Tugs at my heart strings. Beautifully written!

As heartbreaking and beautifully written as ever! Thanks for continuing this :)

God, your stories are always so emotionally tormenting. But I mean that in the best way. Seriously, you are one of the best fanfiction authors out there. This was beautiful. Almost had me in tears by the end.

I remember watching the episode, it was rough.
Just like reading this, not the writing itself, but the feels it invoked.
Thanks for another great chapter :D

Dean's melancholy and grief about Sam like this, and trying to get through to him about Ruby... ughhh. I really like how you did it. Very emotive on Dean's viewpoint.

is this going to be a multi chapter? 'cause I want it to be :)

Such a nice, happy beginning to this for the guys and then whammo... ... by the end you have me practically in tears!

I so love these tags that you do!

:)

*sobs* Omg. They were so happy and smexy at the beginning of this! God, that just makes it SOOOOO much more painful. Although, hearing Sammy say my name (in my head) gave me more than a few goosebumps. I wanna know what kind of monster murdered me! Lol

Man, this was absolutely heartbreaking. I've ALWAYS wanted to cry whenever I watch Sam just waltz into that panic room, absolutely NO suspicious thoughts, no wariness, no caution. Complete trust. And then they tell him HE'S the demon problem. Guh. Right through the heart. And Dean having to leave him down there. I could just FEEL his pain. And I have to mention the hands comment. All of this crap is going on, the world is falling apart around them, and Dean is worried about his little Sammy's hands. That thought honestly had me almost tearing up. And how Dean is blaming himself and feeling like John wouldn't even want Dean to be his son after this. Omg.

Now, we all know, and we've all known for YEARS that Sam was drinking demon blood. But reading this and Dean thinking about it, it was like I was hearing it for the first time. The implications and the enormity of what a problem that is. Sam was fed demon blood as an infant and he's horrified that he has demon blood running through his veins that he can't ever scrub out and yet, he just goes and adds more on purpose. What Dean must have felt. I mean, can you imagine the horror Dean must have felt? The disbelief?! Well, now I do because of your descriptive writing. I know I've thought about all of this many times before but you writing it out, laying all of Dean's thoughts out, it just made it all more real. This was a particularly painful but OH SO GOOD read.

Let's talk about Bobby for a moment, shall we? THANK YOU. *drops to my knees before you* Thank you soooo much for this conversation. Bobby knew. He KNEW how bad it was for Sam. He's TRYING to make Dean see it but again, you still had Dean be slightly oblivious to the sheer and utter pain and, well, Hell, if we're being honest, that Sam also went through while Dean was in Hell. And Dean was definitely too stressed out and screwed up from his time down under to really look at it, but yeah, he just doesn't completely get it. Which I will probably NEVER forgive the show for. If Dean took a minute to think about how he reacted when Sam died, and he wasn't even IN Hell then for all we know, just dead, then you would think Dean would have had some sympathy. Not guilt, because we all know he has enough of that for a hundred lifetimes, but sympathy or understanding of Sam and his grief. And there in lies one of the biggest problems. He thinks Sam was merely "Sad." Omg. Brilliant line, by the way. He just doesn't think he's worth anything more than a sad week or two. It's not just that he doesn't understand how tortuous it was for Sam to lose him, he doesn't think he was worth that kind of grief so he really doesn't get it. Boys. *shakes head at them* And I LOVE the comparison of Bobby losing his wife. We all KNOW Bobby grieved his wife and dammit, I just wish his words would get through to Dean.

But this whole thing, Sam doing what he did, Dean having to lock him up, the pain, the angst, the lies, the anger and disappointment...it's all compounded a hundred times over when I think about everything those two are to each other. They're EVERYTHING to each other. Sam was screaming for Dean and Dean was hopeless and soooo soooo sad "What am I supposed to do?" (nice throwback to AHBL, by the way) and all I could think about is how much they love each other, how happy they were in the shower, how their hands and mouths should only be used for loving, gentle touches and normal brotherly banter or caring words, never for all this fighting and worry and anger. This absolutely broke my heart. But I loved every single word.

Also, you're firmly at 55%. :) Just wanted to let you know. Thank you for this. Thank you soooo much for this. *hugs*