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A better summary: Two broken people find themselves together during the war. Fem Harry. After Fleur leaves Bill following him gaining his scars he falls into a depression. Only a female Harry who cannot see anything but magic can break him from his slump. Together they change the state of the war. Sirius is alive.

He had scars down the side of his face, no one was sure whether or not he was turned. Greyback had always been an extreme level of werewolf, more wolf then human so anything was possible. They assumed he wasn't but there was still that fear able to be seen. He could see it and so he hid himself away.

He would have stayed hidden, separated from his family if not for someone who was just as 'scarred' as he was, deciding that she quickly had enough of it. She wasn't going to let anyone else drown. "Hello Bill," she said from the doorway.

"Potter," he half growled, if it was anyone else he would have told them to bugger off but he found it difficult to be stern or angry with the 17 year old. "What do you want?"

"I want for you to stop being so bloody pathetic," she said shocking him.

He was gaping at her, sweet gentle kindhearted Harry Potter had just actually said that, it had to be one of the last things he had expected, "Did you...what the hell."

"I said I want for you to stop being so bloody pathetic," she repeated, "Or did you misunderstand me? I thought I was being very blunt, something you as a Gryffindor should approve of."

He growled at her angrily, "Go away."

She snorted surprising him, "No I won't go away until you get over yourself. So you got a couple scars, who bloody well cares? Stop being so narcissistic and get over yourself. Your girlfriend was nothing but a slut anyways and didn't deserve you. I'm sure it just makes you feel shittier but I am sick and fucking tired of hearing you in here with your bloody pity party and hearing everyone else whine about it."

"Then don't listen."

She made her way to the bed and shocked him by sitting down and spinning so she was cross legged facing him. "Then stop whining. I get it, your upset but it's better to know she's a shallow bitch now then after you got kids involved."

There was likely some truth in that statement but he was too angry to see it. "I'm scarred, a monster can't you fucking see that?"

He froze realizing who he said that to, "No bill, I don't see that, I don't see anything after all. You're talking to the blind girl, you know that freak with magic sight but no actual sight. The disabled one everyone always fucking pities. Sorry I can't see how a couple little scratches are the end of the world."

"You're the only one and it's just cause your blind," he growled out, "Everyone else can see it."

"When I look at those around you, I see worry. It's you pushing them away, you scaring them off not your scars and not the fact that you have the potential to become a werewolf," she said just as blunt. "It's all you. Charlie, he's near you but he's afraid to say the wrong thing in case he sets you off. It has nothing to do with your scars Weasley. Your mother wants to mother you, your father feels guilty for some strange reason. If you were done being a hermit they would treat you normal. The twins are planning on giving you a dog collar and a chain if you turn because they are the twins. This is all on you, not on them."

"You don't understand."

"Don't understand what it's like to be scarred and afraid of what people thinks, to have someone abandon you because you're different. Yeah take it from the blind girl with the lightning bolt scar, with the scars on her back. I know what it's like to be scarred inside and out. To have people think you're a freak because you're different. I see magic but I can't see anything else. Avada Kadavra damage or some other nonsense. They won't say it to my face what a freak I am but they say it behind my back as if I am deaf not blind."

He cringed with every word knowing that she of all people could understand what it was like. He seemed to lose some of his anger, since he could not deny what she was saying. "How do you deal with it," he asked finally in a small weak voice, sounding far too much like a scared child for his liking. "How do you deal with knowing they watch you and not being able to stop it?"

"One day at a time, your head up high and fuck'em," she said surprising him with the curse. She was always so quiet. "They aren't your problem bill. Once you get past yourself, that's the biggest hurdle. The ones who stick by you are the ones who matter. The ones who accept you as you are matter. It's in adversity, it is times like these that you see the truth of people."

"What do you see," he asked hesitantly.

She chuckled, "I see you in here by yourself moping over the slut who would have just hurt you in the end anyways. I see your brothers wanting nothing more than to come in here but you push them away. I see you are a very ugly color."

"Ugly color," he scoffed wondering what the hell she could mean by that.

She grinned back at him. "Yes, self-hatred, self-disgust, self-doubt, anger, sadness, it turns you a very ugly color, your energy, your very being turns inward and it is ugly. You need to let it go Bill."

"Why?"

"Because war is coming. The truth is, war is here. You never know how much time you have left to live and in the end, you need to live with the time you have left. Besides, I have it on good authority, scars on a guy is hot as fuck and not to mention most of Hogwarts has a bit of a werewolf fetish. They could be quite the animals in bed from what I've heard. Just ask Remus."

She took off before he realized what she said. Shocked and horrified, he took off after her. Running directly into the dining room. "You're not bloody serious are you?"

"Not to mention muggles, you will have a different muggle in your bed every night," she laughed dancing around the kitchen table as he followed her. "I think the scars complete the look, bad boy werewolf thing. The muggles will just love you and after Remus at Hogwarts werewolves rate high on the shag it scale."

Everyone were gaping at the two of them shocked unable to believe how they came down or in Bills case that he came down at all. They couldn't help but wonder if they misunderstood her statement. "After me what," Remus asked as Sirius barked laughing.

Bill looked just as confused, "Shag it scale."

"Oh my Godric, I would fuck that if I got the chance, he is so hot and such a bad boy. Werewolves are so in this season and I wonder if he's an animal in bed, I'd shag that so quick," Harry mocked causing the order to gape at her. "What you thought the girls went to his office because they had questions ab0out DADA. He was a 7 but he rose to a 9 on the hotness scale once they found out about his lycanthropy. Girls dig the bad boys that their parents will kill them for bringing home," she said laughing.

"Harry do not ever say those words again," Remus said horrified blushing.

She just laughed harder, "You and Bill just became the loveliest pink and for the record, I am quoting here. What you actually thought nearly every girl above fourth year was interested in Defense? They just wanted to go perv on you. Ha! He's even pinker. I didn't know that he could get this pink. I thought you would figure it out by the pheromones and lusty looks they gave you. 75% of the girls above fourth year went to your office hoping you'd go crazy and fuck them over the desk."

"HARRY," Sirius Remus and Bill shouted.

She just grinned having done exactly what she had set out to do. "ahh Bill, don't you worry, a partial lycanthrope will still get their attention, maybe add a few more scars and you will reach Remus on the hotness scales."

"CUB," Remus growled.

She laughed again, "Merlin I like this game, you all are the strangest colors. I should do this more often."

"Harry Lily Potter, you are far too young to talk like that," Molly growled.

"Come on Mrs. Weasley, it's all in good fun and I assure you, I was not one of the girls who wanted Remus to shag me. Incest much, I am just quote what I heard from the older girls don't worry. Besides, look who decided to join us for breakfast," Harry asked pointing to Bill. "He decided now that he just became a sex god that he misawell join us, maybe flirt with Tonks."

"Absolutely not, I chased you because I wanted to hex you for putting those horrid images in my head about Remus," Bill returned.

She just smirked "But did you notice the greenness of Remus, he's oozing jealousy, either he has the hots for you or he wants to shag a little Miss metamorph," Harry mocked causing them all to go pink.

Bill couldn't help it, he had to laugh, his laughter shocking everyone. It was a sound they had not heard since the accident. "I know you can't see it but Tonks just went pink from her hair to her toes and is giving Remus those lusty looks you keep mentioning. Apparently she's one of the girls who has a thing for werewolves."

Harry just grinned taking a seat between Charlie and Sirius, Bill took the one across. Charlie looked at the 17 year old gratefully, "thank you," Charlie whispered too low for anyone but her to hear. "For getting him out of his self-disgust phase."

"Anytime Chucky," she returned taking a sausage. "So what were you all talking about before I came down and had the sex talk with Bill and Remus cause you all got really quiet."

Sirius who had been fighting his laughter, couldn't help it any longer since he nearly rolled on the floor. "Oy, was Angie and Alicia one of the ones who were talking about Remus," Fred asked.

"Don't worry, they have a thing for redheads," she returned smirking. "Don't let them near Bill though, he's a redhead and has the whole moody werewolf thing going. They'd switch in a heartbeat."

Bill tossed a roll at her but she caught it and took a bite. "That's cold Harry Potter," the twins said together but they were laughing and just happy that bill was down stairs.

"Get over it, scarred guys has a sex appeal, I know there was a good few who were...curious about Moody."

"Now I know your screwing with me," Bill stated.

The twins cringed, "She's not, we overheard," Fred said shivering, "We were scarred for life."

"Thanks now so are we," Sirius said disgusted, "No offence mad eye."

"I'm just as appalled," he admitted, "Hogwarts students."

Harry grinned eating the rest of the meal in silence well aware that Bill was watching her.