Castiel Milton stared at the email for a long minute before leaning back into the soft leather chair with a resigned sigh. The upholstery creaked underneath his weight and he pulled out the crumpled packet of cigarettes needing his morning hit. The up to date, stylish, and dislikeable laptop hummed on the desk and he scowled deeply lighting the cigarette and inhaling deeply. The relief tore in his chest and he exhaled watching the soft grey smoke curl up into the air and disappear. His eyes eventually went back to the email and he pulled it towards him with a sniff looking over the email from his beloved but younger sister, Anna. He skimmed the delightful but boring tales of her adventures in Australia and focused on the part where he knew his mother was going to have a heart attack and the rest of the family would groan and internally disgrace her but plaster fake smiles on their faces.

…I've met a guy along the way, a really, really, great guy and we got married. I know you're freaking out but I'll be home with him in a few days and you'll see why I married him. You're going to love him!

Castiel clucked his tongue into his cheek with a shake of his head. Anna was always the one to be adventurous and act on pure impulse without thinking of the consequences. She finished college and the first thing she decided was to take an all around the world tour leaving their mother to practically down a bottle of her tablets. He inhaled the cigarette and turned slowly like a criminal in a horror or action film to see his elder brother, Gabriel, leaning against the door frame with a cocked eyebrow.

"What's going on?" he murmured stepping in and pushing the chair out of the way as he read the email.

"Holy…shit" he breathed stepping back and looking at Castiel who breathed out the grey smoke at Gabriel who stole it out of his mouth and took a drag. Castiel scowled at him snatching it back and kicking back in the chair.

"She was always foolish and there's not even a name for our new brother in law" Gabriel murmured looking over it and stood up rubbing his forehead.

"He is not our brother and he'll be gone before the year is out" Castiel replied with a snort slamming the laptop lid down and finishing off the last of his cigarette. He glanced up at Gabriel noticing the bags underneath his eyes and the lack of sleep, the smell of booze, old cigarettes and a hint of sex.

"Good night in the office?" he murmured taking the last drag of his cigarette and stubbing it out. "You smell like sex"

"It's not an easy job running a chocolate factory and I need my fixes" he said with a chuckle. "My personal assistant has a rather good tongue"

Castiel chuckled softly pushing up and walking over to the window to see the sun rising slowly in the morning sky. It was a mid spring morning still clinging to the chill of winter in North Dakota and he loved it. His eyes strayed down to the big back garden even fit with a swimming pool covered with a thin plastic sheet to protect it. Castiel would never deny that his family was well off as they would say. It was an absent father forever away on business trips bringing in the money with a doting, ever faithful wife turning a blind eye to everything he did. The house was luxurious with six bedrooms, five bathrooms, office, and a kosher kitchen with the fitted appliances, spacious living area, garage, and a personal apartment. It was a large space for one family and with Anna away it left Castiel, twenty seven years old, Gabriel, thirty one, Michael, thirty five, his mother, Kendal, and baby sister, Rachel, four years old to live in a large house suited for more.

More than enough times it had been widely spoken about by their friends and family alike about how they still all lived together and how they had not yet moved out. It was made out to be odd and not right but in all honesty Castiel couldn't care less. With Anna away she needed a home to return to and didn't want her own space, she wanted to return to family. Gabriel had moved out on more than one occasion but always returned when he lost the flat or apartment from refusing to pay the bills and came trailing back with his tail between his legs. Castiel simply didn't want to leave the house he had grown so accustomed to and would rather deal with bothersome brothers and sisters then a lonely, empty, apartment. Michael was in the same situation as Anna constantly travelling around like their father and returning for a few weeks only to take off again. There was no point in buying their own place.

Kendal was more than delighted to house them if they paid their way and paid for their own food which she would happily cook. It warmed her to have her children all around her most of the time and the thought of sitting in an empty house scared her and her dependency flared up in a wild panic. She was a mother and her duties had changed her.

"Gabe!" a high pitched screech came from the corridor and they turned to see Rachel running in, in her pale pink pyjamas and gold fluff of her hair sticking up. "Where is he?!"

"Where is who?" he said pleasantly folding his arms over.

"My doll" she fumed stepping in and hitting him hard on the stomach. Gabriel grunted grabbing her wrists and laughed dodging her weak attempts.

"He's taking a bath…in the toilet" he said with a grin.

Rachel gasped horrified shaking her head and looked over to Castiel watching them amused.

"Mom!" she screamed tugging away and running out.

"I was just kidding!" he shouted after her and sighed glancing over to Castiel. "I wonder if we were that annoying when we were younger."

"You shouldn't tease her, where is he really?"

"In the cabinet in the bathroom and it'll a lesson not to go in my room and root through my drawers!"

Castiel rolled his eyes moving out of the office and heading down the stairs hearing weak sobs coming from the kitchen were Kendal was attempting to soothe her sobbing daughter.

"Rachel" he called and waited patiently for her to run out and hurtle towards him hugging him around the middle.

"I hate him" she mumbled into his shirt. "I hate him, I hate him, I hate him, I hate him"

"No you don't and let me tell you a little secret" he said dropping down to his knees and looking into her watery eyes. "Marko is currently in a cabinet"

"The bathroom?" she breathed looking at the stairs and back to him.

"Yes" he murmured watching her grin and run away up the stairs. Castiel turned to look at the doorway to see his mother watching with a poker expression but a fond amusement lighting up her eyes.

"What?"

"Nothing, do you want a coffee?"

"Please, I have also got some news" he said stepping into the kitchen and perching on the stool. "It may not be the best news in the world but Anna is very subtle on her own personal news. She'd rather go into detail about the mating process of koala bears then her own marriage"

Kendal who was holding up two cups turned quickly dropping them till they fell on the floor with a smash.

"What? What did you say?"

"Anna emailed me, well us, and decided to inform me of mating processes, hot weather, and the marriage to a certain man plus she is returning in a few days with said man"

"Show me this email" she whispered.

Twenty minutes later he was stood with his mother as she read over the email and covered her mouth with a shaky exhale.

"How could she do this?" she whispered. "How could she marry without her family there?"

"What? Mom, I think you're missing the main detail here"

Kendal glanced up at him and nodded in agreement. "I agree the marriage is a little…sudden but I always…I always dreamed of planning Anna's wedding with her when she finally settled down and look what she's done"

"It won't last, this is Anna we're talking about" he said pulling out another cigarette and lit it inhaling deeply. Kendal tutted standing up and taking it of his lips annoyed.

"I told you to quit this, Castiel, it's bad for you"

"I know you did but you know I never listen" he said with a small smile taking it back from her. Kendal sighed deeply closing her eyes and looked back to the email.

"First Michael and now this" she said softly.

"Michael?"

"He's met a woman, her name is Lilith and even the name gives me bad vibes"

"Michael is one for choosing the wrong woman" he said with a chuckle sucking the end deeply and feeling especially glad that he was gay. His last experience with a woman was with a lady called Daphne and it ended very badly. It put him off woman for life and he was glad with the life changing decision. Men were some of the time uncomplicated.

"I wish he was home, I hate him being out there in France of all places" she said with an eye roll and placed one hand pushing the lid down. "I suppose I better prepare for the return of a wayward daughter and her husband, apparently"

Castiel smiled amused at her expression as she walked out of the office. He dimly heard the shuffle of Rachel in her room and footsteps running out to see that she was ready for school.

"Have a nice day" he called to her and gave her a wink as she grinned at him. She left in a hurry when Kendal shouted up the stairs for her to hurry up. Gabriel would leave for work in a few minutes as well leaving Castiel alone in the house. While Michael worked for their father's company, Gabriel with his own, their mom who stuck at home in the personal apartment writing her books because she was an author, it left Castiel to be independent. Castiel was a chef in a restaurant called Lovett's. It was good money; the company was good and the staff friendly when they wanted to be. His love for food and cooking drove him into this career despite the disapproval from his father wanting him to be in the family company but that life was not for him.

Castiel stepped out into the cold inhaling the cold air and hummed with a small smile smelling spring. It sent a lovely thrill running through him and he took the last drag flicking it away and spiralling to the floor.

His phone buzzed against his thigh and he sucked the tender skin in his lip gently knowing exactly who it would be.

"Hello" he said softly when answering.

"Cassy, it's so good to hear your voice"

"Why are you calling, Balthazar?"

"I didn't disturb you from your beauty sleep, did I? Not that you need it, you and I both know you're gorgeous" he said with a small chuckle.

"That's a bad chat up line"

"It's worked before…I want to see you before I leave for Denmark"

"Denmark?"

"Client of mine has gone AWOL and I need to find him sooner rather than later and well…I'm dying to see you again one last time" he said with a small smirk. "Is anyone in?"

"Yes, Gabriel won't be leaving just yet and my mom will be returning after grocery shopping"

"Come to the apartment"

Castiel inhaled deeply looking up at the morning sun and ran a hand over the days old stubble he liked to keep.

"Give me one good reason"

"One good reason"

"Yes"

"Come here and I'll give it to you" he murmured softly. "I'll see you in half an hour"

The phone connection leaving Castiel to sigh deeply, white puffs trailing up and disappearing into the morning air, and he thought back to last year when he met him. Castiel had been in work when a waiter came in asking for him so a customer could compliment him on the meal. It had both scared and thrilled Castiel to walk out and come to the table were Balthazar Grace and a woman with jet black hair curled and piled softly on top of her head waited.

"Balthazar Grace" he said introducing himself.

"Castiel Milton, the head chef"

"Compliments to the head chef that was a marvellous meal" he said in a soft British accent looking up at him.

"Thank you very much" he said with a nod and a small smile not ignoring the way his eyes travelled up and down his body slowly.

"I'll be coming here again…but not just for the food" he said in a low voice.

"We welcome everyone" he said with a nod before returning to the kitchen.

Castiel entered the kitchen and looked to one of his close friends and cooks, Jo Harvelle, who leaned on the counter raising a slim eyebrow at him.

"Customer wanted to thank me for the meal cooked"

"Oh dear, is your ego going to explode"

"Shut up" he said flicking a piece of cheese at her. "It was a nice boost"

"Was it a he or a she?"

"He, his name was Balthazar Grace, a British man I think with a lady friend I think was his sister by the way she looked at him".

Jo smirked straightening up and grabbing her knife to start chopping. "Was he good looking?"

"No"

"Liar, he was and I can see it in those pretty blue eyes" she said pointing the knife at him with a small wicked smile. "I bet you $10 that he'll be in your bed or you will be his by the time the week is out"

He did owe $10 to Jo after the week was out but it was only due to the fact that Balthazar did return every night ordering the same and asked him to come out every night to thank him and talk to him. Castiel learnt that the woman on the first evening was a close friend and that was all she was to him, he learnt that he was in town for work reasons what with him being a trade's man.

Castiel wouldn't deny that he felt a strong attraction for the strange man who had barged quite suddenly into his life without question. It was Friday when he called for him again and he dropped in the chair with a shake of his head.

"Are you not bored of this?"

"No, god no, I enjoy your food and the company" he murmured and handed over a slip of card for him. "I want to take you out"

"Oh do you?"

"Oh yes"

"Fine" Castiel said softly not knowing then what he was signing up for but agreed to do it anyway. It escalated from there when the date ended that Saturday and he returned to his place. The sex was good, too good, and it drove them forward wanting more. It took two months of dating to become official with each other and it was so easy. It was honeymoon bliss of sex, sex, drinking, eating, sex, drinking, sex, and more sex. Castiel loved it, he loved him. It was easier to fall in love with him but honeymoon bliss never lasts and soon Balthazar was disappearing on trips away, not returning his calls for hours or even days and there was always an excuse.

It was seven months in their relationship when he returned and after their reunion sex he decided to do a little investigating. The only investigating to be done was to grab his phone when he slept next to him and look through the contents. Castiel knew the password; he was predictable and always would be.

His stomach dropped and his heart squeezed when he saw the vulgar messages from men and women alike, videos taken of them and he sighed deeply in defeat dropping the phone on his head. Balthazar spluttered waking up and he faced the undeniable anger of him. Castiel ended the relationship and told him in no certain words to fuck off out of his life and to not come back. It broke his heart to send him away but no amount of begging and pleading would change his mind, he would always be stubborn.

Balthazar disappeared for a month after that with no contact and it left him more miserable than he realised. It was the same routine for days, sleep, work, eat, sleep, work, eat, and over and over again till Jo snapped it out of him with a sharp slap across the cheek and a good night out. Castiel ended up sleeping with a random stranger in a one night stand. It was nothing more than a fuck. It just left him unsatisfied and craving something more.

He was in the apartment by the house needing to be alone when a knock came on the door. Castiel opened it and nearly slammed it in his face when he saw Balthazar.

"Please…hear me out"

"Give me one good reason?"

"Because you love me"

"That's not a good reason" he said going to shut the door when Balthazar slammed his hand out and shoved him back.

"Because I miss you, because I made a horrible mistake, and I want you back"

"Get out"

"You know you want me back"

"I really, really, don't" he said turning his back on him.

Castiel gasped when his arms circled around him his waist and a warm mouth pressed the nape of his neck.

"Yes, yes you do" he murmured kissing down his neck and resting in the crook of his neck. "We're too good together…we work, we fit, and I need you" he whispered trailing his hands up his jumper tracing them down his ribs and stroking a thumb across his nipple.

"We're not getting back together…I can't trust you"

"Okay but what about benefits?" he whispered into the crook and lifted his head when he turned to look at him. "Win, win, don't you think?"

That was how it started and that was why he was standing outside of the apartment wanting one thing only from him.

"Wine?" Balthazar said when he walked in.

"No"

"It's a good year" he said sipping the red wine and smacking his lips together. "Don't be such a prude"

"I am no prude, you wanted me here, and I want my reason"

Balthazar's eyes flashed with amusement and he inhaled setting it down with a small smile.

"You know the reason but you have trouble in your eyes, what's wrong?"

"Nothing is wrong"

"I've known you for a year and I know when you lie…"

"Anna married an unknown man on her travels around the world…mom is secretly furious and we have to deal with their visit in a few days"

"I always thought you were the rebellious one"

"Shut up and let's get reasoning"

It was always afterwards that he felt guilty, cheap, and like a whore. Castiel turned away on his side looking across the room and longed for more. He wanted someone he just didn't want him for his body alone and nothing more. He wanted more than that, he wanted love.

~0~0~0~

Gabriel lay back strewn across the couch engrossed in his Buffy marathon while Castiel stood at the window smoking.

"When will she arrive?"

"Mom said it would be around two or three" Castiel murmured staring out across the yard.

Rachel skidded around the corner in a whirl and paused staring at Gabriel and the television.

"Mom said it's my turn"

"Go away"

"You go away! Isn't it about time you moved out…again" she hissed at him trying to snatch the remote control.

"Nope, I'm staying here to annoy little pests like you" he said shoving her head gently.

"Castiel!" she pleaded with a small whimper.

"Gabe" he said with a sigh.

"What? It's a Buffy marathon, marathon means they don't end until every episode is watched and I am far from done" he said gesturing at the television and shoving a piece of chocolate in his mouth.

Castiel rolled his eyes while Rachel stormed out in a huff. He ignored the buzzing against his thigh and flicked the cigarette away with his fingers. They both paused when they heels and looked to see Kendal at the doorway.

"They're here" she said simply with wide eyes.

Gabriel launched off the couch joining Castiel at the window as a car drove up into the drive.

"That's a 67 Chevy Impala" Gabriel murmured with narrowed eyes. "That's a sweet ride"

Castiel didn't reply and simply watched as the car parked outside and Anna stepped out. Her red hair pinned back and her skin still pale as it had always had been.

"How the fuck is she pale?" Gabriel hissed with an open mouth.

"Anna never tans, she burns, and then it fades back to the white of her skin. You know that" Castiel murmured and inhaled sharply at the man who stepped out. The man was so different with a hint of golden brown skin, blonde brown hair to match, and the face of a god. He was gorgeous and well out of the league of his little sister.

"Wow" Gabriel breathed meeting Castiel's eyes as they moved away and joined Kendal and Rachel as they waited for the door to open.

"Mom" Anna said rushing forward and hugging her tightly. The greeting for all of them was short and sweet before she stepped back from Gabriel's embrace to stand near her husband.

"This is Dean Winchester, we met in Canada" she said with a small smile. "I know the…the wedding must be a surprise but I will explain why it happened"

Dean fidgeted uneasily next to her scanning his eyes over them till green eyes met blue eyes and he paused for a moment watching him. Castiel couldn't look away and it was up to Dean to turn his eyes away to the floor before being shoved forward to meet Kendal.

"Pretty boy" Gabriel murmured into his ear. "I wonder how long it'll last"

"We'll have to wait and see" he said and moved forward to introduce himself to Dean before moving back into the living room.

"…and this is also my brother, Castiel"

"Dean" he said with a croak in his voice looking into his eyes.

Castiel lost himself in the green abyss of his eyes for a long moment before shaking his hand and gasping at the shivers running up his arm. He saw the same shock in Dean's eyes before it faded to nothing and he let go.

"We'll need a catch up" Anna said with a nod and a wink.

Castiel exhaled with a brief nod, took out a cigarette, and walked away heading towards the front door. Anna rolled her eyes glancing at Dean.

"He's always like that, you'll get used to it" she said moving away to join Kendal and Rachel in the kitchen. Dean looked over his shoulder towards the retreating figure and froze when Castiel turned to look at him sceptically and confusion written all over his face.

He didn't like the feeling coursing through his veins hot, demanding, and utterly wrong. Castiel stormed down the driveway needing to get away for a few minutes and gain control. He looked at his hand in contempt before sitting down underneath a tree, closing his eyes, and wishing to slip away into the night. It was his only comfort.

A/N: This will become an affair fic. So please don't moan at me for it in later chapters. It's a pre warning.

I wrote this a long time ago and I do rather like it to be fair. I've already uploaded one fanfic, The Team Free Will Hangover, but I'm already struggling with it so I'm doing this one for now. So do me a huge favour and give me some feedback? I would really appreciate it.