sorry this chapter is kind of short, i just wanted to get something to you guys about Dean and Cas getting to know each other for the first time, and a little bit of sadness, reviews are welcome!

It happened when Dean had started to hope again; he hoped that maybe this disease would go away on its own, but Dean had never been much of a lucky person. He was watching TV in their small living area and he was just about to ask Castiel what he wanted to watch, but the words got stuck in his throat.

Dean turned around and saw Cas staring out to empty space, "Babe?" he got up and walked over to him, "You alright?"

When Dean laid his hand on Cas's arm he jumped and turned frightened eyes on the other man, "Please don't ever let me go back there."

Dean didn't have to guess that Cas had been remembering things from his relationship with Lucifer, "You're never going to leave me baby." Dean wrapped in a hug so tight he was scared he might hurt Cas, but Castiel returned all strength to it. When they pulled away Dean saw that Cas's nose was bleeding.

Cas started crying and together they sat down on the couch and Dean wiped away his tears and tilted Cas's head back to help stop the bleeding. "The doctor said to call if you ever had a nose bleed with one of these attacks."

Cas bent his head down, ignoring Dean's protest to keep his head up, he curled into Dean's side. "Not right now," His voice came out muffled and broken from the tears and the fact that he practically had his face pressed into Dean's chest. "Dean there's a reason I repressed those memories."

Dean stroked Cas's back, "I know baby, I know."

"You know how I've been wondering where that scar on my back came from?" Dean didn't have to hear the next part to know who had given him that scar. He felt all his anger rise to the surface and he had to fight to hold it down and let Cas stay calm. "He said he should carve out my wings since I wasn't his angel anymore."

Cas fell asleep against Dean's chest not long after that, and Dean called his doctor and told him about the episode. When Cas woke up he was happy and bubbly and instantly Dean thought of the worst. Not another episode, not this soon, let me have him. Oh God just let me just have him.

"Dean let's go out to the movies." Cas seemed fine, perfect even, but still Dean remained wary. "I know with my medication money's tight, but just one movie."

The tension in Dean's shoulders relaxed and he moved beside Cas and looped his arm around his waist, "What do you want to see baby?"

Dean sat down at the back of the theater with a drink in each hand, "This better not be a chick flick." He warned. Cas laughed and sat down next to him, moving the arm rest so he could slide up next to Dean and place his head on Dean's shoulder.

"I heard it was good Dean, let's give it a chance."

But even as the title credits were playing Dean's eyes weren't on the screen, they were locked on Cas's face. He was staring intently at the screen with such rapt attention that Dean felt free to stare at his boyfriend. Something he hasn't done in awhile. Cas did look healthy. There was color in his cheeks and he might have gained some of his weight back. Dean looked at other things too. He looked at Cas's bed head and his bright blue eyes. It was his eyes that had drawn Dean to him to start with.

It was a month before the party, and Cas had been moved in for about two months now. They were friendly enough, neighborly even, but one night Cas had just gotten home as Dean was pulling up into his and Lisa's driveway. Cas was caring maybe ten groceries bags and struggling to open his front door. Dean was next to him before he even thought what to do. Then there was an awkward exchange where Cas handed him his keys and Dean swung open the front door and helped Cas put his groceries away. Then they were just standing in Cas's kitchen looking at anything but each other, "Thank you for the help Dean." Cas stuck out his hand and Dean looked up into the man's eyes and instantly something shifted in him.

"No problem," Dean shook his hand, "that's what neighbors are for after all."

Dean stayed for an hour or two after that, he found out that Cas was an accountant. And He didn't roll his eyes when he found out that Dean was a mechanic. "I don't even have a car, I just ride my bike around town."

Eventually Dean had to leave and when he got home and sat down to eat dinner with Lisa he felt like something was different.