I am sooo sooo sorry it has taken me like a year to update. It's been really difficult trying to get down what I wanted, and I've repeatedly come back to this, only to write a line and be stuck again. I hope you guys like it and the reviews I've received so far have helped me write this. Thank you guys for waiting on me and I'm sorry if I've lost any of you guys. Hope you enjoy!

JPOV

Yep. Two black eyes that fucking hurt. I somewhat deserved them. I shouldn't have thrown it in his face that he didn't know what happened to his own sister most of his life. It wasn't his fault.

I had to do this right with Bella. My past I may have screwed up, but if I'm going to include her in my future I can't fuck it up. She's already damaged enough without me being there to mess her up further. Thinking about it, I can't really blame Emmett for trying to protect her from me. It was true that I'd done shit with Maria and it's something to give him enough doubt. I doubt he'd be happy about my justification for it either. Hell, roles reversed I'd think it was stupid.

Bella was my Godsend. She had already changed me and made me want to be a better man, be a man who can protect her, when I failed previously. While I'm around, Charlie won't get to lay a finger on her. I'll kill him first. She deserves so much better than what she's had. I may not be the best option, but I'll always be there for her. Part of me wants to show her what a real man is like, not some pathetic wife beating son of a bitch.

So, for once, to make it right I'm taking her on a date. I'm never going to pressure her in to anything she doesn't want to do, and I'll always make sure she is safe. Always. Even though she hasn't been around us long, I feel like I would be lost without her. She's so pure, even after all she's been through and that makes her the strongest person I know. I know why Emmett wouldn't want me near her. I'd more than likely have to prove my worth to him to be with Bella. Prove to him I'm not as much of a fuck up as he thinks. Everyone makes mistakes, he of all people should realise that.

My plan's to take Bella on the best night of her life. A task, which doesn't seem so hard from the fact she's a tortured soul. My poor darlin'. Mine. I hoped anyway. As I drive to hers I can't help but worry about the reaction I would get from Emmett. He could kill me. I didn't exactly want that. Driving up the Cullen's long drive I found Bella already waiting on the veranda. I got out of the car to greet her. She must have noticed my bewildered expression as she spoke almost straight away.

"I thought it would be safer for me to be waiting for you, in case Emmett answered the door. I know he's over-bearing, but he just doesn't want me to get hurt anymore. He feels like he failed last time." She finished with a mutter, looking down wringing her hands together.

"Guessing you and Em had a heart to heart then." I smiled, letting her know I was glad she was able to discuss me with her brother. I offered her my arm to hold and lead her to my car.

"So where are we going then?" It seemed curiosity got the better of her and I couldn't help but smirk.

"Well...there's this place. My mom and I used to go to, when it was tough for us. I've never taken anyone there before, but I really want to share it with you. That ok, Izz?" I was slightly nervous that she wouldn't want to do alone somewhere with me, but my doubt was pushed away when she smiled brightly at me.

The drive there was silent. It was almost like she was memorising the way here. I didn't mind. I wanted this place to feel like a safe haven like it was for me. Her hand and been tangled with mine the entire time and I could help caress her hand with my thumb. Her fingers fit perfectly between mine and I never wanted to move them, but unfortunately I knew we were reaching out destination and I'd at least have to remove my hand from hers to get out of the car. When I stopped the car, she made her way to get out herself. Well that ain't right.

"Hey hold up, I plan on being the perfect gentleman my Mamma raised me to be." A bewildered expression adorned her face as I exited the car. Realising crossed her face as I went to her door and opened it for her. It wasn't often I'd acted like a gentleman, but for her I wanted the best. I couldn't fuck up.

In silence we walked through the forest that was necessary to reach our destination. I watched her reaction as we entered the clearing, her smile alone light up everywhere. The sanctuary really was stunning. A clearing in the middle of the dense woodland, covered in the prettiest wild flowers you could ever imagine and a waterfall adorning the far wall, elegantly falling creating the most peaceful sound. There, close to the waterfall was a blanket I had already laid out to sit on, with a picnic basket sitting patiently on top for our arrival.

It was a place I hoped she liked, and hoped she would cherish with me. Somewhere I would be able to take her when things got too difficult for either of us. A place it would be just me and her. No Charlie, no worries.

He wouldn't be able to find us here that was for sure, and I would damn well make sure I'd kill him if he came anywhere near her. I had to protect her from her past, something I could see in her eyes that she feared would return. I'd noticed she always looked guarded and as she walked through the clearing, tension slowly dissipated from her fragile form. I knew then that this was the perfect sanctuary for her too. She didn't have to say a word as her body language and her eyes told me everything.

I had given her what she wanted, even if it was just for a short while. Peace. Peace from everything around her, from everything swirling around in her pretty head. I wrapped myself in the comfortable silence surrounding us, finally allowing myself to relax after seeing her doing so.

"How are your eyes Jazz? I'm really sorry that Emmett punched you." She said as I lead her to sit on the blanket. So caring.

"No need to apologise Izzy, wasn't your fault Emmett decided to punch me. I really shouldn't have provoked him..." mentioning her had put a bounty on my head till she arrived.

"I heard about that. It wasn't his fault. I was always so klutzy so Emmett would never have been able to tell whether I fell or what. Charlie also seemed to avoid places where anyone would see. Long sleeved jumpers kinda became my thing." She said this without humour, and looked at me waiting for my reply. Of course he'd tell her.

"I'm sorry, I...just got angry with him for not being the big brother he should have been, and for judging me so easily, when he himself isn't as innocent as he makes out." Maybe discussing this with her wasn't the best of ideas. I didn't want to say or do anything to upset her. She looked a little angry. Fuck...

"He's been a good brother to me Jasper! Always been there for me I just didn't go to him!" I stopped her mid rant before I got further into her bad books.

"Bella I didn't mean it like that. I just...I just wish you hadn't got her because he spent more time with us. It makes me feel partially at fault. Gah...sorry I opened my big mouth. Here, have some food? No point letting it go to waste over my stupidity." Reaching into the basket I offered her a sandwich, choosing to nibble on one myself.

She didn't speak to me as she ate, instead she glared as the trees in the distance. Maybe Emmett was right. Maybe I was a fuck up. Hell, I've been on one date with her and already managed to upset her. Great... and how exactly are you going to fix this? I don't know.

"I apologise from my foolishness Izzy, I'll take you home if you like." Oh, cause that obviously sorts out the problem. Idiot. She turned to me and her eyes had softened considerably.

"No...no need to apologise Jasper. I just don't want anyone blaming Emmett for anything ok?" Begging me, breaking my heart for mentioning him at all.

"I won't utter his name again, if it'll keep you here with me..." I offered her a small smile, which she gracefully took, and once again linked our hands, like they had been in the car.

Once again silence fell upon us and I sat wondering everything about the radiant beauty beside me. 20 questions. Favourite colour? Blue. Favourite book? Wuthering height. Favourite film? Didn't have one. I sat and listened to everything she had to say about herself, answering her questions when she asked. Favourite colour? Green. Favourite book? Historical books. I'd tell her anything just so I could find a little bit more about her. I didn't want to leave this place. I wanted to sit here with her all night, putting her together piece by piece, watching her smile as she thought of the answer. And watching her fire in her eyes as she spoke so passionately about her favourite things.

She was perfect. So innocent that I wanted to shield her from the harshness outside of Charlie, cause it wasn't all roses either. I couldn't stop staring at her for a moment as if, if I turned away I'd miss something. Miss her smile or her face crinkled in distaste at whatever I had just declared.

Thought our discussion of course had to be disrupted by my cell phone ringing in the pocket. Why didn't I turn that off? Emmett. Oh joy. That was going to be a peachy conversation. Instead of answering I hung up and sent him a text asking him what was up. I was immediately sent a reply stating just 4 words which held orders I wouldn't deny.

Getting late. Home now.

I showed Bella the text and she sighed, looking around the clearing once again. I quietly promised her we would return and held my hand out to her. I didn't want Emmett any more annoyed at me than he already was and pulled Bella gently to her feet, kissing her sweetly as she reached her full height. I knew for a fact she would flood my dreams. For once, I wouldn't have to dream of my past and hopefully, neither would she.

BPOV

As I sat in my room getting ready, I contemplated where in the town Jasper would take me. I wouldn't deny it. I was worried Charlie would find me. It wasn't that I didn't trust Jasper, but where could someone go in a town so small. Being lost in my thoughts it took me a while to notice Emmett stood at my door. Well I wonder what Emmett has to talk about then. Part of me wondered if he was going to try and persuade me not to go out with Jasper tonight. It wouldn't work, but knowing Emmett that wouldn't stop him from trying.

"Bells...reckon we could talk?" I nodded and he slowly edged his way into my room and perched himself next to me on the bed. "I'm really sorry for fighting with Jasper. I really do care about you and I feel like I failed you for not noticing. You're my baby sister and I don't ever want to see you get hurt. It really got to me when Jasper said that I didn't notice anything. I know that doesn't excuse me hitting him, but I blame myself enough already for what Charlie did to you. I should have been there with you, protected you. Instead I was out all the time. I really am sorry." Wow, the big bear looked like he could cry.

"Emmy bear, none of this is your fault you big lug. I should have come to you. I should have known you'd believe me and that it could have ended years ago. I should have let you save me from him." Tears welled up in my eyes though I had tried so hard to suppress them.

"I'll always be here for you Jelly Bean. That's what big brothers are for. I'll kill whatever prick tries to hurt you. Hell I'd kill Charlie for you, but Esme ordered me not to get myself locked up..." I couldn't help but giggle. Emmett always tried to add a little bit of humour into a conversation, even if it was difficult to do so.

He hugged me and kissed me forehead before leaving, once again leaving me to my thoughts. I hated that Emmett blamed himself. Hated it. It wasn't his or anyone else's fault. It was my own. I sat on the steps leading to the veranda waiting for him. I knew Emmett would have his piece to say but I didn't want his words to ruin my date with Jasper.

In the car with Jasper I couldn't help but ask where he was taking me. My fears where getting the better of me and I needed some reassurance. His answer didn't really help, though as he lead me thought the brush, I knew I was safe here. It was somewhere I would be able to go to be closer to Jazz. We we're silent for a while but it was a good kind of silence. When we began to speak, I wish I hadn't. I became angry for his accusation against Emmett. He had no right to blame him.

Of course, my anger quickly became guilt as I stared out into the forest. Jasper had his own problems and yet he was still looking out for me. I apologised and allowed out date to continue without the thought of Emmett or Charlie to enter our minds. 20 questions was fun. I was glad to get to know him better. It gave me and insight into the mystery known as Jasper Whitlock. Our game was rudely interrupted by his cell phone. Shortly after he showed me a text from Emmett. Damn. I was going to miss being here. It was so peaceful...

As thought noticing what was wrong, jasper offered me his hand up with the promise that we would return. He finalised our date with a chaste kiss and took me home, before Emmett had a fit.

Hope you like it! Please let me know what you think, I'm not really confident with this chapter =[

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