Merlin's real identity

Disclaimer: I do not own Big Time Rush, the songs used in this story ( I would tell you who wrote them, but I don't know since I'm musically handicapped in some ways), or the TV show Merlin.

Merlin's POV

"Make it count, play it straight
Don't look back, don't hesitate
When you go big time

What you want, what you feel
Never quit, and make it real
When you roll big time

Hey, hey, listen to your heart now
Hey, hey, don't you feel the rush?
Hey, hey, better take your shot now
Oh, oh, oh, oh

Go on shake it up, what you gotta lose?
Go and make your luck with the life you choose
If you want it all, lay it on the line
It's the only life you got, so you gotta live it big time"

"All right, Dogs, that was good." We cheered. "But Kendall," I looked up. "Is there something on your mind? You're not as loud as you normally are". I shook my head. Of course, there was plenty on my mind. I was leading a double life, one of which could get me killed. Plus there's a lot of tension between Arthur and his father ever since he admitted that he loved Gwen. And Gaius thinks I'm seeing a girl because I'm not at the castle at night. On the other hand, Logan keeps thinking I'm sick, and thinks I should see a therapist or something. Carlos keeps on raving on about corndogs, and that's enough to make anybody loose there mind for a few hours. James will only take his eyes away from his mirror to sing, shoot in a music video, or go on a date. He's been slightly depressed ever since Jennifer "The blonde one" dumped him. Jo was in New Zealand for three years, and Freya died, so my heart was broken double. And no, I am not dating two girls at the same time. Freya and I were like brother and sister before she died. Jo and I are boyfriend girlfriend, were just long-distance. On the Camelot side of my life, everybody sees Morganna as the king's loving ward (adopted child), but only Gaius and I see her for what she really is, an evil witch trying to steal the crown. Talk about a split personality, Arthur expects me to be on way, a weak servant with a sarcastic sense of humor, and the other guys expect me to be there leader with a bunch of advice for there personal problems with girls, Griffin, or Gustavo.

I should probably explain. I'm from two time periods. Both of them have there own separate destinies for me to follow. And I've become so involved in both of them that if I leave either one, well, I don't know what would happen, but it wouldn't be good. I don't know what happened to make me from two different time periods, but something did, and I can't change it. I'm from the 21st century and from the middle Ages. Like, Camelot times. In fact, I am from Camelot. Don't expect me to explain how that happened. Anyway, I have two personalities, two lives, two destinies… I think you get it. I also have two names. In the 21st Century, I'm Kendall Knight. You've probably heard of me if you like the band Big Time Rush. I'm the lead singer. In the middle Ages, I'm Merlin Emrys. Yeah, the Merlin Emrys, the one who is a great sorcerer and all that? Again, don't expect me to explain that. Lets just say, I like my cell phone, but it's gotten me into a few close calls and awkward situations in a place that's not supposed to have technology, much less electricity. I'm just walking down the hall of the castle, and all of a sudden, my ring tone starts blasting out of my pocket because I got a text from Carlos asking if I had eaten the last corndog. That almost got me killed. Thanks a lot, Carlos. I also have two appearances. I have blonde hair and green eyes in the 21st Century, and I have black hair and blue eyes in the middle Ages. Again, don't ask me to explain. I remember one time; Arthur caught me with green eyes. Not an experience I care to repeat. Hours of questioning, I'll leave it at that. And the time Logan thought I had dyed my hair black. I went into the bathroom for a minute and walked back out, because in between time periods, it takes a minute or two for my appearance to adapt. Thankfully, Arthur hasn't caught me with blonde hair. Yet. I don't know what his dad would do if I suddenly showed up with blonde hair. Something tells me he won't buy the "An evil dude put a curse on me" story I pulled the last time my appearance wasn't in order. And not to mention when I get an injury in one time period, and show up in the other with a sudden broken bone or something. You see, I can only use the excuse " I was in a hockey game" in one time period, since Arthur doesn't know what hockey is. In the middle ages, I try to hide any injuries as best I can. It doesn't always work out that way.

"Hey, Kendall, you look kind of lost. You okay?" Logan asked me. "Yeah, I'm fine" I told him. He didn't look convinced. Anyway, before I was interrupted by Logan, I was going to mention the serious perks of being from two different time periods. I automatically know everything that happened in between the Middle Ages and the 21st century, in every country, since Camelot isn't really in any country. That makes history reports and tests a breeze. I don't even need to study! On one of my history reports about the Middle Ages, one of my teachers comments were" It's like you were actually there!" If only she knew. So, yeah, you can see why I seem a little lost when the only perk of this whole thing is that I don't have to study for history and I constantly get awards because I know exactly what Einstein was thinking when he created the light bulb, or what was going through Thomas Jefferson's head when he was writing the Declaration of Independence. I was there, so of course I knew. Again, I don't know how that happened, but a lot of people tend to think out loud. I also seemed to be in a lot of people's heads during the Cold War and when Martin Luther King Jr. was giving his "I have a dream" speech, including his own head. You know that part where he put down his prepared speech and said "I have a dream that someday, my four little children will grow up in a world where they will not be judged by the color of there skin, but by the content of there character" part? Guess who came up with that. Apparently, Carlos can read lips. He just saw me mouthing the "I have a dream speech" perfectly, stupid Carlos and his ability to read lips. Now I have to think of a cover story. It really sucks being in the same classes of all your best friends. They know exactly what your homework and projects are, so you can't say you were reciting it for school. I sulked a bit more, before saying "uh… Katie! She wanted me to learn it to help her with a… anti-racism thing! Yeah! That works!" WHY DID I SAY THAT LAST PART OUT LOUD? Before Carlos could compute what I said, I said " I have to go outside for a second". I dashed out the door and ran towards the woods. There was this rock that was the boundary type thing for Camelot and the Palm Woods. Arthur almost followed me here onetime. I crossed the boundary and arrived suddenly in Gaius's quarters. Gaius wasn't there, which was good because my hair was still blonde. Arthur called me. I, being an idiot, forgot to see if I was back to Merlin normal. I wasn't.