damn, personaly, it was so hard to read. You describe too well, the fact that you feel agressor's contact months after. My last point is, it would have take years to Cas to recover, not months. It's not a critic I know it would not be possible to make the story being on this amount of time.. Thank you for this story

I did not think that I could hate Zacharyan even more. but now I'm glad Dean killed him.

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Wow! That was probably one of the best things I've ever read, fanfic or not. You didn't keep repeating yourself and you still kept everything the Winchesters and Castiel stood for and their personality. The best tortured Cas and the best supportive and protective Winchesters. I love how you didn't "dilly dally" (used for lack of a better word) when Cas was healing but you also didn't rush. AMAZING!

This story is so great in a multitude of ways. Cas and Beanie Weenies, need I say more? And the handling of Cas’s trauma is done really well with just the right amount of sensitivity. Violations like that are all about power, and you are showing that really well.

Amazing story and thank you for sharing.

Thank goodness. Because like Sam had said it's more easy to have watch them hit Cas physically than this . Disturbing really.

Zachariah is not evil just purely cruel.

This is the modt underrated fic ever. This is my fith time reading it and everytime it amazes me! The thoughts and themes are perfect, the characters are just like the show, and its enticing and I just cant put it down. Great work!

Oh, my goodness ... this was a phenomenal story handled with your typical grace and talent, taking such a dark theme and still offering hope ... just beautiful.

I have to admit there's been only one other fictional character I've ever hated as much as I HATE your version of Zachariah (and that's Samyaza from LadyWallace's "Katabasis." Which I find rather interesting in that I've read thousands of books and stories over the long years and it took fan fiction to make me loathe an antagonist the way I loathe those two. Coincidently, perhaps, both stories feature Castiel psychologically tortured by said antagonists; apparently, somewhere along the way, that blue-eyed angel has somehow become one of my most favorite characters of all time!). I can't even read another story featuring Zachariah-no matter how small the part or how ineffectual he is or how true to canon-without seeing red and wanting to tear him apart limb from limb because I always think of him in terms of this story. And is it any wonder? It doesn't matter that what he did wasn't sexual in nature or gave him sexual gratification, the fact is it was still molestation at best, but truly it was rape in another form: for the act was still and always about domination, about total control, about violation, about exerting control over another individual, forcing them to submit, debasing them, humiliating them, which obviously gave Zach perverse pleasure. The only thing he was trying to accomplish was breaking Castiel; it wasn't about re-education or even punishment, not really, it was about bending someone to his will while destroying him in the process. (Cruel, sadistic sonofabitching asshat.) I absolutely LOVED how Josiah and especially Zachariah were killed, fitting punishments for what they had done; my only regret is that Domiel got off way too easy. And I especially loved it was Castiel who killed Zach, showing that sonofabitch he was not broken, that he would not be cowed. (Chew on that all the way to hell, you sonofabitching asshat! Sorry ... I really, really hate him.)

Mood, pacing, description, action, and characterization, obviously, were absolutely perfect. Terriel wasn't just a means to explain your "head canon" regarding wings, but a fully believable, sympathetic character. You're adept at writing all three of the boys and make the Winchesters better than they are portrayed in the series: I love how they put Castiel first, how they so badly just want to help him, both trying in their different ways. And Bobby, too, inviting Cas to stay permanently and recommending hunting to remind Cas that he's a badass angel of the Lord. I loved short-tempered Dean responding by *thinking* first before responding when conflicting with our poor Cas, equally short-tempered after what Zach had done to him-twice-just trying to help his friend. And Sam, especially how he was with Cas during the second attack, trying to get Cas focused on him, refusing to look away, no matter how horrifying it was for him to watch, because he refused for a single moment to let Cas think that he, Sam, was ashamed of the angel. I loved that Cas just didn't bounce back, that it was all hunky-dory even after he killed Zach because realistically it wouldn't be. You just didn't gloss things over, showing him fully healed after everything, because he wouldn't be, he would still be traumatized. So kudos on that.

I loved the retribution against Zach and his dickhead goons, the promise the Winchesters made to kill them all for what they did to Castiel.

With the roiling emotions and dark themes, the sprinkling of humor throughout the story were a welcome respite, whether it was the way you phrased something or a funny incident. Off the top of my head, my favorites were Cas smiting the holy hell out of the demons, angel smiting pretty much absolute, all the portions with Dean's hand (from both Dean and Terriel's POV), and of course Cas *smiting* the can of Beanie Weenies! omg!

This was just an all around amazingly written, powerfully felt story. You are such a fantastic writer, and this piece definitely highlights that. Thank you so much for sharing this!

Oh, this was wonderfully horrific, if I may be allowed to use such a description. My heart shattered so many times in the course of these fifteen chapters. I had no idea that I could hate Zachariah any more than I already did...but I do now. I know I've said this before, but you write so well! There are so many Supernatural fictions out there but yours are truly something special. I don't read as much as I consume and I don't know if you can tell, but I've kinda been devouring your fics lol I love how you keep the characters canon and your OC's are so well done that I forget that they AREN'T canon. Bravo!

Oh, no! Cas! How could someone do that to him? :( Normally I disapprove of the F-word in almost any circumstances in fanfiction, but right now I'm just so darn freaking tempted to repeat what Dean said about Zachariah. It's just so wrong to humiliate like that, especially your own BROTHER Zachariah.

Man, I'm glad real angels don't act this way. Sheesh. If you watched Supernatural, you'd think Catholicism was some demon cult full of, erhem, jackasses. *sigh* I wish they (the show-writers) had more respect for it. Somehow, I just doubt you'd find them dissing Islam or the like as they do Christianity.

Well, I'm not going to politicize this comment. I know this fanfiction is already complete and all, but I just wanted to drop by and say I sympathize with Cas and the boys so much. And you are a really great writer!

Cheers,

PENNY REDFERN

oh I like Cas whump but woah this is wow in a way that tugs at my heart