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Summary (please read before story)

In this story Naruto is 17 years old. The Akatsuki is gone and is no threat to Konoha. Sasuke has returned after killing Itachi. With several tragic events happening in Naruto's life, he has taken a turn for the worst.

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"Hey there big boy, you wanna dance?"

Naruto's head swung forward making his dull blue eyes barely visible from the shadow of his blonde hair. He looked at the heavily makeuped face of the girl in front of him and have a curt nod. He fell down onto a pink fluffy chair as he let the stripper do her job. He took a long swig of his sake bottle and he could feel himself fading from reality.

It wasn't soon after that he was thrown face first outside the strip club with his sake bottle spilling on the floor. The owner crossed his arms and glared at the drunk blonde on the floor "I don't want to see your damn face around here again."

Naruto scowled on the dirt floor as he rolled over to now he laying on his back. He did his best attempt to spit at the man but it failed as it fell at his side "Fuck off old man"

The owner left not waiting for the drunken man to finish speaking, leaving Naruto alone in the streets. He went to take a sip from his sake bottle only to find it empty. His face morphed into a pout as he threw the empty bottle at the strip club making his shatter upon contact. He picked himself up as he stumbled down the street. He found the neatest bar and entered slowly letting his eyes adjust to the dim lighting in the room. He didn't recognize anyone in the bar (or so he thinks anyway) as he somehow made his way to the bar stool.

"Bar tender! A cherry Vodka." the bartender raised an eyebrow at the strange request but gave a nod as he slid an open bottle to the blonde. Naruto grasped the bottle in his pale hands and lifted it up to his mouth. He grunted slightly as the warm liquid burned his throat. He doesn't know how much time had past, as he was now was slumped over the counter with a few empty bottles around him with a half full cup to his side.

"Bartender one sake please."

A new voice said as she took a seat next to the blonde male, Naruto looked to his side his vision being hazy, he barely recognized the exotic red eyes looking back at him in question. "Naruto? What are you doing here?" The soft voice said and Naruto taking a few moments to finally understand what she said

"Getting drunk." was his simple reply as the red eyed beauty raised an eyebrow. She snorted rather unattractively as she took a small sip of her drink "I could see that." She replied back and Naruto took another sip of his drink and swung his head back. His dull eyes flashed to the girl next to him as his glass almost slipped from his hands "What are you doing here Kuurenai?" he said with small hiccups interrupting him.

Kurenai was slightly shocked to be asked out of random and even more shocked at how dead his eyes looked. "Trying to forget." She said and was slightly unnerved at the dead chuckle that escaped the blondes mouth

"You and me both."

He finished his drink and waved the bartender for another one. The man shook his head and swung his rag over his shoulder "No can do. Your last call was 10 minutes ago" Naruto glared at the man, he slumped over his body looking limp as he shifted his eyes to Kurenai "Tck. Fucking people." Kurenai didn't respond as she took yet another sip of her drink. "I never took you for much of a drinker."

Naruto rolled his eyes slightly as he looked at the black haired beauty's red plump lips. "People change." She gave a nod of understanding and grunted again "Isn't that the truth."

Kurenai eyes dropped and she ordered whatever Naruto was having. The bartender sent her a curious gaze but soon shook his head uncaring, and slid over another cherry Vodka.

Kurama coughed, as she wasn't prepared for this to be so strong. She could feel herself slipping into a new drunk status as she made small chit chat with Naruto. He was making her laugh and she slowly leaned into him making him fall off his barstool hitting his head on the floor with a loud thud "Naruto!" Kurenai yelled as Naruto felt his eyelids start to feel heavy.

Naruto felt like shit. His head was pounding and he could still feel the alcohol coursing in his body. His hand shot up and rubbed his sore and pounding head. He looked around not recognizing the room he was in and finally noticed the red couch he was seated on.

"Hey you're up."

He looked up seeing the family red eyed girl and he looked down slightly "Where am I?"

"My apartment, I took you here after you passed out at the bar. The bartender said you were there for a good 4 hours." She said as she handed him a glass of water "Drink this, it'll help with your hangover."

He nodded as he took small hesitant sips as he avoided eye contact "Uh t-thanks for taking me here." he said quietly somewhat embarrassed at being treated like a child. She gave a small smile and a wave of her hand "Don't worry about it I'm always happy to help." her smile slipped and she looked at his again dull eyes, she bent down as she examined his blonde head. "Are you okay? It seemed like you hit your head pretty hard back there."

Naruto nodded as he sipped the water. Savoring the feeling of the cold liquid this time. Kurenai took the seat next to him, she pushed her hair behind her ear as her eyes scanned the young man. "Naruto? Could I ask you something?" she said shakily, she herself was still a little drunk but could still function properly. She saw Naruto nod again as she looked up to meet his eyes

"Why were you at the bar? You seemed really...eager to get drunk."

She saw Naruto flinch slightly as he looked down and his grip on his glass tightened immensely. She was about to apologize until he started to speak

"T-things have happened in my life."

Her eyes softened slightly and asked the question he dreaded to hear

"What happened?"

The glass shattered on his hand making small pieces of glass Imbed itself into his palm. Kurenai widened her eyes and sprung up to her feet. "Naruto! Oh my God!" she quickly grabbed her first aid kit from the top of her fridge and went to wrap up his hand.

Naruto stayed silent as the red eyed beauty went to patch up his now bloody hand. He hated being so weak, he was probably so pathetic to the jounin in front of him. She patched up his hand with such care and attention he could only stare hypnotized. The only other person who helped him with such care was Tsunade and they were not on the best of terms right now. So the care and attention was really….touching.

"There, the bleed-"

"Jiraiya-sensei is dead."

Kurenai looked up from his hand and froze. He eyes went wide as she stared at him in shock. "W-what" she said quietly as Naruto gave a small nod

"Hai, he passed away earlier today. Tsunade doesn't know how, they're still trying to figure it out." he said his eyes becoming more dull than before as he clenched his fists tight, his eyes lowered down making his long blonde hair fall into his eyes, it was then Kurenai noticed he wasn't wearing his Konoha headband

"It was so sudden. Tsunade told me the news herself, I didn't know how to take it so I blew up at her. Blaming her and yelling at her for something she had no control over. I-i was so harsh, she didn't deserve something like that. I did the one thing people did to me when I was younger, I judged and hated for something she couldn't stop.." he said his voice getting quieter and quieter as he kept talking. Kurenai never noticed that she was now holding his unbandaged hand reassuringly.

He held onto her hand tight, his eyes become glossy as he hunched over, letting a soft sob escaped his mouth "I was expecting to receive comfort from my girlfriend Sakura when I got home. I wanted comfort so bad, and all I get is a backstabbing bitch who cheated on my with my best friend."

Kurenai eyes softened greatly but a small amount of anger, she held the now crying young man in her arms. He was shaking and every now and then a sob would find its way out. She stroked his now straighter blonde hair and let him cry. She didn't know when he entered her arms but she didn't mind at all. She felt a few tears fall down her face as well from his story, and her own hardships. He finally stopped crying and muttered a small embarrassed thank you. He met her eyes and noticed that she was now crying as well.

"Asuma cheated on me with Yugao."

Naruto wiped his eyes with his forearm and looked at her with understanding/comfort. He got out of her hold and moved her into his own arms. She was greeted with a strong pair of arms wrapping around her and a small muttering that sounded awfully sincere and trying to be warm

'It doesn't feel good to be betrayed'

She shook her head and her arms tightened around him "No, no it doesn't."

They stood there for several minutes enjoying the feeling of warmth between them and the feeling of comfort and understanding. "Is that all that happened to you.." Naruto's soft voice broke reached her ears and she tried not to flinch and she unconsciously moved her hand over her stomach. Tears filled up her eyes and she slightly shook "About a month ago I found out I was pregnant. I was happy. Me and Asuma were finally gonna have a family. I was going to tell him until I found him fucking Yugao like his life depended on it." She looked down and Naruto joined her, mimicking her actions, knowing what it was like.

"And I found out today, that I had a miscarriage."

Now this made Naruto flinch and falter his eyes went wide, not expecting this at all. "W-what? Kami Kurenai I'm sorry." he said with the utmost sincerity as he could muster and took the now fragile girl in his arms. His heart hurt, the pain and betrayal he experienced on this day, was almost his breaking point. The demon inside of him wanted out. And Naruto didn't know how much time was left before he let the demon out. Personally.

"I hate this I hate this I hate this…"

His heart shattered again as he heard the broken whispers of the girl next to him. His own eyes were stinging with fresh tears as she soaked his shirt.

She muttered a small apology and he shook it off, Kurenai lifted herself up. One arm holding her weight up as the other was still attached to Naruto. They both looked up as crimson irises. met cerulean. Their eyes flashed in recent pain and understanding for one another. It was then when Naruto finally realized how close Kurenai was to him. It was then he realized Kurenai was straddling him. It was then, he realized how hot their bodies felt together.

It was then when he realized, that piece after piece of clothing was falling to the floor.