This is a song-fic that kinda came to me when I was listening to music. It's kind of funny how every sone I listen to is about Vampire Academy now! I hope you like it... I know it could be better though!

I own nothing...song is Dido - White Flag

I am working on my Stop Being a Coward fic...hope to post later today...

White Flag

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you

I'll tell you that

But if I didn't say it

Well, I'd still have felt it

Where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder

Or return to where we were

"I still love you." Tears welled up in my eyes as I look at the man who had once loved me back, my words attempting to reach some part of him that still loved me too.

"Rose, we've been over this. Why must you keep saying that? You will get over it, I know you will." Dimitri replied, his guardian mask firmly in place. The first few times he had told me that, I has seen pain and regret in his eyes if only for a second but now he was getting better at hiding the pain. Or maybe he was really starting to believe it, I wasn't sure which.

"I have to say it, because it's true. Even if I didn't say it then I would still feel that way so what is the point in trying to lie to either of us?" I broadly told him, blinking in an attempt to get rid of the tears before they managed to spill down my cheeks.

"I know you don't love my anymore. I promise I'm not trying to make things hard for either of us or even trying to get you back Dimitri. I just had to tell you one last time. I won't ever stop loving you." With that being said, I turned and abruptly left the room. I had been surprised he had let me inside of his suite in guest housing at the Royal Court anyway but I guess since there were people in the hall, he didn't want to make a scene.

Well I will go down with this ship

And I won't put my hands up and surrender

There will be no white flag above my door

I'm in love and always will be

I ran down the hallway towards my own room as I finally let the tears go. There was no use in hiding them from myself when I knew they were there. I knew to the deepest part of my soul that I would always love Dimitri. I knew that he was the only person that really got me and even though I had never believed in soul mates, I knew Dimitri was mine. I would never give up on him. He would always be my one true love. I lay down on my bed once I reached my room and cried. I cried for my heart break, cried for the man I had lost, and cried for the future we would never have now.

I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again

And I caused nothing but trouble

I'll understand if you can't talk to me again

And if you live by the rules of it's over

Then I'm sure that that makes sense

I rolled out of bed a while later and walked down to get something to eat. My stomach was growling and I needed food. As I was stepping into the café, I noticed Dimitri sitting at a table by himself, reading one of his books and sipping a cup of hot chocolate.

I got two glazed donuts and a cup of hot chocolate and quietly made my way over to him. I knew he could tell when I walked in the door. We had his uncanny ability to detect each other's presence even in a room filled with people.

"I want to make peace. I am sorry about earlier. I shouldn't have bothered you." I said as I stood by his table, not wanting to sit down across from him. "I know that I have really screwed things up and that we probably can't even be friends now. I shouldn't have gone after you in Russia, I have made a mess of everything and I really am sorry. I know that I am nothing but trouble and all I seem to do is cause you pain. I get it Comrade, I really do. I understand that you don't want to talk to me or see me anymore."

I will go down with this ship

And I won't put my hands up and surrender

There will be no white flag about my door

I'm in love and always will be

I turned and walked away from him for the last time. I knew that I still loved him and that wasn't going to go away. I would always be in love with Dimitri Belikov.

And when we meet

Which I'm sure we will

All that was there

Will be there still

I'll let it pass

And hold my tongue

And you will think

That I've moved on

Three weeks later I was in a ball room wearing a beautiful gown. The top was a white sequined tube top that flowed down into a full skirt that was black with just a hint of a train. It wasn't something that I would have usually worn but Adrian had insisted since I was his date to the Queen's dinner party. Lissa was going to be there as well and I had allowed her to do my makeup and curl my hair into long wavy tendrils that I knew Dimitri would love.

He was there of course in his usual guardian attire, working for the night. I had been avoiding him for as long as I could but I knew that I would see him tonight no matter what. The second I laid eyes on him my heart stopped. He was even more amazing than I had remembered. I caught his eyes for just a moment before I turned way and smiled at Adrian who was coming up to take my hand.

I was very careful not to let my emotions be seen through any part of me. I wore my guardian mask well as I smiled and pretended my heart was not breaking for the millionth time in the last few weeks. I knew he couldn't tell. Somewhere along the way I had figured out how to shield my feelings from him. Hopefully he would think that I had moved on.

The party was fun but I was relieved when it was time to leave. Dimitri and I didn't talk the entire night and had only made eye contact that one time. I could however feel his eyes watching me while I smiled and flirted with Adrian but never once did he acknowledge my presence. Neither did I. I guess we would always be this way now. He no longer wanted me.

As I lay in bed that night I thought again about how much I loved Dimitri. I would never love anyone like I loved him. I would continue to live and be the best person I could be but Dimitri would always be my other half. I would not surrender those feelings. I couldn't, they were too much a part of my soul.

I will go down with this ship

And I won't out my hands up and surrender

There will be no white flag above my door

I'm in love and always will be.

I, Rose Hathaway, will always love you, Dimitri Belikov.

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