Her feet bounced on the ground. She hadn't been this nervous since her first day of her intern year. It has been almost eight years since she seen him. Almost eight years since he didn't choose her. She stared down at the white tiled floor. This is a normal interview, she tried to convince herself, just like your last two. Just like the other ones. Her mind was all over the place. God how she had missed him.

He was the love of her life. He was her best friend. He was practically her everything, before he chose to leave her like second day left overs. She tired so hard to get over him. Hell, she even had gotten engaged, but she couldn't shake him. Some how she had managed to postpone the marriage as long as she could. She just had to see him. She had to get rid of the last bit of hope she had. She wanted to believe that he and Addison just didn't work out. That this whole time he just didn't wanna seem like a fool, that he never stopped loving her.

She knew that was all in her head. She knew he was probably happily married, with two precious children, and a thriving practice. While she was clinging to the few memories they had together. She knew he had moved on, but she had to prove it to herself. Even if she got this fellowship, she probably wouldn't accept it. She couldn't be that close to him seeing him happy. Happy without her. Something she never truly felt without him. Even though Finn was an amazing guy, he wasn't Derek. Yes he had plans. Yes he loved her. But he wasn't Derek. That was all there is too it.

She played with the ring that wrapped around her ring finger. It was Finns grandmothers. He was an amazing guy. He had given her everything she needed. He could provide, he had a steady practice, he was kind hearted. He was what every girl could ask for. But the feelings she had for Finn couldn't even hold a candle to the memories of the passion filled love she had with Derek. After this though, her and Finn would be fine. They would marry, and she would try with all her heart to forget Derek.

Her hand ran nervously though her hair. What if Addison was in there? No, she couldn't be. She tried not to scare herself out of the interview. This was going to be fine. This was going to be fine. She took a deep breath and stopped her legs from shaking. It will be fine, she tried to convince herself, it's gonna be fine.

"Dr. Grey," a familiar voice called her name. "Please make your way down to Dr. Shepherds office." A young nurse in front of the doorway ushered her down the hall to another row of chairs. "He'll call you in when he's ready." She smiled as she started to walk off. She bid me "Good luck!" As she rounded the corner and disappear from sight. It was happening. She was going to face her worst nightmare. She took a deep breath, this was going to be fine, she said to herself, you will be fine.

"Mer." The voice she had been longing to hear for the past eight years, rang though the air.

"Derek." She responded breathlessly. She hadn't even caught one glance and she was already stealing her heart away. She arose from the blue plastic chairs that lined the hall, her heart felt as if it was going to beat right out if her chest.

"Come in, please." He smiled as he waved her in, he hold the door with his body. He was in a light blue dress shirt, with slate gray pants and a matching tie. His hair was combed just like it used to, but now small tuff of gray lined his sideburns. He was just as perfect as she remembered. "It's been a while, how have you been?"He asked politely.

"I'm doing fine." She attempted to answer with a cheerful voice, as she stepped in to his office. He looked down at her ring finger and noticed the large rock that laid upon her tiny finger.

"I'm glad to see you found someone." He brought her hand up, as to examine it closer. "When are you get married?" His voice dropped with the question.

She opened her mouth to spill out the mess truth that was her life. But a small little voice in the back of her head quickly took over. "Oh, I'm not." She lied. "I called it off." She said as she slid down into the chair that was across from his, he did likewise. "How are you and Addison?" She asked, hoping that he would give her reasonable doubt as to why he never called.

"We ended things." He briefly stated. "Then I met a nurse. We were engaged recently, but as the date approached, I couldn't go though with it." She gave a him a questionable stare.

"I don't want to get personal, if you don't want to answer you don't have too, but why did you call it off?" She looked him right in his sky blue orbs.

"I was still in love with someone else." He said breaking their stare.

"Why did you never go back to the person you loved?" She shot back fast.

"She needed time to experience life."

"Maybe she didn't. Maybe she just needed you. Maybe she had missed you since the moment you left. You never know unless you ask her." She said, never taking her eyes off him.

The room went silent, this was turning out to be the worst interview she had ever had. She quickly looked around his office when she noticed a picture. It was of them. Her blond hair framed her face, his hands were around her waist. His head rested on hers as she snuggles herself closer and closer to him. Her heart had a slight pinch. He still loved her.

"I missed you." He spoke softly, breaking the silence.

"You could have called." He looked down at his hands, they were knotted in his lap.

"You could have too." He said, trying to push the blame on someone else.

"I did. You never answered." You could hear his swallow, as he thought of what to say next. This was not exactly what he imagined as their first meeting since he left. Yet, he knew even if they had met again on a bed of roses, those question would had eventually came up. And just like now, they would have ruined the moment.

"Mer." He started, though he didn't know what he was trying to say.

"Dr. Shepard, how about we just get though this interview." She asked, she just needed to get out of there. She needed to get away from him and all of these feelings. She needed to get away and go back to home, where she didn't have to feel anything.

"Mer, I can't." He stated finely looking her right in her eyes. "I know you are qualified, but I can't have you working for me. There is a strict no dating policy here. I couldn't resist it if you were here. So I can't conduct this interview." His hands remained knotted up on the desk.

"Derek, I want to study under you. You are one of the premier Neurosurgeons in the world. I don't care how you feel about his policy. Give me a damn shot!" She spoke with a vicious tone. She did care. She cared a lot. But this was one of the biggest opportunities, though she didn't want to admit it to herself, this was a pretty big job opportunity.

He was a bit shocked at her cut throat demeanor. She was getting in touch with her Grey side. "No. Go out with me." He said with a cocky grin.

"Teach me and I'll think about." She shot back her response.

"Well unless you plan on breaking rules, that's a no."

"Then no date." She arose from the chair and slid out from the space between the desk and the chair.

"Wait, what hotel are you at?" He shouted after her as she headed to the door.

"I do have a house down here, you know?" She started down the hall, I till he had her by the wrist. He spun her around and planted a kiss right on her. A shock jolted though her body. This is what she wanted for eight years. This is what Finn always failed at. His hands laced around her face as his lips moved with hers. A small shock sent through out her body. This was the moment she had been waiting on for eight years. It couldn't have been better.

"I've missed you." He spoke against her lips, then he went for another kiss. The same feeling ran up both if them. Memories of love flooded both of them, till she interpreted.

"1657 Jaxson street. Be there by seven." Fighting all of her urges, she pulled away and walked off.

He still loved her. Just like she had always imagined. He still loved her. She walked out of the hospital and into the Boston air. She looked around.

For the first time in eight years she was happy.

A/N HEY YALL IM BACK. IM GOIN THOUGH AND CLEANING EVERYTHING UP AND ILL SOON BE BACK TO WRTING THIS STORY. DONT EXPECT ANYTHING MAJOR TO CHANGE JUST SOME REGULAR CLEAN UP THAT I NEVER DID BEFORE.